jntedwards

Sorry I sound so whiney... I need to put my big girl panties on and DEAL. I need to get in that "zone" - I have every reason to be motivated... Why aren't I??

Thank you all so much... I hear you! I tell myself all the same words and yet for some reason, at some time everyday... I get weak and binge. It's almost as though I want to prove to myself that I am going to fail. I go back to the doctor next Friday... What if the pouch is not shrunk enough and he won't fill me???? Without the fill... I will not have the self control to avoid gaining. I know this about myself. I'm ashamed of myself- food should not be so important... It's just stupid.

Thank you all so much... I hear you! I tell myself all the same words and yet for some reason, at some time everyday... I get weak and binge. It's almost as though I want to prove to myself that I am going to fail. I go back to the doctor next Friday... What if the pouch is not shrunk enough and he won't fill me???? Without the fill... I will not have the self control to avoid gaining. I know this about myself. I'm ashamed of myself- food should not be so important... It's just stupid.

I had the surgery 6 years ago, lost to my goal size and have kept it off until January. I've gained 20 pounds and am scared to death that I've stretched out the pouch and ruined everything. So, I went to doc and he removed my fill completely (despite my tears and pleading) and told me to come back in 3 weeks. The hope is that the pouch will have shrunk and I can get the fill back. HOWEVER... In my typical, self-destructive fashion... I'm not making good eating choices. In fact, I've gained 3 pounds! I'm just sick... This is the one thing in my life I can't seem to manage... WHY? I'M SO SCARED THAT I AM HEADED BACK TO OBESE. I hate the way I look and feel right now... Hate myself for being so undisciplined.

he was out of town... I called him after the fact and told him that I had gotten sick and needed gall bladder removed. By the time he got home, I was out of hospital. I just couldn't tell him...

Everytime I lie down, it burns. Almost every night I wake and throw up. I don't want to go to the doctor and him tell me that I have to have the band out or something. What could be causing this. I've never had reflux or even gas pains so I don't know how to describe this sensation. I'm worried that I'm eating up my insides but I cannot regain the weight I've lost and I know I will if I don't have the band.:confused2:

What's a thighplasty and why does one get it done?

I'm here to have a support system and to try to see if any of you are having similar problems that I'm experiencing. I'm 1 year post-op and have lost 80 pounds. It's wonderful. My suregeon was Dr. Felix Spiegel in Houston, TX. I did the surgery without anyone knowing... including my own husband! I know that sounds unreal, but I guess I was somewhat ashamed to have needed to go to such extremes to curb my eating and weight gain. But, I'm thrilled that I did it! I'm back to "normal" size again and can purchase Size 12 clothes for the first time in years. I feel tons better, too. I look forward to exploring the forums and overcoming this battle with my weight once and for all! :ohmy: