So my surgery was rescheduled from April 15 to April 8th.. Yay to me.. . I worked so hard since August for this. So why am I feeling down?? Pre- op diet is kicking my butt.. So hard making me question everything.. I keep asking myself why did I left myself get to this point.. Where I have to have surgery to be healthy.. Just not feeling like myself.. I thought I would be happy the day I've been waiting for is near..what's wrong with me???

Hi,

I too am pre-op and have been on the journey since August. My surgery is scheduled for May 6th. My doc has been out of town so dates are a little wonky. I had hoped to be there in April. Oh well. I haven't started on the pre-diet yet as it is too soon. You have just a few more days! Hold tight!!! I hear that our tastes will change post-surgery. I can see that. I have been through phases where I went without sugar and felt SO MUCH better and when I re-introduced sugar into my diet, I felt awful as well as kept "needing" more and more of it. I swear, sugar is an addictive drug! I am ready to be done with it forever!

You've got this!

You are going through a life changing surgery so having those thoughts is normal. I see too often individuals who seem to look at this as just a way to lose weight and it is scary. I considered it on and off for years then lost 130 pounds without it. And upon gaining half of that back I knew I had to take this route. This is NOT a temporary thing. And it is okay to postpone a bit if you need more time. Hopefully you have done tons of research..on all aspects of the surgery and life changes needed to be successful. Good luck!

Don't beat yourself up, this is life changing decision so well have so many emotions. I have said the same thing: but at the end of day I had to chose better health. Something in our psyche and we are not perfect Change your mind set to positives thinking and give yourself a pat on the back; you have been working on this since August of last year you deserve the out come.

I'm with you! We can do this!!

You sound like you feel guilty that you couldn't lose the weight all on your own. If a person has a heart attack at least partly due to lifestyle choices, don't they still deserve to have whatever lifesaving surgery/medication is available to them? So should you

If you've ever read Gary Taubes books (http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_c_0_11?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=gary+taubes&sprefix=gary+taubes%2Caps%2C699) Why We Get Fat and What to Do About It, and Good Calories, Bad Calories, one or both of them reference studies on a strain of mice that are genetically programmed to be fat. When these mice were starved by feeding a very low calorie diet, they STILL became obese, yet their organs (including their brains) were undersized. When I read that I literally cried for myself and all of us who are overweight and have tried so hard to lose it. The books explain it better than I can but that and many other studies show that are genes program us to be fat, and turn on those hunger hormones, and increased insulin for storage, etc. We don't become fat by overeating, we overeat because we're fat.

Sure there are lots of habits that we get into that keep us fat and getting fatter, but if we can use a tool like WLS to change those habits, why shouldn't we?

I think it's very normal to be having second thoughts as you get closer but if you've done your research into the procedure, are comfortable with your surgeon, and are committed to the post-op changes you'll need to make, you'll do great! Good luck!