Surgery is Friday and I am getting beyond cranky. I posted yesterday that I wish my dr had me on all liquids. This one solid meal is becoming difficult. Again, I know in the grand scheme of things I am doing great. But two days with minor slip ups is two day too much. Today my father came by with homemade sauce and wanted pasta for lunch. So the dumbass I am by putting everyone first makes the pasta for him, my husband and my son. Had my protein shake and then when I was cleaning up something took over and I had a couple pieces. I didn't have the meatballs or sausage, but still had some! Ugh!! This mental thing will certainly be the hardest. Looking to find a new therapist now that specializes in eating disorders so I have a better outlet.

I like and admire your proactive attitude.Best of luck.

Thanks. I need to be proactive about this. Reactive is what got me to 300lbs!

Surgery is Friday and I am getting beyond cranky. I posted yesterday that I wish my dr had me on all liquids. This one solid meal is becoming difficult. Again' date=' I know in the grand scheme of things I am doing great. But two days with minor slip ups is two day too much. Today my father came by with homemade sauce and wanted Pasta for lunch. So the dumbass I am by putting everyone first makes the pasta for him, my husband and my son. Had my Protein shake and then when I was cleaning up something took over and I had a couple pieces. I didn't have the meatballs or sausage, but still had some! Ugh!! This mental thing will certainly be the hardest. Looking to find a new therapist now that specializes in eating disorders so I have a better outlet.[/quote']

I took a little different mind set to my preop ( and still lost 12 lbs) . I would rather have a little taste of something rather than blow the whole diet. I did not purposely go out and taste/eat everything but if it came about that i really wanted to taste something i did. then i moved on.

Remember that this is all about learning to react differently to food. It's not an all-or-nothing scenario. You are doing fine. Being so hard on yourself is also part of the cycle. Next step you'll just get frustrated, too hard on yourself, and you'll give in ( recognize the cycle?)

Take a deep breath, Celebrate your victories, and quiet that voice in your head! ( especially the one who just called you a dumb ass)

Minimi I agree with you 100%. I have not cheated but I know that in being too hard on myself just sets me up for failure and frustration!

Day gets better and need some good mojo sent my way. Just spent two hours at the drs and my little guy has the flu, so of course since we left every bone in my body has been aching.... So please pray this only goes 2 ways 1) nothing happens or 2) I get it and it's over within 48 hours so I am still good to go for Friday. I do not want I reschedule!!

Day gets better and need some good mojo sent my way. Just spent two hours at the drs and my little guy has the flu' date=' so of course since we left every bone in my body has been aching.... So please pray this only goes 2 ways 1) nothing happens or 2) I get it and it's over within 48 hours so I am still good to go for Friday. I do not want I reschedule!![/quote']

So sorry to hear this and I hope the little guy bounces back quickly. If you get the flu it will not be gone in 48hrs. They say a week to 10 days. Please do not have surgery if you even feel like you're getting the flu.

I'll pray it all works out! Good luck!