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claudia...prayers being sent your way ...keep safe bk....prayers for you too..will send some prego dust your way as for me havent seen little bean yet as scan not until friday but fluttering has begun....a little life is making themself known cant wait until the fluttering is good old kick though its so reassuring that babe is well.

well girls i posted my wobbles on yahoo ..i was proud at time i took pics but now i just look and think blllluuuuuugh im so loose and still a long way to go and cant have nip and tucking til next xmas but ....i can see big change so im not going to beat myself up i prefer the new me !!!!

hey peeps ive been trying to read back posts to see how you all doing but my head swimming as im sooooooo full of heavy cold feel like sh*$ and the fact im pregnant means all those brilliant cold&flu remodies are a no no im surviving on an occasional lemsip drink so no heavy duty sleep inducing drugs.i personally think benelyn cold and flu tabs brilliant but cant have them ...ive gained back 4 pounds :faint: i know ,i know it not end of the world but ive no bump no real feeling of being pregnant ,i go for scan this friday so im scared and excited ,i think if actual baby in there i may return to the shock state i was in when i initially found out .i didnt feel much different after my total unfill and was delighted then a little worried as i kept thinking when you reach goal what happens because if restriction the same surely you would still continue to lose weight ...shouldnt have worried as past two days appetite bigger im actually controlling my eating rather than band ,ive had white bread a couple of times and a whole slice (ive had half or small piece of brown wheaton bread b4) ..quick slap me i promised myself i wouldnt start eating bread its my vice and needs to remain of menu. i did my measurements the other day too and was amazed by results i was happy girl( 9 inches of hips ) but will need to burn it or hide it as i expect as i get bigger i will be so disheartened .i think when i see baby on scan my priority will change but right now ive spent this year staring hopefully at scales a million times praying to god of weightloss to move down now im praying they stay still or move slower upward than three legged tortoise...anyone else reckon ive lost the plot !!!!! quick hellos ...nathalie ...so lovely to have you back you have done soooooo well girl im proud of you!!!!!!!! boo boo...what do mean you want smaller boobies girl ...wow wow..wow they are magnificent and make your waist look so tiny posh spice be jealous..you are gorgeous !!!the boobs great but after initial wow people look up and see a beautiul face looking back .unfortunately looking down they see big broken toe ..you poor thing .. brandi....whats up with the world you not having fun at the moment ,i think maybe karma thing going on so many great changes happening to you ,that you being thrown a curb ball life soon take a turn for the better to us you are a LEGEND,you dont deserve this crap as all things in life this too shall pass:girl_hug:i posted pics on here not on yahoo but i kept getting private messages congrats on my bravery for doing undie shots so i lost my bravery and deleted will find my yahoo posts in my inbox and post in there so i dont get my butt kicked as you probably in mood to actually do it...lol im sorry im not posting individually to all others i love you all to bits but im in and out so rarely now im not able to keep up with what happening in all your lives will be on more when santa brings me new laptop or being such a good girl.

hi girls i have my scan on friday and im really scared as i have pregnancy symptoms but dont really " feel" pregnant and for no apparent good reason i have worried about this pregnancy not being ok ,this is not my first baby..fifth in fact so not a new experience just first unplanned and i dont look pregnant no bump cant feel anything(but im so wobbly id have a job anyway)im sixteen weeks in two days time so il be sixteen +3 days at scan too early to sex the baby but il be looking and asking but i cant honestly imagine a baby in there at all !!!!!!!! whats up with me. if all is well i guess im really going to be in shock next weekend. i had total unfill two weeks ago and havent felt much different until last two days when i suddenly realised appetite has increased and i was wanting to eat and able to eat slice of bread :mad:i have to stay away from bread ,also had chinese last night and had half of meal and had restrain myself from going to kitchen and tackling some more :phanvan. i have gained about 3 pounds so far so not panicking YET but im so disheartened about seeing scales move in upward direction im hoping when i see babs that he/she will be my only concern and i can relax. have you all got a goal weight that you hope to not go over ? im weighing in at 13st 5lb nude and hoping not to be over 14st by end of year and no heavier than 15st by end of pregnancy i was 19st 4lb when banded last december .

omg raynie that seems so expensive ,i havent thought that far ahead as this is my fifth baby...yep i did say fifth i dont feel that much money will be investment as im having no more,i have four sons though so if they say girl i think il be going mad spending...lol for boys i love winnie the pooh stuff it so cute and colourful. i had my unfill today,it was quite traumatic as port turned so it took 8 stabs to get fluid out but actually not that painful just a little disconcerting for it to be going in and out with no luck then bingo out pops 4 mls which is less than there is supposed to be in but they say you lose some along the way so he was happy and they were delighted with weight loss im just praying i can keep alot of it off.

sorry babe not a lawyer but i could write reference saying what a good girl you are ,life will get better soon when life gives you lemons ...through them at traffic cops...lol oh honey i wish i could be more help but i can just be pissed off with you grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

omg omg omg you wouldnt believe what i just did i posted pics on before and after in my bloody underwear .. i took pics last night and was so upset how fat i am until i found originals in undies with non matching undies i might add and got carried away now i feel like a bit of a wally ,but feck it done now so if you dont mind looking at wobbles and girls please be prepared these are not skinny pics they just alot smaller than original wobbles go look ps sweethot you look so lovely honey in your skinny jeans well done !!!

boo you look amazing ..gorgeous dress it made me laugh though as this morning i was parading around bedroom in a bridesmaid dress i wore last time i lost weight and i thought heck i wish i could find a place to wear it....lol i think il take pic and show you though tummy looks a bit full and it aint baby belly yet ,its just my fat has fallen down around me..lol i dont know how our little band baby is yet as i dont get scan until 27th of october ...im going to ask sex ...i have four boys and really want to go pink mad in buying equipment if i get a girl ,but to be honest in my heart i feel it another little laddie..dont mind as long as he/she is safe and growing well. i took some pics of me the other day but was disappointed as thought i looked bigger than i feel ..does that make sense to anyone else,my goal weight i think is too high now, but i cant worry about that now but after my little babs is here i think i will have to rethink my goal.

hey whats happening in here steady losers i sense negativity creeping in you must know deep down how amazing you all are !!!!feck me just take a look at the women we were when we started on here when we were all HUGE and on a road to ill health and felt crappy ,ok we didnt transform into super models but god we look amazing we tell each other honestly ,our friends are amazed, we no longer wear those clothes, we have great days ,crappy days,non discript days thats life girls . brandi ....you are totally changed you are gorgeous !!dedicated beyond us all and the ONE who has embraced a total life change ...ok so mr right not been found but you (mrs right)is alive and well and mr right will be so lucky when he finds you !!! im so glad i met you as i always had someone to show me that it can be done . boo boo...you are such a darling and a great listener with no judgements and an amazing bander look how much weight you have lost ,a whole person got of your back sweethot...va...steph..claudia..faith...bk...brandi ..boo boo we have lost........SIX HUNDRED & FORTY NINE POUNDS between us thats alot of fat girls can you imagine if we could see what that looks like laid out in front of us ..........WE BLOODY WELL ROCK !!!!!!!!!!! well mondays the day for me i go for unfill (total)i tried to negotiate a half out now, half later approach but they not happy for me to have any restriction ,(ive lost 12 pounds in last month i know thats not good and know i need unfill so girls i need your positive mode to return . ps...love you all to bits.... you keep me on track :kiss2:

well mondays the day i go for unfill (total):faint:i tried to negotiate a half out now, half later approach but they not happy for me to have any restriction ,(ive lost 12 pounds in last month :confused: i know thats not good and know i need unfill i was fairly sickly so no interest in food) ,so im praying that i dont feel hungry all the time and gain too much weight ,i know baby more important but i have been so proud of my weight loss and just starting to like the new me and im only 22 pounds from my goal ,i never gained more than 28 pounds with my other pregnancys but my big fear is i go from little bird eating to "normal eating" i will gain more because body not used to it :phanvan .i dont have scan until 27th of october feels like an eternity il be sixteen weeks 3 days then and im not a patient woman !!!!!

just popped in to say hi i finally gave in and deciced to phone surgeon and tell him im pregnant( im not eating enough) .i did ask him for partial unfill like half now half later but noooooooooo they insist on total unfill grrrrrrrr so appointment 1st of october i dont have scan until 27th of october so il know then if everything ok and hopefully it will feel real and not just something i talk about,my weight has really been moving down in last few weeks which im excited about then feel guilty about because im worried baby not getting enough good stuff to grow ,but selfishly i am terrified of watching the scale and waist band increase.im 12 weeks on tuesday so still very early days so wouldnt have gained much at this point anyway .ive never gained more than 28lbs on any of my 4 previous pregnancys but have huge fear because body used to little small meals if i eat normally or worse like piggy those damm scales going to fly back up,but heck im going to think positive im going to gain just baby weight and be fabulous ..oh apart from the jelly that going to behanging below baby bump ewwwwwwwwwww,ive been emailing surgeons about body lifts for next year i.e after goal has been achieved and baby big enough to sleep at night ..lol im thinking next xmas i seem to be losing the weight with not too much sag then suddenly look like someone let the air out will definately need work doing ...but then again my poor body not only dealt with yo yoing weight but now 5 babys so i was asking alot.will keep you all updated with progress and will be popping in to check on you all im so proud of you all can you believe how far we have all come ,we all go at different rates but none have failed to shrink in size and there has been many a bump in the road but we are doing it and for some you will be soon saying "I DID IT". pps ....im so sorry to hear about epidemic of strep im hoping i dont catch it..lol boo boo,,,,, so sorry about betty but im just so glad that your ok ...and omg what a change in you ..your a babe but hey what can i say you always were a pretty girl but you now look amazing annie.... you look amazing just popped into yahoo will take pic and post in there but for short time as only proper b4 was in my undies not even matching ones and although im alot smaller i wobble even more ...lmao

hey raynie ..i hope your right i want a girl (i have four sons)and little baby girl i mind is driving me bonkers ..lol i think im just narky though and tired and she most demanding ..he he she is little dote though and not behaving badly just frustrated as shes trying so hard to get crawling ..well forward she can slide round wooden floors backwards its so cute. i have appointment with hospital in oct(27th i think) il be sixteen weeks would like earlier scan as im finding it hard to actual believe baby in there which is so strange as with others i was so maternal quickly i think its because it was shock !!!im looking into private scan i still havent spoke to band surgeon as i know he will insist on total unfill but im waiting until after 14 weeks when nausea should have settled and (im almost 9 weeks now) i feel like im cheating or something but if i got total unfill then pg miscarried i would have to start slowly building it up again )god i sound so cold i really want baby just so shell shocked !!

hi girls been catching up on posts but im lost think i need to read back a bit or check up on you lot alot more but you all seem to be doing well, was a bit alarmed to realise the one year anniversary only 4 months and im not really where i would have liked to have got to and now because of pregnancy im bloody terrified of gaining too much back of the weight i have lost its fluctuating madly at the moment ,but today its at lower weight so mood good:) and of course my treatment only paid up until december then im on my own and i pay 300 euro per fill/unfill or any complications.found other board on here for pregnant bandsters which been great .. the ones who dont unfill until late on after 7 months dont gain much ,but the early unfills pile it on :faint:so dont want to even consult clinic . boo boo....take care of you... i know how you feel ,i hope things work out for the best (the way you want them too )big cuddles xxxx

kuebel j sorry i wasnt ignoring your post i just got shock at brandys news ,i think fill sounds good ,i find my eating ability really irregular sometimes i can eat loads and other times it pathetic ..i kind of wish tonight was one of them i had slice of pizza (i dont do breador doughy stuff usually)and not feeling too pleased with myself ,i was so good today had vitamin, glass of orange ,scrambled egg and then missed lunch (i was out and about )so when tonight i was too lasy to cook i was lured by kids pizza take away i cant believe it fitted in !well i reckon i dont need to rush for unfill as space must be bigger than i thought:eek:

brandy what will they do? can they remove cysts ?you poor thing nice comment from hot guy though:) i hope you will be alright soon we thinking of you anyway babes ..(ive heard it really painfully:phanvan) take it easy and huge hugs from me

hi girls found other women having bandster babies on here and others who have done it and it wasnt a disaster with their weight ..yeah my weight shifting quickly this past month or so after a long go slow ,i think when i was able to get more in my body realised it wasnt starving...lol but scared that they will unfill me and gain quickly :phanvan . bman...have a wonderful time ..we will miss you :kiss jillrn...if you been excercising you probably just gained muscle, too early to say if unfill good or bad it will take at least week for your body to adjust..hang in there it might start dropping down again soon (fingers crossed for you ) i will let you know what clinic advises (though i want to wait awhile to share news)i will be in here to chat with all you lovely steadies dispite fact my steady loss probably soon to be go slowthen into reverse.. i was down again today only 7 pound to onederland:faint:

hi girls great to see this thread i just found out im pregnant ! it very early days as i was only few days late but feeling queasy sore boobs etc and had feeling..it unplanned (this will be my fifth )i have 4 sons andy 13, ben 10 (nearly 11) ,callum 7(nearly 8), aidan 3(4 in sept) and hubby is going for vasectomy..lol this one kind of just sneaked in. i know my clinic recommends unfill but i would like to wait as long as possible but as im already feeling so sick and been vomitting im terrified of band slipping i was banded last december and im 63 pound down 39 more to go im taking pregnancy multi vitamin and making good food choices but im feeling so sickly, im not hungry but i doubt unfill would help as i would still feel nausious.im so glad im not alone on this . good luck to all our bandsters babys and it will be wonderful to share our new journey. big hugs nikki x:clap2:

i must add after reading last message this baby unplanned,other 4 were all planned

hi girls well just to let you know how it all turned out ,on closer inspection of the chatting i was cracking up about ,he had not filled out profile ,didnt have any friends and had only visited site once (i think he just into photos )still shit but certainly think i was maybe running ahead of myself with suspecting the worst ,he is embarassed though feels like a idiot(he was ) i do believe he thought it same as looking in porn mag nottttttt !!!!! people on net can interact i catch him again i cut it off. i have to add because it was said in one of posts it not good for kids to see parents unhappy(we are not unhappy )we dont fight ,we argue but not alot and never in any kind of serious way although once i hit him with door (accidently)lol i was doing dramatic door slam and he walked back towards me.i really dont believe he has ever cheated on me i do think however when down in dumps he withdraws away from me and that one i need to figure out (him too ). what i am about to say will make you all think first part of this is turned around because of this its not ITS TRUTH i found out yeaterday im pregnant !!!!!!!!! unplanned number 5 and after a really good cry im now excited although i dont want unfill i want to take pg vitamins and eat good food and have regular scans to check baby doing ok but unfill does not make me feel happy i can eat small meals not just a few spoons ,i actual thought i could eat too much but weight shifting so i am happy with restriction but i know clinic recommend unfill but it early days in pregnancy and i figure i can wait to let them know ,i know my body and wouldnt put baby at risk if i cant eat i will take some out asap.

im smiling can you believe it and no it aint nothing to do with talking to hubby ,,,,i havent just reading your posts you are all so very special va ....i hope your trip goes well and the result will be what you want if not enjoy the trip anyway you only live once boo boo ...wow one year god you are a flipping star, can you even remember what it was like to carry all that weight ? bman ...you are an excercise queen and you sweetie show the rest of us what we could have achieved by now ...lol you are amazing and deserving of every pound lost . steph c ...i want to thank you for making me feel that it ok to want it to work (even if it doesnt )gonna have to be some big changes :Dil know soon enough if not looking good . jillrn...my weight started shifting when i could eat more i think it fine line you need enough food so your body not think its starving and store it but not enough that you having too many cals hang in there sweethot ..hi honey im sorry i havent been around but was nice to see you doing well ,you should be deciding when you want fill def be pushy if you need one ,im glad your hubby ok . no matter what happens in our lifes we are winners we took on our most crippling of challenges and ladies we gonna rock and we dont need anyone else to feel great about that :clap2: steph love your poem :kiss

thanks for listening to my woes ,,dont know what il do ? i wish i hadnt posted in a way because i feel like im humilating myself but i needed a friendly ear who not close to us or are situation . 15 years together is alot to give up and he was the man i loved up until 2 years ago now i dont know him ,i changed alot in that time too depression etc (i am not blaming myself i assure you )he is a pig and the most selfish person i know anyway i really dont know what il do:confused: hes phoning this morning so i guess i see how i feel after that ...im still numb didnt sleep much either ,should really hang in there for tummy tuck and boob job though ...lol he is good earner . then i be ready to strut my thing when im free woman again . aint life just a barrel of laughs sometimes

ok nothing quite like off loading your life onto strangers and hope they know wtf to do..... well to start story ,me and hubby went through big ordeal a long long time ago nearly two years when he said he didnt want this life anymore didnt love me same way etc etc etc ....i said i was leaving ....then on eleventh hour,him full of tears and blah blah he begged me to stay ...confused well no wonder took me a year to get over it then i caught him checking out stuff on computer like chat rooms ,escorts that sort of shite i was horrified and put us back again i was soooooooo down felt worthless fat ugly etc etc etc. well we got over it said nothing happened other than flirting on net... must confess im an awful flirt but only if i kind of find myself in a flirty situation i dont go looking for people to pump me up . anyway he was booked to go to america (golfing)this morning and after he left for airport i was on comp and thought id check his email......yep he been chatting again felt totally shite phoned me and gave him ultimatum come home or thats it he phoned was really upset texted and called a hundred times apologising saying it just boy stuff he knowshewas prat blah blah ...never happen again ...blah blah...anyway he went:faint:i am a fool... seems easy dump the shit head ...problem,,,,i have four sons 13,10 7 3 and i still love the dopey buggar but i feel so unimportant dispite his tears surely if i was that important the trip would have been last thing on his mind .the kids knew about the split that didnt happen and were heartbroken i cant do that again unless i mean it im scared to do it alone and deep down thats not what i want but fuck how will i ever feel good about myself again i would cry but ive gone numb....not good daft thing is ive never felt so good until today :help: i must add as far as im aware he has never been unfaithful in any true sense but it feels the same to me :think sorry for burdening you all

hey there at least you can now feel very young ..having to get permission to pay for op ..im sorry i know you didnt find it funny but it made me laugh loads ...especially the burning of the bra !!im right there with you ive lost sixty pounds so far 42 to go and then i want my tummy tucked my boobs lifted back up and my thighs sucked( as you can tell excercise and me dont mix) but it great to have to not lug around those extra pounds ...good luck with the band it really ismoney well spent !

hi girls i have been unable to post as my gorgeous little puppy chewed through my battery wire for laptop grrrrrrrrrrrrr so ive been offline i borrowed my mates while she on holiday so i thought id come in say hello ,im sixty pound down now and im starting to feel great about myself (still 42 more to go ),went to turkey a few weeks back and even wore bikini and no one try to harpoon me (so progress right )though i still had way to many wobbles and i look like a slightly deflated tyre but hey i felt slim ...lmao . i promise to pop back in when my eyelids arent threatening to seal shut ...im knackered take care my wonderful steadies catch up soon :whoo:

NAT I TOTALLY AGREE THIS HAS BEEN A MAD SIX MONTH RIDE AND IT HAS UPS AND DOWNS BUT BEING HONEST IF BACK THEN WE WHERE OFFERED THE WEIGHT LOSS THAT WE HAVE EACH ACHEIVED WE WOULD HAVE TAKEN IT IN A HEART BEAT ITS ONLY WHEN WE REALISE WHAT WE ARE NOW CAPABLE OF WE GET SO FRUSTRATED WITH OUR SINS. NAT ..WELL DONE ABOUT GOING TO GYM IVE JOINED JUST NOT BOTHERED ...I TRULY AM A LAZY ASS:eek: BRANDI..YOU ARE DEFINATELY THE ONE WHO IMPRESSES ME MOST YOU ROCK AT THIS.. I WAS THINKING IF YOU ARE SIZE 10 ..IS YOUR GOAL WEIGHT NOT FAR TOO LIGHT ? I EAT THE CUPBOARD OUT B4 MY PERIOD IT JUST HORMONAL AND I THINK WTF ITS A BINGE IT PASSES IM NOT STRESSING ANYMORE I FORGIVE MYSELF SWEETHOT ..HOW MUCH IS IN YOUR BAND ??I HAVE 5CC IN 9 CC BAND AND IM NOT DESPERATLY TIGHT AND VARIES HOW MUCH I CAN EAT BUT IM LOSING SO HOLDING OFF UNTIL I COME BACK FROM HOLS . STEPHC ..NICE TO SEE YOUR STILL LOSING OUR WEIGHT LOSS BEEN SIMILAR ONLY YOU HAVE LESS THAN ME TO LOSE :phanvan..WELL DONE SO FAR CLAUDIA IT LOVELY TO SEE YOUR PRETTY FACE AND WELL DONE ON YOUR SIZE 8 DRESS AND YOUR FAMILY SHOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOU F*** ME PEOPLE RECKON THIS IS SO EASY NOW .......WRONG !!(THOUGH THE BAND HAS HELPED US DO THIS WE HAVE TO DO OUR BIT ) BK....HIYA HONEY GLAD TO SEE YOU DOING WELL TOO BOO BOO KITTY ...OMG 108 POUNDS YOU ABSOLUTE STAR GOD GIRL YOU ONLY HALF THE WOMAN YOU WERE IM SURE IT DOES FEEL GOOD ...HUGE ADMIRATION FOR YOU GIRL KEEP IT UP YOU WELL ON WAY I HAD GREAT WEIGH IN THIS MORNING AS I FINALLY MOVED UNDER 16 STONE (HEY HERE ITS ALL ABOUT HOW MANY STONES ) SO IM 15 ST 13LB SO THATS 47 DOWN 55 MORE TO GO IM HAVING GREAT TIME SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES BUT NOT DOWN THAT MANY SIZES JUST FITTING BETTER IM (UK 18/20) SO I STILL FEEL HUGE COMPARED TO ALL YOU LITTLE BITTY GIRLS BUT I FEEL LIKE SKINNY GIRL TO HOW I WAS :clap2: