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I feel bad but I cheated today. We made some homemade jerky and I just couldn't help myself. I brought my son to the movies and the smell of that delicious, ooey, buttered popcorn made me sneak a few handfuls. UGHHHHHHHH. Back to the ole liquids tomorrow. I have to hit that loss of 10% OR I can't have surgery. I can not negate all that I am doing by sabotaging myself. I have a goal. I have to keep up; as my son says, "mom, it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change." One I am making for him, to see him grow up and someday be able to see my grandkids.

I know I can't believe it but my scale says I am under 200 pounds for the first time in over 12 years. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I doubt it's right, but i just wanna pick that baby up and hug, hug, hug away. This is my new best friend. my fiancee did tell me that when I got to 195, I'd get the "FULL" treatment. oy vay....am I in for a treat; and it's not food. mmmmmmmmmmm, maybe he'll roll around in a bucket of KFC so I could smell him while I get my massage, that would be a treat.

I know I can't believe it but my scale says I am under 200 pounds for the first time in over 12 years. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I doubt it's right, but i just wanna pick that baby up and hug, hug, hug away. This is my new best friend. my fiancee did tell me that when I got to 195, I'd get the "FULL" treatment. oy vay....am I in for a treat; and it's not food. mmmmmmmmmmm, maybe he'll roll around in a bucket of KFC so I could smell him while I get my massage, that would be a treat.

I saw my 7 year old neice today, first time since Christmas, and she said, "wow, nene, you are looking skinny." Hey, who knew.....me slim, no friggin way. I still have the food baby,aka belly pouch, don't get me wrong. My love affair with food is still going strong, I'm just less amorous than I thought I would be. I am still eager for surgery, eager to be healthy, no longer looking forward to wearing jeans so tight they need to be unbuttoned when I sit down. Oh yeah, you all know what I'm talking about.

I saw my 7 year old neice today, first time since Christmas, and she said, "wow, nene, you are looking skinny." Hey, who knew.....me slim, no friggin way. I still have the food baby,aka belly pouch, don't get me wrong. My love affair with food is still going strong, I'm just less amorous than I thought I would be. I am still eager for surgery, eager to be healthy, no longer looking forward to wearing jeans so tight they need to be unbuttoned when I sit down. Oh yeah, you all know what I'm talking about.

I am a very positive person and try not to let people get me down. I thank all of you who keep me going on here. My BFF is the best, always supportive and never a negative nelly. But some, no names involved, aren't always the best. I need to do this for myself....I know, I know, I can lose weight, but keep it off without help. NO WAY. I could never make myself stop at just 1 slice of pizza. well, maybe if it were a personal pan size. 27 pounds off, 10 more to go before surgery. I am short, I am fat and can't wait till the day that I am lookin and feeling my best. 21 days till surgery, that means only 105 more shakes. I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT perseverance is my middle name, success is my last.

I am a very positive person and try not to let people get me down. I thank all of you who keep me going on here. My BFF is the best, always supportive and never a negative nelly. But some, no names involved, aren't always the best. I need to do this for myself....I know, I know, I can lose weight, but keep it off without help. NO WAY. I could never make myself stop at just 1 slice of pizza. well, maybe if it were a personal pan size. 27 pounds off, 10 more to go before surgery. I am short, I am fat and can't wait till the day that I am lookin and feeling my best. 21 days till surgery, that means only 105 more shakes. I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT perseverance is my middle name, success is my last.

I'm still hungry.....ready for real food. I have been drinking TONS of water. I feel water logged, I could probably float. I wish this liquid diet was for only 1 week, but 4 weeks, c'mon. I am ready for a slimmer me. I just think to myself, Nothing tastes so good as being thin feels. It felt pretty awesome today when i slipped into a pair of large scrub pants at work today. looking forward toward that next chocolate medi shake.mmmmmmmmmmm

I'm still hungry.....ready for real food. I have been drinking TONS of water. I feel water logged, I could probably float. I wish this liquid diet was for only 1 week, but 4 weeks, c'mon. I am ready for a slimmer me. I just think to myself, Nothing tastes so good as being thin feels. It felt pretty awesome today when i slipped into a pair of large scrub pants at work today. looking forward toward that next chocolate medi shake.mmmmmmmmmmm

I know that everyone says that this is worth it, but I have to tell ya.....I am HUNGRY. Fish, chicken, McDonalds, anything will do. These 5 shakes a day-" diet hell"; is just that HELL. I WANT FOOD! Someone, anyone......FEED ME!

I know that everyone says that this is worth it, but I have to tell ya.....I am HUNGRY. Fish, chicken, McDonalds, anything will do. These 5 shakes a day-" diet hell"; is just that HELL. I WANT FOOD! Someone, anyone......FEED ME!

ok, so here goes. I have been on my medifast diet a week now, 5 shakes a day, Yahoooooo, and have lost 10 pounds. Only 12 more to go. Surgery is scheduled for 8am 1/20/2010. I am so freakin excited I can barely stand myself. I have been heavy so long and can't wait to just be able to wear a size less than xl. The nurse was amazed that, yes, I am still cooking meals for everyone other than myself. I so want just a taste. Everything smells sooooooooooo good. My stomach growled so loudly at the doctor's office my son thought I'd farted. I was so embarassed.:tt2: And now I go and have my last shake of my day.

ok, so here goes. I have been on my medifast diet a week now, 5 shakes a day, Yahoooooo, and have lost 10 pounds. Only 12 more to go. Surgery is scheduled for 8am 1/20/2010. I am so freakin excited I can barely stand myself. :present: I have been heavy so long and can't wait to just be able to wear a size less than xl. The nurse was amazed that, yes, I am still cooking meals for everyone other than myself. I so want just a taste. Everything smells sooooooooooo good. My stomach growled so loudly at the doctor's office my son thought I'd farted. I was so embarassed.:Dancing_wub: And now I go and have my last shake of my day.

My date is January 20th if all goes well with the "medi hell" diet. I have to lose atleast 12 more pounds in the next 3 weeks. On the medifast for 1 week now and doing well. Still cooking full meals for the family and enjoying my low sodium broth while they eat. :smile: