Heck of a Month -

Two things have about trashed my month of July - as well as my fragile lap-band routine.

At the risk of sounding like making excuses, we've hosted three teenage grandsons for the last three weeks - nice kids, but very hard to manage everything with house guests. Eating out a lot, no down time, no organization time. This was not a good event, starting just days after my first fill.

Also, have been working early and late on a big project (many 12-14 hour days). In combination with above, did not do a good job of bringing healthy lunches / dinners.

That being said, have managed to manage my weight - about 235 (down 32 total since starting program in Nov 08). But so disappointed, wanted to have made more progress by now, almost 2 months post-surgery.

Also, am just plain overwhelmed. Made a list of all the things I'm stress over, and it is very long. DH isn't a worrier, and can't figure out why I worry about things I can't control. We have a strict policy: I worry about everything, he worries about nothing. No wonder I tend to overeat.

Visited the "Struggling" section tonight. I'm not feeling like a failure, but I can see one could fall off the grid very quickly - especially after the tremendously long build-up to surgery.

I think my other problem is I need a fill. I have 3 ccs in a 10 cc band. Virtually no restriction. Was going to wait until Sep, but will call and go asap in Aug - why wait.

Got to jump restart. Hope FitDay is fixed by now on this site, need to drink the water religiously, get back to walking more.

Well, signing off for now. Be back tomorrow, I know that helps a lot, too.

Bandster Hell is something they certainly don't prepare any of us enough for. You have all the build-up and motivation for the surgery, restriction for awhile post-op...and then...nothing....you're back to the old you with all the hunger and it's so demotivating. I can understand why we hear from some here that don't go back to the doc for a year and feel like a failure.

I know they are being cautious, but I wish they could do a better job tailoring fills faster for those that need it. I had a little restriction after the last one, but feel a huge difference after today's fill-5.6 now (my third). As I told my doc today 'my weight loss so far has been mostly my doing'...Hang in there...the restriction will come with time and you'll get the help of your band soon. And 32 pounds is great!!!

You're already back on the road...keep going!

You have done well. Jump on my wagon and we can work this out together. I am trying to beat the Band. I go for my first fill today. Wish me luck. You have had a lot on your plate, three teenage boys. OMG I have two and my head spins. Keep it up, and Best wishes. imaluckydog