OK...here goes nothing. I haven't posted in quite a while because I have been dealing with some real shit at home. A month ago I found out that my husband of almost 10 years has been having an affair for the last year and a half. :mad:That's right...while I was losing weight and looking great, that pig went out seeking an affair and here I was scared of how I would act after I started to get attention from others when I started to look nice. I am hurt:crying:, angry:mad2:, sad :cry_smile:, devastated:cursing:, sick and every other emotion (other than happy). I'm now on Xanax for my anxiety and I am completely obsessed with this crap. How can someone go out seeking an affair when they have a wife and two beautiful children? Do people care anymore? Do vows mean anything? What the hell is wrong with people? Of course now all of a sudden he wants the marriage to work. Well damn...you should have thought about that before porking the skank!!!! I want to freaken scream. I want to hurt them both. How the hell do people get on after things like this happen to them? Is it possible? We are in counseling, but should I even bother? Will he do it again? What about my kids? Damn...I need some serious help. This really sucks. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of the chest pains and the anxiety. I want a fairy tale ended but unfortunately my marriage will NEVER be the same. I can never look at him the same way again. Do I give up and start my life over with my boys? Can someone wake me up from this horribe nightmare????? Why me? In the last year I have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 10/12 and I have lost 106 pounds. I thought that my husband was proud of me and thought that I was looking good...guess not, huh? Joke's on me!!!

So glad to hear that Tina. I pray you get the job! By the way I love the new pic of you!

So glad to hear that Tina. I pray you get the job! By the way I love the new pic of you!

What she said!!

YAY Tina!

Hey Tina,

Congrats. I'll keep my fingers crossed on the job.

Hello to my peeps... This is the best Monday that I can remember in a very, very long time. Just got out of a meeting at work and do you all remember the bitch in the office that I was talking about...she got another position and is leaving the office...I can't stop smiling...my work life just got really, really good...plus, there's a slight chance that I could get her job which is a promotion. Keep your fingers crossed for me...the application was due last week and I got it in just in time. Woo Hoo....there is a God.

BTW...I hope everyone is doing well...:biggrin:

That is WONDERFUL news!!!!!

Prayers that the new promotion comes through for you!!!!

Well hello everyone! I hope that you all are doing well. I'm gearing up for the holiday weekend...not too sure how it's going to go because I'm not going to have the boys this weekend. This will be the first time that I won't be with them to see fireworks...they are going camping and to a pool party with their dad...they're looking forward to it.

I plan to hang out with my friend who is also going through a divorce. She's having a difficult time right now, second guessing herself. Her divorce was suppose to be final next Monday but she has postponed it for 30 days. I have known this girl since the 3rd grade...she's a wonderful person and deserves only the best so I hope whatever decision she makes, she will be happy.

I went back to the PS yesterday and got my back drained again. Thank goodness it doesn't hurt because I can only imagine...I have seen the needle and I see all the big holes in my back where he sticks me. I go back next Friday so he can check me out again.

Well...I hope you all are doing well and I hope everyone has a great holiday.

Hi Tina!

Glad to know you are doing fine...hanging out with your friends sounds good. She'll know by your experience that you CAN come through a divorce more whole, more healthy and stronger than you think. You are definately a role model, and I salute you!

It's interesting to hear about the drains, etc - I am planning (thinking positively) to be at my goal weight by Christmas of this year so I can use the annual holiday shutdown at work to have my PS done for Christmas of 2011. I think I'll be having a similar procedure to yours - and hearing about your recovery is very valuable to me.

I'm on vacation next week (Florida - yippee!) so I'll be on LBT infrequently, but I'm bringing my laptop so I can stay on top of my classwork (last 3 weeks of school) and I'm sure I'll check in at least a few times to keep up with my LBT family.

Enjoy your holiday! :tongue2:

I am so sorry for you and your loss. I am older and have been through it and suffered for a long time. I thought my first husband was it and I was in it for life. Unfortunately, he wasn't. It sucks and is never easy. And I agree, you are the only person who can answer whether or not you want to stay in it. It sounds like you don't. I got out and I now have a wonderful husband of 20 years that I would not trade for anything in this world. I am so fortunate and blessed. If you decide to leave, I wish you well and pray for you and your kids. Your pics are gorgeous and he was a fool. I have seen very few occasions where the spouse can be faithful once they are not. It takes a lot of guts to continue in a relationship like that. Whichever you choose, good luck to you.

I am so sorry for you and your loss. I am older and have been through it and suffered for a long time. I thought my first husband was it and I was in it for life. Unfortunately, he wasn't. It sucks and is never easy. And I agree, you are the only person who can answer whether or not you want to stay in it. It sounds like you don't. I got out and I now have a wonderful husband of 20 years that I would not trade for anything in this world. I am so fortunate and blessed. If you decide to leave, I wish you well and pray for you and your kids. Your pics are gorgeous and he was a fool. I have seen very few occasions where the spouse can be faithful once they are not. It takes a lot of guts to continue in a relationship like that. Whichever you choose, good luck to you.

Ok, DUH moment or senior moment whichever. I didn't read all the way through and missed the updates. Glad you are doing great!:tongue2:

Tina you look fabulous! Hopefully you will have a good Fourth. Your friend is very lucky to have you as a friend. Take care. We miss you and love your girl.:tongue2:

Hey there friends...just popping in to say "hi" and see how everyone is doing. I'm doing pretty good...I have met someone that I really enjoy talking to...no...I don't have a boyfriend...it's just someone that I have a lot in common with. He's awesome. Plus...guess what...I actually wore my bikini outside of my house. :bored: I took my boys over to my friends house over the weekend to go swimming...I was brave enough to wear my bikini...life is getting pretty good...had some drama the past couple of weeks but I'm working through that. As of this minute right now in time...I couldn't be happier.

I hope everyone is doing well...thanks for being a great support for me through all of this. You have no idea just how much it has meant.

Hi Tina!:bored:

Good for you - wearing your bikini out in public! Go Girl!

I bet you got lots of compliments...it's a very different world out there when we're no longer needing to hide / wanting to hide because of size.

I look forward to the day when I'm feeling that brave...congrats again, and I'm glad you have a friend who makes you smile. You deserve it!

I smile all the time now:smile: I just got a text message that says, "Good morning beautiful". I am certainly wearing the perma-smile these days.

YAY!! New guy? :bored: I sure hope so!

Yup...new guy...funny thing...we went to the same high school but didn't know each other. Things happen for a reason, right? :bored:

Tina, so glad you are smiling again. You rock wearing your bikini out. I hope things work out for you hon. Yes things do happen for a reason. Have fun with your new friend. Don't be a stranger here. Keep us posted.