Hi All,

Today is my 2 month sleevaversary. I was thinking about how crazy and scary those days leading up to surgery were and I wanted to know what it was going to be like. So…. I figured I’d post for those waiting in the wings.

First, I have to say, I feel completely normal. I can eat about 5 –6 oz of food at a time and am totally satisfied by it. Its probably been about 3 weeks now since I haven’t felt “post op”. I was cold all the time and very low energy at first, but now I have great energy and work out with no problems. I went to a wedding last weekend and drank and played and ate little bits here and there, people commented on my weight loss but no one guessed I had surgery.

Now… I haven’t lost at an astronomical rate. As a matter of fact, if you search my threads you will see I have thrown a few pity parties for myself. But, its probably better for me to loose slowly (its funny that I think 22 lbs in 2 months is slow, I never could have done that before).

Even though I haven’t lost tremendous weight yet I will tell you that this surgery has changed my life. I used to eat compulsively. I felt so out of control and couldn’t stop. I was never ever full…. Always had room for just one more bite. I have been to therapy and tried to discern the deep seeded issues that have led to this condition. I have tried everything from hypnosis to Mexican diet pills smuggled across the border in my panties. I even took a summer and backpacked through the mountains of Colorado for the purpose of cutting my access to food. I felt as if I were broken….a glutton with an uncontrollable condition.

Turns out…. My stomach was just too big. It wasn’t repressed memories or self sabotage. I never knew until after surgery what if felt like to be satisfied. I am satisfied for hours after eating and no longer obsess about food. I figured I would have more psychological issues than I have had…. What with eliminating my coping skill (eating) and “forcing” myself to be successful despite my self-sabotage. Really, I feel better psychologically than I ever had. I eat, then I’m full, then I stop eating. I don’t have a “disorder” after all. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I have a real sense of well being… tummy isn’t crying for food, my blood sugar is stable, and I am no longer living in a state of depravation (perceived depravation, but depravation non the less).

I really really really want to loose more weight… but this feeling alone has made the surgery worth it.

Everyone’s experience is different and I know you are all scared and hopeful at the same time… its tough going in the beginning… but I would definitely do it again.

Good luck

Stacey

Edited June 21, 201016 yr by stcyt

Eloquently spoken Tracey.

Good luck with your continued weight loss!

Lisa

Thanks so much for your post, I'm scheduled to have my surgery on Monday 6/28, so it's great to hear from someone who's been through it!

great post. thanks for sharing. it makes me feel hopeful that i could feel similar to you one day!

Stacey...great post and nice job posting it in here for the pre-ops.

Slow and steady wins! I didn't lose drastic amounts of weight, but a year later, here I am at 120 lbs gone! Everyone comments on how "thin" I am now (still have a ways to go). Those months seem like they will take forever, but they fly by. I also find that I never mourned food the way some people do and now I just feel like I eat normally. So, I feel sort of like you do, that I just needed that smaller stomach. (Although, I do know I have boat load of issues!) Some people comment on how little I eat - but mostly it's just people who knew me before. I don't hide my surgery, but for those who do not know, I haven't had anyone ask if I had surgery. It's funny, nobody notices when you eat normally - haha.

glad to hear you're doing perfectly fine and that you are happy with your decision. this definitely helps other people decide and convince themselves that this is a very good decision. keep it up, you'll definitely have more sleevanniversaries. :001_wub:

Hey goodlife.... hows it going. I haven't posted in a while. Its good to see your still here.... and your tickers moving!!!!!!

Congratulations, you are doing so well!

You make so many wonderful points here and I am totally feeling the same way already at one month. It has changed my life and made me feel more in control, and food is no longer controlling ME. I used to think about my next meal as I was finishing one. Now I don't think about it til I feel hungry and then I just grab something appropriate and eat it instead of dreaming and thinking WHAT will taste the BEST??