I had the surgery 6 years ago, lost to my goal size and have kept it off until January. I've gained 20 pounds and am scared to death that I've stretched out the pouch and ruined everything. So, I went to doc and he removed my fill completely (despite my tears and pleading) and told me to come back in 3 weeks. The hope is that the pouch will have shrunk and I can get the fill back. HOWEVER... In my typical, self-destructive fashion... I'm not making good eating choices. In fact, I've gained 3 pounds! I'm just sick... This is the one thing in my life I can't seem to manage... WHY? I'M SO SCARED THAT I AM HEADED BACK TO OBESE. I hate the way I look and feel right now... Hate myself for being so undisciplined.

Hang in there! You can do this - you will get your fill and be right back on track in no time. Deep Breath!

You'll be okay. Deep breath. The world is not ending. Make healthy choices with your food and get some exercise. The weeks will pass fast and then you'll get your fill. All is not lost.

I had the surgery 6 years ago, lost to my goal size and have kept it off until January. I've gained 20 pounds and am scared to death that I've stretched out the pouch and ruined everything. So, I went to doc and he removed my fill completely (despite my tears and pleading) and told me to come back in 3 weeks. The hope is that the pouch will have shrunk and I can get the fill back. HOWEVER... In my typical, self-destructive fashion... I'm not making good eating choices. In fact, I've gained 3 pounds! I'm just sick... This is the one thing in my life I can't seem to manage... WHY? I'M SO SCARED THAT I AM HEADED BACK TO OBESE. I hate the way I look and feel right now... Hate myself for being so undisciplined.

I think we all understand your fear. I know I do! You know exactly what you have to do. Now, take a deep breath and go do it!!! Don't let yourself fall back into your old habits. If it helps (it helps me)...make copies of an old "fat" picture. The one that disgusts you the most. Put one wherever you will see it when the old ways try creeping in. Take a good, long look at it and remember. Remember how unhealthy you were...Remember how people treated you...Remember how you felt when you saw your reflection. You DON'T want to go back there! You did a great job losing and maintaining for SIX YEARS!!!! You can do it for the rest of your life!

You've definitely come to the right place for support! Hang tough and keep your dreams in sight. Good luck!

Well said, Cindy... jntedwards, you've come so far, don't sabotage yourself! I'm still in the struggling to lose another 40 pounds stage and I don't want you to be there again. Remember how good it felt when you met your goal, don't you want to feel that way again? I know you do. Remember how good it felt when you fit into a much smaller size, I know you want to be there comfortably again. Remember how good you feel about yourself when you are where you want to be, you deserve to be there again. Twenty pounds isn't much, you can get back down there; but 50 pounds is much tougher. Don't allow that to happen. Start right here and now acting as if you have a fill and using the rules that got you to lose so much weight. YOU CAN DO IT! Just set your mind to it and bring back that willpower. We all fall off the bandwagon sometimes but getting back on is what makes us achieve our goals. So, go for it; you've done it before and you will do it again!! Keep us posted...

Thank you all so much... I hear you! I tell myself all the same words and yet for some reason, at some time everyday... I get weak and binge. It's almost as though I want to prove to myself that I am going to fail. I go back to the doctor next Friday... What if the pouch is not shrunk enough and he won't fill me???? Without the fill... I will not have the self control to avoid gaining. I know this about myself. I'm ashamed of myself- food should not be so important... It's just stupid.

Thank you all so much... I hear you! I tell myself all the same words and yet for some reason, at some time everyday... I get weak and binge. It's almost as though I want to prove to myself that I am going to fail. I go back to the doctor next Friday... What if the pouch is not shrunk enough and he won't fill me???? Without the fill... I will not have the self control to avoid gaining. I know this about myself. I'm ashamed of myself- food should not be so important... It's just stupid.

Sorry I sound so whiney... I need to put my big girl panties on and DEAL. I need to get in that "zone" - I have every reason to be motivated... Why aren't I??

Thank you all so much... I hear you! I tell myself all the same words and yet for some reason, at some time everyday... I get weak and binge. It's almost as though I want to prove to myself that I am going to fail. I go back to the doctor next Friday... What if the pouch is not shrunk enough and he won't fill me???? Without the fill... I will not have the self control to avoid gaining. I know this about myself. I'm ashamed of myself- food should not be so important... It's just stupid.

You can't let yourself worry about the "what ifs". You need to take everything as it comes. The stress of the unknown is probably contributing to your binging. You can't change future events, the only thing you can control is how you respond to them.

You can fix this! You've done it once and you have not fallen too far. Go back to the beginning and start writing EVERYTHING down that goes into your mouth (including drinks) and start counting your calories. Hold yourself accountable for what you're taking in. Try to start working out (if you aren't already) and record that also. Find a workout buddy if you need to and start going to support groups.

YOU CAN DO THIS! You have done an AMAZING job and you've recognized the start of overeating again, just recognizing that shows that you have learned during this past 6 years and you are not going back. If you need to talk to someone more, feel free to post on here or message me if you need some motivation

I had the surgery 6 years ago, lost to my goal size and have kept it off until January. I've gained 20 pounds and am scared to death that I've stretched out the pouch and ruined everything. So, I went to doc and he removed my fill completely (despite my tears and pleading) and told me to come back in 3 weeks. The hope is that the pouch will have shrunk and I can get the fill back. HOWEVER... In my typical, self-destructive fashion... I'm not making good eating choices. In fact, I've gained 3 pounds! I'm just sick... This is the one thing in my life I can't seem to manage... WHY? I'M SO SCARED THAT I AM HEADED BACK TO OBESE. I hate the way I look and feel right now... Hate myself for being so undisciplined.