I am 3.5 weeks out of surgery. Am I the only one that feels like I've gone bat sh*t crazy?? I have used food as a comfort for 30+ years.. I was also a smoker then converted to ecigs 2 yrs ago. On my day of surgery I lost my two best friends.. Food and nicotine. I know that sounds terrible, but I am having a hard time emotionally with this transition.

Some days I'll wake up so excited to see my progress and in the same minute hate that I can no longer go out to dinner with my family at our favorite restaurant.. I know the day will eventually come, but for now.. I have spiraled into a dark tunnel that feels impossible to get out of.

Is there anyone else who has gone through this? Im quick to lash out.. Quick to cry and just this overwhelming feeling of anger and guilt. Part of me wishes I didnt have the surgery..

I go for my 1 month check up next week and will be discussing this with my doctor.

Thanks for everyones on going support here. :-)

I had the same feelings post op. I too had to go through a very thorough process to get approved. One was a psych eval. They wanted to make sure that I was aware of what exactly was happening to me. So I was aware of what was going to happen so psychologically I had to prepare myself. 20 months post op and I still have moments that I am sad that I can't eat a full meal like the rest of my family or I get frustrated and I say out loud...sometimes I just wish I could have one full meal! But I voice it and the frustration is gone and I go buy a cute shirt.

Hang in there. It will get better.

My depression has gotten significantly worse since my surgery. I had it well managed an under control. I do suspect that my extended release meds were not being properly absorbed. It has been 7.5 weeks and I am down 40 lbs. shouldn't I be happy!

I WENT ABSOLUTELY CRAZY A COUPLE MONTHS OUT. HARD TO ADMIT BUT I WAS NUTS, SICK, A TOTAL WRECK, AND EVEN BORDERLINE SUICIDAL. I HAD TO GET ANXIETY MEDS AND ANTI DEPRESSANTS. NEVER HAD TO DO THAT IN MY ENTIRE LIFE BUT I KNEW I NEEDED HELP AND I GOT IT IMMEDIATELY. I KNOW IT IS SO SO SO HARD FOR YOU TO BELIEVE ME RIGHT NOW BUT ALL THIS WILL PASS. I FELT LIKE MY LIFE WOULD NEVER BE BACK TO NORMAL AND I WAS TOTALLY FREAKING OUT ABOUT WHAT I HAD VOLUNTARILY DONE TO MY BODY...PERMANENTLY. BUT I AM SO HAPPY I DID, SO VERY THANKFUL, AND SO MUCH MORE HEALTHY.. IT WILL BE WONDERFUL FOR YOU IN TIME....

???? I 100% agree with weight loss comes this bat shit crazy feelings my coping mechanism was gone. I couldn't stuff my feelings then I was getting attention I didn't understand and it made me bitter at first. Now I'm happy and feeling free of the crazys

Thanks for all the replies.. Today is a rough day but I know in the long run I'll spend more time with my kids.

Update: so I went to my primary care and requested to start Wellbutrin XL. It's been almost 2 weeks since I started and I feel so so much better. I still have my days for sure.. But the overwhelming sadness has disappeared. I'm 5 weeks out of surgery and have hit 24 lbs down. I'm officially in the 180s. It's crazy to say that.. When I had my band put in 4 years ago I was almost 300lbs.

Keep you chin up and take one day at a time. Even with the meds I can't look at the future and not get sad.. Thanksgiving.. Halloween.. Christmas... But I now know that I'll just have to jump these hurdles as they come.

Thanks for the update angbutler0712.. it is great to know there is some hope. I may have to discuss my depression and anxiety with my doctor when I got on the 31st. It is nice to have this forum to calm us.

Nice! I think this site is awesome! Lots of support! Also so nice to hear that a lot of you have gone through the same emotions I had as well. I am 11weeks out but was super crazy for about 7 weeks after surgery!!! So weird to feel like a crazy PMS chick 24/7!! It's awesome

I had surgery on July 27. First week had a lot of pain and palpitations. 6 days after surgery found myself in the emergency room dehydrated. I was so angry with myself for having this surgery. Two days after dehydration I got loose stools for 4 days.

My Dr. Put me on probiotics and Benifiber to regulate my stomach. I am now eating chicken, fish vegetables and feeling, alive again. Still very tired, and hoping I will feel better, It seems like I am never going to enjoy food again. Also feeling angry and having outburst of anger with hubby. ????

I had surgery on July 27. First week had a lot of pain and palpitations. 6 days after surgery found myself in the emergency room dehydrated. I was so angry with myself for having this surgery. Two days after dehydration I got loose stools for 4 days.

My Dr. Put me on probiotics and Benifiber to regulate my stomach. I am now eating chicken, fish vegetables and feeling, alive again. Still very tired, and hoping I will feel better, It seems like I am never going to enjoy food again. Also feeling angry and having outburst of anger with hubby. ????

It gets a easier.. I promise. I opted to go on wellbutrin to help bring me back to normal. I now feel wonderful. The weight is coming of nice and steady and I'm able to eat very small portions of most whatever I want. Still all low sugar and low fat. I wish you the best. Try to stay positive.

I really sympathize with all these feelings you are all feeling.... Can not be easy. I am just 11days post opt and have asked myself why so many times but I can't go back so I might as well go forward.