White06

I havent been on here in a very LONG time. Be sure if Im not on here Im being bad. Its almost like you people can see into my house, and see Im being BAd...lol I have gained 5 of the 11 pounds I lost but I am hoping to get my mind straight again. Tomorrow night I have my quarterly lapband support group meeting and am hoping to get some refocus with that. This is so hard. Why can I support everyone but myself????? Why do I LOVE sugar so much? I know its all in my head but so far I havent learned the whole lesson. Ive got to talk myself into staying on this site so I am made to be accountable...I am my own worst enemy. Hope everyones doing well, I have really missed you all!!!

Just checking in for the night. Hope evryone is doing great. I have had 3 bad meals in the last two days. I went way over my calories. I started my same old crap, Ive cheated so Im gonna just quit. But.....my goal is to stop being my own worst enemy. I just want to dust myself off and finally realize that I cant be perfect all the time, IM HUMAN. Tomorrows another day Scarlett. I can do this but for me I just have to dig deeper than others. I accept that, and now I am gonna pick myself up and press on to a healthy life. My goals for tomorrow are to first get all of my Water in, some exercise and journal every bite that goes in my mouth. I havent done that in a few days and Im sure thats where I went wrong. Okay...Im done venting. Hope everyones well, and KEEP POSTING, it helps me sooooo much!!!!

Weighed in this morning and I have lost 10.6 lbs. since Dec 30th :cool::thumbup::regular_smile::thumbup::cursing::thumbup::cursing: Got to run!! Talk to ya later!!!!

Thought I would check in before going to bed. THANKS so much for all of the comments, you all motivate me to press on. I guess thats what we all need to do. Several people have asked me what Im doing to lose. The only thing I can think of that Im doing different is I finally got all of the sugar out of my system and made my mind up to take one day at a time. After 4-5 days of measuring and suffering I think my band just shrunk a little, because I cant eat over 3/4 or 1 cup at a time now. Believe me before I cut down I was eating 4-5 cups at a time with no restriction. I dont know what else to tell ya, but since getting the sugar out of my system, Im not craving it all the time..............thanks goodness. Hope everyones well. (My uncle came off the ventilator tonight, thanks for the prayers):grouphug:

I weighed this morning and since Dec 30th when I restarted I have lost 9 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yee Haaaa:thumbup: Finally losing after a year of regaining lost weight, I pray I can keep this up!!!! Hope everyones doing well!

I havent posted in a fews days, hope everyone is doing well. I have been back on the program since Dec 30th, and am still doing great, which is an alltime record for me. I have kept my calories between 1000 and 1200. I need to work harder on getting my Water in but baby steps are my goal. I have been at the hospital with my family for the last 3 days and have managed to still do well, so Im proud of myself. For the prayers out there remember my uncle who has just found out he has leukemia. Thanks to everyone who has posted, it has really motivated me.

I restarted my journey Dec 30, I have done so good, I cant even believe it myself. I didnt get in all my water yesterday, I only drank 40oz but today I am striving to do better. Maybe its possible to lose weight and be satisfied. Who knew???? Still battling head hunger but arent we all. Hope everyones having a great new year!!!!!!!

I did GREAT yesterday. The first day I have stuck to Lapband rules in FOREVER. I even drank all of my water and measured my food. I am so proud of myself.... But now back to earth, today is another day...so far so good.

Tabithan-Just reading your posts motivates me...but... To answer your questions, I have had about 6 fills. Most of the time they werejust 0.25 or so. About 6 mos ago I had all of the Fluid taken out because I was PB'ing all of the time. I was stuffing myself all of the time. I had gotten to where I didnt care if I got sick as long as I got to eat what I wanted. Anyway...talked myself into trying again and went back to my doc and got two more fills (I am at 1.25cc in a 4cc band) The commitment lasted till the next day and I was back to my old habits....I cant seem to find the strength to move on. Every time I eat something Im not supposed to I feel horrible...but just not bad enough to stop!! Tomorrows another day Scarlet...lol!!!! I am barely 5'2" so I always show every pound. As we speak I am planning my menu for tomorrow. That has to be a step in the right direction. I HAVE TO DRINK WATER!!!!!!!!! GET IT IN MY HEAD!!!! ha ha

when you measure your food, how much do you eat at a time?

Didnt restart like I was supposed to do yesterday, but so far today I havent eaten or drank anything so here we go again. Im gonna go fix me a protein shake, so we'll see how that goes. Keep your fingers crossed, and pray.

So true, so true......Im tired of being depressed, etc...but I cant seem to find my way out. But...I have told myself all day today, "I'm not giving up on myself just yet" so lets find a way!!!!!

LOVED,LOVED,LOVED this thread. I feel like I havent ever posted any good news on the site. I have totally failed my band. I had surgery in Oct 2006. The only real weight I have lost was during the resticted diet after surgery. Once I was able to eat again, I never really stopped. I have steadily gained all of the weight I loat back and then some. I weighed 199 the day of surgery (I am barely 5ft 2in.) Today I weigh 203.8 lbs. I have never felt like more of a failure. The weight gain has made me feel horrible. My fibromyalgia pain has increased along with my appetite. Of course, I have vowed to restart for the new year. I am SOOOOO sick of my weight being my new years resolution for the past 17 years. Enough is enough already!!!! Today, I am rereading all my lapband stuff, trying to find some encouragement or motivation. This thread has been great. For those of you who weigh and measure your food for each meal, what are your goals with that...1 cup...etc...?????? Thanks for letting me vent......