this is so real, so close. i am 5'3" 283.9 lbs. bmi 51. i dont know how i got to this point. but im here. 2008 i had a stroke due to migraines. been on steroids and other meds everyday since then. not a big eater but addicted to Pepsi. I keep telling myself it is time for change. i have 3kids n very supportive husband n family. now the reason for this post. surgery july 24 and i have a hundred fears. i hear its normal. how do we cope with it all. well this is my journey here n dallas tx i will post daily. i pray that i can help the new sleevers one day at a time. b blessed

Thank you for sharing, I just spoke to my surgeon today, first meeting. I've been thinking about having this done for many years. I can't believe I'm finally taking the necessary steps to go forward. I'll be looking forward to your posts and praying for you too.

Just starting the journey myself! It is exciting and scary!

hi velena. Congratulations on decision and taking the first steps. it is a journey with lots of mixed emotions. fear, doubt, anticipation, questions like what am i doing, why cant i just do this on my own, ect.. just know u r doing this for u. Stay focused n positive. i ride this rollercoaster daily. but i am determined to conquer this weight n health issues.

laceylove it is a combination of feelings. Congrats on decision. this forum has helped me tremendously. keep telling yoursrlf why it is necessary to invest in you. the hardest challenge for me was to stop putting everyone before me. learn to say no. n dont feel guilty, about choosing YOU. this time

Laurabr1, thank you for your kind words. Yes, it is hard to put myself first, still learning how to do that! Just what I needed to be reminded of. Thanks!

Hey Laurabr1. Looks like we have a lot of things in common. I'm 5'3 too and my highest weight was 283 (though first consul at the doctor was 279). And like you my surgery will be July 24th!

Personally, I'm so excited for the surgery already though I do fear the recovery. You have no idea how many times I've thought "I must be crazy to be choosing to remove part of my stomache permanently and forever change myself... there is no going back!! Why can't I just try harder to diet and exercise?" Well I have been trying to diet and exercise for the past 3 months now ever since my first WLS seminar. I cut out soft drinks, coffee and started a low carb/low fat diet. I haven't followed it always but I have definitely been eating better. Two weeks ago I also started replacing Breakfast with a shake to get ready for the liquid diet. I have managed to lose a bit of weight, now down to around 266... but I have been stuck at around 265-268 for over a month!! I just cannot break the number and this is how I know I really need this surgery. I need a better tool and I know I don't have enough will power and strength to do this on my own. Most importantly I have been miserable and hungry all the time and I don't want to have this feeling anymore. I feel really confident this will be the right choice for me at the end but I know it's scary and it's hard to imagine it right now.

I'll be thinking of you as we head to surgery together! Good luck to you. Let's hope we both have an easy surgery and easier recovery.

well hello MILKD how are you. seems as if we do have a lot in common. i hope all goes well with you and i both on the 24th. challenges and victories together.

Laurabr1,

Welcome! I wish you all the best in your journey! Where are you having your surgery done? I was sleeved at Forest Park Medical Center with Dr. Nicholson, wonderful experience! Take care and keep us posted!

onmywaay

i will be at baylor bariatric in grapevine, tx. dr revera. Congrats on ur sleeve

Thank you!

I know what you mean milkD, At times, I think I should just try harder and exercise more and focus on eating less on my own. But I've tried that before and failed repeatedly. I have to remember that this is a tool that I need to lose the weight and get healthier. Thank you for showing me that I'm not the only one who has these doubts. It makes me feel better. I hope your surgery goes well.