Ever since I can remember I was fat. Childhood wasn't the easiest and going into my teens was a nightmare. I remember one of the girls in 8th grade asking me if I could fit through doors. When I got out of high school I didn't think to much of my weight. I would only do things that made me stay out of the spotlight. I got married and then divorced and in many other mentally abusive relationships. In my mind I thought I didn't deserve anything better because I was ashamed of myself.

After my mother died in 2008 of congestive heart disease it made me realize that I could die of that. I began the weight loss journey for a few years.I would lose 20-30lbs,exercise,etc. If I didn't see movement on the scales it would discourage me and gained all the weight back and more. My highest weight was 380lbs.

Last year I decided to look into gastric bypass surgery and see if my insurance could help me. I was sure I wanted to do this, always knew about it but never confident in myself to go through the process.

October of 2015 I took the first step and had everything completed on my end. My surgery was last Tuesday January 12,2016. I do say the pain has sucked but I'm looking forward to this journey ahead of me. ☺

Congratulations on making the decision that will save your life. You are soooo worth it! Good luck on your journey.

How wonderful that you're discovering that you deserve better on all fronts. You'll find good support here at BP. It would also be a good idea to take part in your practice's support group. Given your history, have you considered therapy as well? Taking on super-major changes can be daunting from time to time despite the most positive attitude. Working with a therapist can go a long way.

Best wishes, Robyn.

Congratulations on making the decision to put your health first. You are worth it.

Congrats on making an important decision. Stick with the program and you will see great results - you get back as much as much you put into this. This surgery is a wonderful tool, but like all tools it sis only effective if you learn to use it correctly. Good luck!

Thank you everyone. This site is great. Have a wonderful day.