So I have my final set of doctors appts today before all my paperwork gets submitted for insurance approval. An old habit of mine was to self-sabotage when loosing weight for purely psychological reasons. I have been in therapy for the last year to manage this. But here I am, procrastinating getting ready for these appointments, and finding reasons not to drive to Nashville.

You are facing the hardest part of this process... the mind. Hope you can get your head under control... but you (we) have a continuing battle!!!

You are facing the hardest part of this process... the mind. Hope you can get your head under control... but you (we) have a continuing battle!!!

I just think my anxiety is getting the best of me. My emotions are all over the place today.

Half of the battle is seeing the enemy. You know who he is and how he works.

Courage has brought you this far. You have what you need within you. Do what your logical mind says. Let changeable emotion roll on by.

Win.

I'd say you haven't returned to the old habit yet. You're just recognizing the old habit now, which maybe you didn't earlier? If that's the case, I'd change your post title to. "I have made great progress!"

Quick update...made it to the hospital for both my appointments. In the cafeteria now waiting for my last appointment for the day. Only wish....is that the Starbucks was still open. Might go for a walk to burn off this nervous energy before my last appointment.

I agree that you're not returning to old habits, but more like afraid to leave you're old habits so you don't face it. We've all been there and once you're over one hurdle you're off to face another, but with accomplishment.

I don't think you're returning to old habits, you're just more acutely aware of them now. That's a major stepping point in making sure you DON'T return to them - being able to recognize them, and you made it to the hospital so you overcame the temptation to return to those habits. This was a victory for you and a huge step in the right direction! Best of luck!!

Could it be fear? I can't speak for earlier bouts of self-sabotage, but this is a pretty big decision for a pretty big surgery. I'm frightened and I haven't even had my first consult yet!

BTW, I'll be getting mine done in Nashville

Could it be fear? I can't speak for earlier bouts of self-sabotage' date=' but this is a pretty big decision for a pretty big surgery. I'm frightened and I haven't even had my first consult yet!

BTW, I'll be getting mine done in Nashville [/quote']

I don't think it's fear. It's my normal pattern so it was pretty easy to recognize. Where in Nashville are you doing surgery? I am going through St Thomas at Midtown.

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