I am only 2 weeks post-surgery...and already I have gained back 4 pounds...I am so emotional right now I don't know what to do...I can't understand not eating anything but gaining weight...I am just so frustated...I know I sound like a big baby...but everytime I think about gaining the weight back I tear up...just wanted to vent...sorry guys
So as of yesterday I am officially in training for my first 5K run. I am super excited and nervous at the same time. I really needed something to get me jump started. My energy hasn't been where I wanted it or needed it to be since surgery. So my friend invited me to run in the Graffiti Run with her. This is a super fun run/walk. It's a no pressure run that isn't about winning but more about celebrating the fact that you can actually finish the 5K. So yesterday I started my first day of training and was pretty pleasantly surprised that I did my first 2 miles in 20 minutes. Now I know to most runners that's nothing but for me someone who has never been a runner it was super huge. A 5K is actually a little over 3 miles so I have my work cut out for me. I am very excited about continuing my training and seeing how fast I can get my 5K time down to. I have til December so wish me luck guys!!!
Ok so today I made my Husband take the scale out of the bathroom and hide it from me....I was driving myself completely crazy...I would get on the dang thing everytime I walked by it...I mean I'm not sure what I was expecting to see everytime I got on it...I mean it's not like I was gonna drop 10 pounds every 10 minutes lol but apparently that's what I was looking for...But it's gone now and I only want to see it maybe once every 2 weeks....hopefully this will lighten the stress and craziness in my head!!!
Today we had my daughter's 8th birthday party...I've always been a sweet eater...birthday cake was always a for sure thing for me at parties...I never knew how people had the will power or just the unwant of cake (or any sweets for that matter)...but today I realized how much this surgery really has changed me...I didn't even have the yearning to cut myself the smallest crumb of cake...It really didn't hit me until the end of the party after everyone had left...I got so excited when I realized I went through a whole party and didn't even think twice about it...now I know to some people that may be such a small thing but to someone like me with such a sweet tooth that was a huge milestone...anyways just thought I'd tell you guys about it since I know other people around me might not get it as much as all of you...HAVE A GREAT NIGHT YOU GUYS!!!!
So about 2 months before my surgery my loving Husband bought me a pair of pants. The size on the inside of them was indeed my size but you know how some stores sizes run much smaller than others. These came from one of those stores. So when I tried them on I couldn't even get them up past my knees. Talk about embarrassing and just making me feel like my life was over. Welp yesterday I decided I would try on those same pants (since my Husband has taken and hidden the scale I don't really have a clue what my weight is unless I go to the doctor). I figured the pants would for sure let me know just how much weight I have lost so far. Weeeeeell to my surprise they did fit and I even had to wear a belt with them because they were big in the waist.Talk about a WONDERFUL feeling. I mean when I left my house yesterday no one or nothing could've taken the smile off of my face. What made me feel even better is knowing that this is just the beginning and I have so much more weight to lose. I couldn't be happier about making the decision to have my surgery. What a life changing day yesterday was for me!!!!
So I'm so excited to say that after almost 2 weeks of stalling....my weigt finally started going down again!!!...I just want to say thank you to the ones who gave me some helpful advise and helped me keep my head on straight when I was feeling like a mess...I am so very thankful for this website and all the helpful blogs and all the people who take the time to extend helpful words when things aren't going exactly like you thought they would...It's nice to be able to talk to people who are going through the exact same things as I am!!!!
I did my first 5K today on my 3 month post surgery anniversary!!! Although I wasn't really happy that it took me 48 minutes to complete it I do have to think back and realize that 3 months ago I may not have been able to even finish it much less run half of it. This surgery has really been a blessing in my life!!! And thanks everyone that has shown support since I have started my training. It's always a nice feeling when you know you have people cheering you on!!!
So I've been in training for the Graffiti Run (it's a super fun 5K) and it is going so GREAT!!! I never realized how much I could truely accomplish when I really put my mind to it. If anyone else is thinking about trying a 5K I found an app called couch-to-5K. IT WORKS!!!! I've gotten my miles down to 15 minutes a piece which for me is out of this world mind blowing!!!! I find myself just relieving so much stress now on the track and the fact that I actually have the energy to do it now amazes me everyday!!!!