No longer a stranger
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Wendy
Age 46
5’5"
Currently 246lbs, 41 BMI , 46fat%
So I can quit feeling like a stranger to all of you I wanted to take a few moments to finally introduce myself. I have been reading through the posts in the forum for about three weeks and felt like it was time I stopped being so rude
I have battled my weight my entire life. Fortunately, I have also been VERY athletic my entire life so I managed to keep my fat as toned as you can keep fat
. I have never been one to allow my weight to keep me from doing things socially or physically. I have a great job where I am very respected by my colleagues and students. I have always loved a good party and always managed to use my ability to become the life of the party to distract the other partygoers from noticing how heavy I was. Pffttt..Who was I kidding they noticed. Wendy is so much fun, but the poor thing is so heavy. Unfortunately, over the years my excess weight, athletic activities, party habits, and stresses of the job have put a real strain on my health. I have developed arthritis in my knees, which is now very advanced and seriously affecting my way of life and my ability to do my job as an assistant principal at a high school. Besides my aches and pains my blood pressure is up, I have high cholesterol, acid reflux and all the other serious life threatening/altering illnesses being fat causes.
Five times in my life, over 26 years, I have worked out and dieted and lost 80+ pounds. With the weight loss and increased fitness level would come an increased self-confidence that was so powerful I could physically feel it. I felt incredibly great, I felt great about myself, looked great in my clothes, was performing better in my athletic activities, and was determined to keep the weight off and stay healthy. However, every time I stopped hitting the gym three hours a day five days a week and went off of the super healthy diet I was on I would see the scale start to rise and feel the clothes start to get tighter. Over and over I went into an out of control downward spiral. Up up up went the scale down down down went my confidence and self image. This last unsuccessful attempt at keeping my lost weight off has been the worst yet. My energy level is at an all time low, I get depressed about my weight, I hurt all the time, I can’t believe that this is all ME inside this skin, and I fight the constant urge to just give up this battle and just let my weight go.
After all these years of fighting this battle I know five things for sure: 1. I AM DONE BEING FAT. 2. I obviously can’t win this battle fighting it the way I have done in the past. 3. If I don’t do something about my weight something related to my being obese will kill me. 4. There is a weight loss option that I can use as tool to help me lose my weight and keep it off. 4. I am so not alone in my battle. After reading the posts on this site over the past few weeks I now know that there are others out there just like me who have fought the same battles I have with weight and they are winning with the help of the band and support from each other. I also have a partner, family, and friends who all love me no matter what my weight, but they want me around and healthy, so they have vowed to support me in this venture. 5. I am going to be healthy, comfortable, and confident in my skin next summer when I am WALKING 18 holes on my favorite golf course
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