I don't understand what's going on with me for the past couple of weeks I've been having second thoughts about getting this surgery. I look in the mirror and just think is this really going to work. I think yea maybe I'll lose 25 pounds or so but will it really work, so that I don;t have to look and feel this way anymore. I just can;t see myself that way right now. I just keep thinking am I going to go through this and nothing happen and I'll just have stuff inside me. I don't know why I'm so discouraged it seems to work for most people that work it, but all I see is the failure part or the complication part. Something will happen or I'll just happen to fail again. Like my fate is to be fat. I can't stand the thought. I'm tearing up just thinking about it. Has anyone gone though this? Maybe this is normal, just maybe. Thanks for letting me vent.

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Hi stept04

I understand what you're feeling. I'm scheduled for surgery June 28 and I'm really having second thoughts. I'm in Ontario and lapband is not well known in Canada. I have fears of complications and hospitals in my area not knowing anything about lapband and misdiagnosing or mistreating me. Im about 2 hours away from my surgeons office. To top it off, I'm self pay ($16000) and my husband and I work at the same place. We are having some serious slowdowns at work and now I fear spending that kind of $ just in case something happens as we have 2 children in post secondary (and wow it's expensive here in Canada). I'm normally not superstitious but I'm wondering if this is some sort of sign to not proceed with the surgery. I've been yo-yo-ing back and forth for the past 2 weeks and the stress has caused me to lose 8.5 lbs (weird cause normally I'm a stress eater-and I realize I will prob gain it bak like always). I don't know a single person who has has wls personally as it isn't popular here so the only info I am getting is from this forum and my surgeon. My family dr is not familiar with the band so he is only going by what he reads as well. Ugh. I hate decisions like this! My husband will support me either way but he is not real cool with risks or complications so I think he would prefer I back out.

Hi stept04

I understand what you're feeling. I'm scheduled for surgery June 28 and I'm really having second thoughts. I'm in Ontario and lapband is not well known in Canada. I have fears of complications and hospitals in my area not knowing anything about lapband and misdiagnosing or mistreating me. Im about 2 hours away from my surgeons office. To top it off, I'm self pay ($16000) and my husband and I work at the same place. We are having some serious slowdowns at work and now I fear spending that kind of $ just in case something happens as we have 2 children in post secondary (and wow it's expensive here in Canada). I'm normally not superstitious but I'm wondering if this is some sort of sign to not proceed with the surgery. I've been yo-yo-ing back and forth for the past 2 weeks and the stress has caused me to lose 8.5 lbs (weird cause normally I'm a stress eater-and I realize I will prob gain it bak like always). I don't know a single person who has has wls personally as it isn't popular here so the only info I am getting is from this forum and my surgeon. My family dr is not familiar with the band so he is only going by what he reads as well. Ugh. I hate decisions like this! My husband will support me either way but he is not real cool with risks or complications so I think he would prefer I back out.

Hi mugs

Well with all my fears I have started this and will finish this the same way,and that is my trust in god. I will take one day at a time making only the decision I need to make at that time. Right now I'm scared about not succeeding, but as long as there is nothing in my way I'll keep on going. If something comes up to not allow the surgery to happen then it must not be the right time. I've had a couple of things that kept this surgery from happening, it took 9 years for me to get this close. Even a couple of months ago I thought I was going to have to put it off, but so far so good. I don't know if any of this helps you, but I do know you can only make the best decision you can with the information you have at that time. I would just hate for you to miss out on an opportunity to change your life, as would I . But you are the only one that can make the decision. So I wish you well and good luck with whatever decision you make,.

I'm 54. I like reading your posts and dylanmiles. I suspected you two were around my age. I also went from two hypertensive meds to one...and at a much lower dosage to boot. Except for my knee, the rest of me is doing much better since I started dropping the weight. If I eventually need a knee replacement, at least I'll have a better chance that it will be successful without all the extra weight.

Step104....it's normal to feel like you might fail. I just posted a topic earlier today about the fear of failing even though I'm doing very well at 3 1/2 months post banding having lost 53 lbs. so far. Listen to the other folks who replied. Work the program and you will see results.

I went off of my blood pressure meds this past week. I was shocked, because I'm only around 6 weeks out! I was feeling SO lethargic every day, so I called my doctor & the nurse told me that it could very well be the blood pressure meds. I checked my numbers, and sure enough.....it was low. She told me to stop taking the drug for a couple of days & see how I feel. Well, I feel much better! Granted, I was taking the lowest dose possible, but I'm still surprised that I could stop them after only a 17 pound loss. It feels great! Is this what they call a NSV?

I also have a bad knee. I'm sure from too much weight over time. I've got other issues as well, and PRAY that some of it subsides as more weight comes off. I know that some won't resolve completely, but I have to imagine that it will be better without all the excess baggage My next plan of action is to start working with a physical therapist, who can put me on a program to strengthen what needs strengthening, to stretch what needs stretching; ALL without causing further damage to what's already injured and weak. OMG - I really messed myself up trying Curves about a year ago. That place is for people with ZERO skeletal/orthopedic issues!