Angry and depressed and STARVING!
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Hi All,
So I bawled my eyes out today for the first time since I did this surgery a little over 6 weeks ago. I feel like I am living in a walking nightmare and the only person that can relate is constantly telling me how great she feels and what her experience has been like and I'm just getting madder and madder that my dream is turning out horribly. I love my friend to death, but I seriously don't want to hear it anymore, which brought me googling support groups and of course brought me here.
Like I said, I'm 6.5 weeks post op and I'm miserable. It gets a little easier to eat each day but I'm so tired of throwing up. I'm tired of constantly being hungry. I hate eating every hour and if I don't, I get sick. I have been starving since I opened my eyes after the surgery. My docs looked at me like I was insane when I told them I had that sensation while I was still in the hospital. I was throwing up every half hour for the first 24 hours and ended up having to stay an extra night cause I couldn't even get Water down. I now have to suck on candies like peppermint to curb the starving sensation. I started being able to tolerate solid food like two weeks ago but it's limited. Was able to eat chicken at first, now everytime, I throw up within 5 minutes of starting to eat it, so no more chicken. I basically eat string cheese all day or crackers. Protein shakes only sustain me for a little bit and then I'm back to starving again.
My weight loss at first was 29 lbs in 3 weeks. I've only dropped 3 lbs since and it fluctuates. One day I'm down, next day I'm up. At first I stalled at the same weight for 10 days. Doc's sent me to get IV fluids and gave me a B12 injection. Said I was in starvation mode and my body shut down. I am better now and eating way more, but still no loss. I am to the point where I'm not even excited about this anymore. I'm hungry, sick to my stomach and seeing very little as a reward. I'm seriously thinking I made a huge mistake even though I've been wanting this for over a decade but until this last Feb, my insurance wouldn't cover it. I wish I could just wake up and have a good day. Just needing encouragement right now cause my breakdown today was too much for me right now.
Thanks in advance!