Well one week from tonight I will be flying into Toronto for my surgery. I am both excited and terrified, elated and ambivalent.... And lots of other as yet unidentifed swirling emotions -- whatever it is I seem to live on the verge of tears or laughing and I am never totally sure which one is going to show up at any given moment. Like PMS, but I'm a lot older now so it's harder to explain to coworkers

I had an excellent visit with my GP today, he has been trained by my surgeon to do fills and follow ups. He was VERY reassuring, and he really believes that this is a great option for me - and I left his office feeling far better! (Have been having ohmygod-what-have-I-done moments).

I am so looking forward to the day when my body is the size my mind has always thought it should be. I am looking forward to my feet and knees not hurting so much, and to clothes that fit. Normal blood pressure, being able to bend over to tie my shoes. I want to have my picture taken when I am not hiding behind my kids --- I still don't have a before picture, must remember to do that.

I am wishing my husband could have come with me, but I have to travel for the surgery and we can't both be away at the same time. So I am thinking it's going to be a lonely trip but that also might just be me feeling sorry for myself.

I want to say thanks to all of you. I haven't posted a whole bunch, but I have read and read and read and read. And thanks to your efforts, I have a much better idea of what to expect, what not to expect, what goes down, what comes back up, what you can drink (and how much), who to tell and who not to tell, what to do when you're out on the town, where to find cheap clothes and how to handle gas and sleeping on your back. Thank you all

Wishing you the best !

You sound like most of us before surgery.lol. Sorry your husband can't be with you. Mine couldn't either, but you're there for such a short time . You'll do great!

It's so nice being on the other side, banded Oct 15 th, instead of reading everyone's post and wishing you were there.

I'm glad you spent a lot if time here learning. I spent 7mths and I think it was the best thing for preparing me. Now there's no surprises!

Best wishes on your journey!

PS don't forget Chapstick

....and stool softener.

Lots of hugs coming your way! Keep us posted.