Hi Everyone,

I am freaking out. I got on the scale today and realized that I have gained 5 pounds. I have been sitting at 180-184 for the last 6 weeks. Today, I was at 185.5 and I almost popped a gasket.

Yeah, I know what I am doing wrong, so dont beat me up too bad. I am not exercising. I am eating out a lot and making poor food choices. I have been testing the boundaries of what I cant and can do. I am full of self loathing and disgust. I dont want to gain, I dont need a fill, just an attitude adjustment and some accountability.

So I ask for your help. I will report here everyday for the next 30 days. I am going on vacation on may 26th and I want to lose 10 pounds before I go and see the mid 170's. SO the goal is to lose 10 pounds in a month. Now I know this is ambitious, but I think if I go back to the gym at least 3-4 times a week and do liquids twice a day with one real meal, cut out the junk for a while, I can do this.

So guys, rally around and give me some support. I really like being thin more than food and I feel I can do this. No more complacency...

Babs in TX

334/180/170

-154

You Can Do It!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It can be done Remember lots of water and get the protien in...

You can do it, just buckle down!

Babs, don't beat yourself up too much. I imagine you were pretty happy with the huge weight loss you've had, and what happens when we get happy, we gain weight. You realized a problem and you've addressed it head on. You'll be just fine. You can do it, just think of how happy you'll be on that vacation, whether you lose 10 or not. You've done so extremely and we're all so proud of you.

yup, I'm proud of you too. No butt kicking from me. Sorry

However, I can be an excellent cheer-leader.... now, where did I put my 1970's style pom-poms? Rah-rah-rah! Sis-boom-ba! Die you gravey sucking pigs! Wait, wrong cheer....

GOOOOOOOOOOO BABS!

Babs, I'm with Pat in thinking that negativity doesn't do you any good. Don't beat yourself up!! If you want to turn things around and meet a goal you need to think positively. You KNOW you can do whatever you set your mind to do, and this is no different. Keep checking in and we'll be here cheering you on!!

You go BABS! Off to the gym!!! I won't beat you up at all and I'm glad you've realized your mistakes. I have to do that to myself fairly often too. Keeps us on our toes. Best wishes! Teresa

Vinesqueen,

You are so funny. "DIe you gravy sucking pigs"! I will defintely write this cheer down!

Babs in TX

I believe you can do it =)

Babs....OK, stop beating yourself up! Good grief, look how far you have come! You can do it, heck you've done wonders and you can do anything you put your mind to. You have more than proven that! Now from one Texas lady to another....kick butt and take names.....you can do it!

Hi Yalll,

Made it to the gym and did about 40 minutes of cardio. Then I headed over to the smoothie King and had a low carb Protein shake. So heres the deal for today:

Breakfast:

2 cups of coffee with fat free milk

1 Low carb smoothie

Lunch: chicken (about 5 oz, which I PB'ed half! Havent done that in a year!)

1 bite of scalloped potato

some cucumber

2 bites of banana pudding

Late afternoon: Low carb 20 oz smoothie

Dinner: 1/2 bowl of Soup

4 crackers with salmon spread

1 teaspoon of Peanut Butter

Snack: Will have a 60 calorie chocolate lot fat pudding

Totals for the day: 1050 calories

95 grams of protein

Water: 50 oz but I am still working on it

Well, tomorrows another day!!!

Babs in TX

Exercise: About 225 calories in a 35 minutes

Net intake: 825 calories

Hey Babs, I was just looking @ a reply of yours on another post & thinking how amazing you've done. I think we all tend to have a hard time when we're real close to goal...we've never been successes before!

DON'T FORGET TO DO liquids FOR A DAY OR 2 AFTER PB'ING!--Since you haven't done it in a year, I thought I'd remind you. A year, wow. I'm happy if I don't PB in a week!

You will be so fine.

Wow Babs you are going to do great! Im on liquids right now.. and your menu looks yummy hehehe keep up the good work YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

Im with you at 219. I was going great and now I am slipping. Ice cream, eating out. Thats the reason. Exercise is great. You post and I'll post too.

Time for an adjustment/attitude not band. My bday is 5/25 so I'd like 209 by then. Big order bt I can do it and so can you so lets get it on!

Babs,

While doing some research I ran across this from Donali maybe it will help:

A Tool for Dealing with Emotional Hunger

Hi All -

One of the exercises I was required to do by my counselor for my food obsession was to create a chart of alternative activities for the various emotions I felt throughout my days.

I am not a journaler by nature, so a lot of the counseling sessions were tedious for me - lol. But I thought that this particular exercise was so worthwhile, and gave me a concrete and self-tailored tool to help me deal with my emotions seperately from food.

First, take one week and write down the time every time you eat. Do not change your eating habits - this is not a good/bad kind of thing. In addition to the time, write what you ate, and then write how you are feeling: bored, tired, physically hungry, sad, worried, anxious, resentful, mad... whatever. Write down EVERY emotion you're feeling at the time you eat. Do this for an entire week.

Second, review your week's journal. On a separate piece of paper, write down one time every emotion you noted. This in itself can be enlightening - you get to see the kind of foods you are drawn to when you're eating for a reason other than physical hunger.

Third, think about all the things you could have done INSTEAD of eating that would have had the same effect on your mood that eating did. Some of the items on my list were: take a hot bath, give myself a facial, take a walk, play on the computer, curl up in front of the TV with a sugar-free hot chocolate, call a friend to chat, work in the yard. My food tendency is to eat to calm and relax myself, or to entertain myself.

Fourth, make a grid. Down the left hand side write each of your emotions from your journal week. Across the top, write each of the alternate activities you thought up.

Fifth, read each emotion, and mark an "X" under each activity that you think would help you deal with that emotion. For me, when I was feeling anxious or frustrated, I felt a more active response like working in the yard or taking a walk would be helpful. But for the times I was feeling neglected, or worried, or tired, a more nurturing activity like a hot bath, or reading sounded more soothing.

Once your grid is completed, and you have your emotions matched up with activities, you have a valuable tool for when you want to eat but you know you are not physically hungry. Whip out that chart, find your emotion, and look at the things you want to try before turning to food.

Sometimes you will still turn to food - that's okay! Be good to yourself. Remember that food has been an important coping mechanism in your life, and do NOT feel guilty or bad! However, the more you work with the tool, the more often you will end up substituting a different activity for eating in response to your emotions.

The goals of this exercise:

1. become aware of WHY we are eating

2. eat only in response to physical hunger

3. substitute an alternative behavior to eating in response to emotional hunger

4. be kind and loving to ourselves throughout the process

I hope this helps others as much as it has helped me!

Donali