First off I think you are being way too hard on yourself. The last week for me has been very intense, but I know that no matter if I cheat, if I dont lose exactly what I want to, or if I am feeling sick and scared of what happens after the lap band, I am still moving forward. And you will too. I dont know exactly how much weight I have lost b/c I am scared to get on the scale. I was going to wait until I went in for surgery and get weighed there.
Also I have talked to alot of people who I work with and have had the band for months. They all say that the hardest part is the pre-op diet. That things will change (for the positive) after you get the lap band. None of them have regretted their decesions and I know that you wont either. You wanted this for a reason, now do me a favor and close your eyes and think really hard. If you can see yourself in 6 months from now feeling better and looking better (than get the band). If you see yourself the same as now doubting the lap band and the whole procedure pre and post op, than dont get the band. The choice is your:thumbup:. You have to decide and make it happen. Good luck to you, and just think only 4 more days until your big day. :thumbup:
Oh one other thing. I have came to the conclusin that this whole process will be challenging and that my weight will not be gone overnight. This has been hard for me to except b/c I want my weight gone like 10 years ago. But I am willing to have things go slow b/c I know that in a year from now or even 2, that my health will be so much better and that I will be able to run with my kids instead of watching them run.
Emily