Y'all I just have to come here and write something and hope that it will stave off the binge that I desperately want to have! My job officially ends tomorrow and I found out more about getting Sc#*$@wed today on my severance and I am just generally having a crap day. With all the destruction and devastation surrounding me from the tornados this weekend, I have no right to complain about not having a job when over 500 people/families in my town have no homes and I know that but that does not help me at this moment! My reality is my reality and I am ticked off that I am the one losing my job! The bad guys (and trust me there are some in this story) are not supposed to win! I know, I know, they will get their's in the end. All things happen for a reason. I'll end up better off. Yada, yada.... All those things are true but all I know right now is how bad I wish I could get drunk and eat a whole bag of potato chips! Yes clearly still a food addict. I truly hope this urge to binge doesn't last the rest of my life!

Ok. I'm done. I just needed to get it out. I don't expect any responses. I appreciate that this is a safe place to vent.

(((HUGS)))

This is a great place to vent. Try punching out your pillow, too. Expressing your anger and frustration in healthy ways is a great step in the right direction.

Eating over it won't help a thing.

@@Inner Surfer Girl - How about drinking? I am pretty sure it would help at least for a couple of hours....

{{hugs}} and agree on teh drinking water.

That completely sucks....proud of you for not eating the bag of chips!

Um yea, well just to be honest here, I did eat a very small snack size of chips. but at least it wasn't the giant bag of Ruffles I would have eaten in the past? Though that is only likely because I don't have it in the house. And to be clear, Water isn't what I was planning on drinking.....

Awwww! You vent away!!

I can't remember, do you excersise? I think a good long walk, jog or few shots at a punching bag may be in order!

I know it's little consolation, but honestly a good hard excersise session helps when I'm stressed out. Plus you'll feel better that you burned off that little bag of chips Hang in there lady! I'm sending positive vibes your way!

Venting is better than eating! Or getting drunk. Vent away!

@@Daisee68, punch the bastards' lights out. When they come to, you'll have a job supervising them in rebuilding for 500 households. A perfect world without chips. Hang in and vent whenever the feeling strikes.

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@@Daisee68 great place to vent....I haven't been so strong so the carbs and wine have derailed my NYE goal. so I am doing like the others suggested and today I am heading outside and away from the evil carbs and poisonous wine

My sister in law lives up there where the tornadoes hit. I am so sorry about that and feel terrible for the families. Im so sorry you lost your job. {{HUGS}} Drink Water and think about how those chips aren't gonna make anything better.

I'm sorry you are losing your job. That totally sucks. You are right, the bad guys aren't supposed to win but sometimes they do. It blows. Eating chips and drinking wine are just a temporary fix that might lead to more chips and more wine. I heard chips are a gateway drug for chocolate, cake, and Cookies. Take care of yourself and I am praying that 2016 brings you a better job!

@@Daisee68 I feel your pain! You live in the Dallas area? Thank goodness you are safe! Hard habits are hard to change. I am off two weeks for xmas and because of the cold weather I have been staying home most days. I don't like cold! I get bored and and stressing about a few things. My first want is food. It is my go to relief for boredom and stress. I have had so many sugar free Popsicles the last several days that I think I am turning into one. I'm glad I haven't resorted to things I shouldn't have. I really need to go work out. It's such a funny feeling, when food has been my go to for so many years.

Hang in there and remember your goal.

You go ahead and vent, as you definitely have every right in this situation. I'm so sorry to hear about the awful things you are going through. You are a good, sweet person and I sincerely wish I could just snap my fingers and make it better.

But please don't add to your own misery by potentially sabotaging your surgery. You've come so far and achieved so much. No moment of weakness is worth a binge that you'll only regret later. This is a life long battle and I know you've got it in you to persevere. Channel all that emotion into updating your resume and job hunting. On the bright side, and I always believe there is a bright side in the darkest of storm clouds, think how much easier it'll be going on interviews without having to do it with the weight you've lost so far.

I had a friend in my pre op classes that got laid off just weeks before surgery, and that also meant she lost her insurance too. But she still made it happen (at age 59), and is now five months post op and working full time again. You can handle this. Things will get better. Hang in there! I'm sending good thoughts your way!

Thanks so much to you all! I woke up feeling better today so your good thoughts, prayers and vibes worked! I went to work and managed ok most of the day until I walked out the final time and then man, I let loose a big UGLY cry! It was awful. My poor friend that was with me! It didn't last long and I'm ok now (mostly). Tomorrow begins a new year - literally.

@@Babbs, I am sorry to say I have not been a consistent exerciser. I know it will help and I'm going to really start making it part of my day - now that I have so much time on my hands . Maybe it will become my new habit but likely I will be more like @@Elode and not so much!

You will all be glad to know that I crushed up that bag of chips last night and after I ate a few more (oops), I threw them in the trash so nothing to come home and binge on again. I did have few bites of cheesecake at lunch today but didn't feel like a binge and I had room in my food budget for the day, so no guilt. Besides it is the crunchy salty chips that are my drug of choice and @@Margie122, you are probably right that it is a gateway drug for me. I have to keep those out of my house.

Thanks for the love everyone. On to bigger and better! (Or maybe smaller and better in our cases!)