So, last night I had my last required appointment for my medically supervised weight loss program. Leading up to that appointment, I had an emotional tsunami!!! I have been sooooo overwhelmed with different crazy scenarios about why this surgery will not happen... I'm a very positive person, so I was shocked and kind of paralyzed when all this negativity bombarded me!!

I've been on the verge of tears since Thanksgiving.. it's like this foreboding sadness and apprehension about completing this process... It's been crazy..

Okay back to last night.. well, I was on my way to the office and I was just dreading it... I even drove the speed limit.. And I DON'T ever do that!! LOL.. so I get there and the nice receptionist who works Thursdays is there... She told me how she hadn't seen me in a long time, but it's always a pleasure because I have such a nice, bubbly personality.. (Inside I was like.. lady, you just don't know!!!)... So, after exchanging pleasantries, I sat and was called back shortly... to face the dreaded scale!!! I literally got shocked when I step on.. not because of weight.. but because I had a been wearing my wool coat and I was all charged up!! LOL...

Everything's normal BP, Temp, breathing... but mentally, I'm just drained and dreading my doc coming in..

He comes in and immediately says, what's wrong?? So, I do through the whole spiel.. He listens, laughs and reminds me of 6 months ago and the progress that I've made.. He assured me that my surgery would happen and I wouldn't be used as a guinea pig for a new mind-control medical testing!

Then he invited his intern in (by my permission).. He starts telling her about me and asked me to share why I decided to have WLS... I felt so EMPOWERED and instantly calm about everything... because I know I'm doing this for the right reasons and I understand that this is my life and I'm responsible for making it as good or not, as I want it to be... I told him how sad and emotional I was.. and it dawned on me.. I'm losing my best frenemy!!! And very soon!!! He said he definitely believes in me and that he looks forward to sharing all of my success!! LOL..

Anyway, I left the appointment very hopeful, less fearful, still emotional.. but I made it!!

My doc told me that each February, his office holds an dance for patients who have gone through WLS.. He said that I have to be there and save him the LAST DANCE!!! LOL... that still makes me smile!!

Next step is submitting to insurance.. And I pray that happens early next week!!!

Your almost there! You will look back at this post in February like "Dang, that seems like a LIFETIME ago!" Keep your head up. All will be well according to the Masters will!

Thanks so much!! I know.. it's like... UGH!!! I started posting in May/June.. I believe... Time has flown...

That is it exactly, you are parting with the biggest frenemy in your life. It has been there through good times and bad. You could turn to it no matter who what when or where. It would not judge or harass you. Just be there with open arms, or rather open buffet.

You have made the biggest and best decision ever to divorce your Frenemy food. But you guys will have a positive relationship on the other side of surgery. It will be like those people who hate each other when they are married but once they are divorced they are the best of friends.

Just my take on things. This is a physically and emotionally taxing journey. I will keep you in my prayers.

Anewme.... Thanks so much!! I definitely appreciate the prayers.. Just got off the phone w/ my pt. coord. I have the pre-op class next week.. and hopefully a swift insurance approval!! (Add that to your prayer list please!!)...

You got my prayers girlfriend!!

This journey is a long one, its going to have up and its going to have downs. There may be moments where you questioned why you did it, and then there will be moments where you feel like you're dreaming... the best dream you've ever had. Even better than the ones where you win the lottery! There are going to be many many moments along the way that you will remember and some you wish you could forget.

But through it all, at the end of that road is that magical Land of Oz. Except in this story, there is no man behind the curtain - there is only going to be you and the mirror and what you will see will blow you away.

Much love to ya, and I certainly will enjoy watching your journey. You are already an inspiring person - so thank you for sharing your journey here with us.

So, last night I had my last required appointment for my medically supervised weight loss program. Leading up to that appointment, I had an emotional tsunami!!! I have been sooooo overwhelmed with different crazy scenarios about why this surgery will not happen... I'm a very positive person, so I was shocked and kind of paralyzed when all this negativity bombarded me!!

I've been on the verge of tears since Thanksgiving.. it's like this foreboding sadness and apprehension about completing this process... It's been crazy..

Okay back to last night.. well, I was on my way to the office and I was just dreading it... I even drove the speed limit.. And I DON'T ever do that!! LOL.. so I get there and the nice receptionist who works Thursdays is there... She told me how she hadn't seen me in a long time, but it's always a pleasure because I have such a nice, bubbly personality.. (Inside I was like.. lady, you just don't know!!!)... So, after exchanging pleasantries, I sat and was called back shortly... to face the dreaded scale!!! I literally got shocked when I step on.. not because of weight.. but because I had a been wearing my wool coat and I was all charged up!! LOL...

Everything's normal BP, Temp, breathing... but mentally, I'm just drained and dreading my doc coming in..

He comes in and immediately says, what's wrong?? So, I do through the whole spiel.. He listens, laughs and reminds me of 6 months ago and the progress that I've made.. He assured me that my surgery would happen and I wouldn't be used as a guinea pig for a new mind-control medical testing!

Then he invited his intern in (by my permission).. He starts telling her about me and asked me to share why I decided to have WLS... I felt so EMPOWERED and instantly calm about everything... because I know I'm doing this for the right reasons and I understand that this is my life and I'm responsible for making it as good or not, as I want it to be... I told him how sad and emotional I was.. and it dawned on me.. I'm losing my best frenemy!!! And very soon!!! He said he definitely believes in me and that he looks forward to sharing all of my success!! LOL..

Anyway, I left the appointment very hopeful, less fearful, still emotional.. but I made it!!

My doc told me that each February, his office holds an dance for patients who have gone through WLS.. He said that I have to be there and save him the LAST DANCE!!! LOL... that still makes me smile!!

Next step is submitting to insurance.. And I pray that happens early next week!!!

You know I had those same feelings and up until they tell you that you are approved that feeling just stays with you. Just know that God is in control and I will say a special prayer for your speedy approval!