So I started really thinking about WLS about a year and a half ago. Then I realized that the insurance I had at that point in time did not cover it. No matter how hard I fought it, they just wouldn't budge. Then I started my new job working for the state and was on a new insurance. I did my research and found out that the new insurance did cover the surgery but I had to do several things in order for them too. I started this journey in Sept 2012. I didn't really have anyone being supportive of me and just kept everything to myself. After going to the seminar I was determined that this is what I needed support or no support. My mom was totally against it and threw a huge fit about it and still does not want me to have it done. I was beyond tired of feeling like crap and being miserable. I knew something had to change, I had to get healthier for my son. I was at the most that I had ever weighed at that time which was almost 270. I started weight watchers and it just didn't work...I started doing all of my stuff that I had to do in order to get approval from insurance. I started eating better and making the changes and also working out. At my first consult with the Surgeon I weighed 263 which was in Oct 2012. At my final appointment with him I was down to 249 and was ecstatic to see that on the scale. Its been so long to see my weight in the 240's. Now that I'm on this liquid diet I'm still dropping the weight and I'm at 243.6 as of this morning. Mind you on April 18th I weighed 249. I'm showing that the weight is coming off right now but I'm TERRIFIED that its just going to stop! I'm terrified that the surgery is not going to help and I'm just worrying myself about it. I have a little over a week until surgery and I'm stressing out about it. Are these feelings normal? Did anyone else deal with these feelings? I mean I'm doing everything I should including working out about 1.5 hours 4-5 times a week but I'm worried about not being able to work out for awhile after surgery to heal....I guess I just need to be reassured that this is normal feelings and I'm worried for nothing. I have learned already to set small goals and then add new ones once each one is met and right now my goal is to get to at least 200. Then work my way down....
