Some of you may have seen my other posts about my post op complications...if not, here's a breakdown: Surgery was on 8/20. On 8/27, after almost two days of sharp pain when I took a breath, I finally went to the ER. Two blood clots. One in each lung. Admitted to ICU immediately. The next day only complicated things further, as a CT of my abdomen and pelvis revealed two more large blood clots. One in my splenic vein and one near my kidney.... I'm 24 years old. I'm getting married in under 5 months. This kind of stuff is not supposed to happen... I shouldn't have spent almost 12 days in the hospital, 7 of those spent confined to a bed in ICU, where you're lucky if youre allowed to use a bedside commode ( I was only so lucky on my last day in there ). On this past Thursday, after a few days in a regular room and several emotional breakdowns my mom pleaded with the doctor to let me go home. He said okay, as long as I had home health set up for at least a week. Done. So here I am, two days later. I still have two pieces of tape on my arm from where I had an IV taped down, and I refuse to remove them because I have hair on my arm and it hurts when it comes off. I'm miserable. I have buyers remorse more than I could ever imagine. This surgery has brought me nothing but grief. My job is on the line because I won't be able to return for a good while. And now I'm on blood thinners for at least several months. I'm hacking up bloody mucus constantly. I dry heave. I barely eat anything. The only time I have any sense of "ok" is when I'm medicated. I wish life had a fast forward button, or better yet.. A rewind button. I'd take it all back if I could, in a heart beat. That's all for now I guess.
Some of you may have seen my other posts about my post op complications...if not, here's a breakdown: Surgery was on 8/20. On 8/27, after almost two days of sharp pain when I took a breath, I finally went to the ER. Two blood clots. One in each lung. Admitted to ICU immediately. The next day only complicated things further, as a CT of my abdomen and pelvis revealed two more large blood clots. One in my splenic vein and one near my kidney.... I'm 24 years old. I'm getting married in under 5 months. This kind of stuff is not supposed to happen... I shouldn't have spent almost 12 days in the hospital, 7 of those spent confined to a bed in ICU, where you're lucky if youre allowed to use a bedside commode ( I was only so lucky on my last day in there ). On this past Thursday, after a few days in a regular room and several emotional breakdowns my mom pleaded with the doctor to let me go home. He said okay, as long as I had home health set up for at least a week. Done. So here I am, two days later. I still have two pieces of tape on my arm from where I had an IV taped down, and I refuse to remove them because I have hair on my arm and it hurts when it comes off. I'm miserable. I have buyers remorse more than I could ever imagine. This surgery has brought me nothing but grief. My job is on the line because I won't be able to return for a good while. And now I'm on blood thinners for at least several months. I'm hacking up bloody mucus constantly. I dry heave. I barely eat anything. The only time I have any sense of "ok" is when I'm medicated. I wish life had a fast forward button, or better yet.. A rewind button. I'd take it all back if I could, in a heart beat. That's all for now I guess.