adamg1

At almost 40 years old, I have tried every diet (eating plan for life) you can imagine.  I have had weight loss success multiple times over my life.  I have always found shedding 30, 50, 60 pounds to be somewhat easy, as long as I set my mind to it.  After all it is a simple equation (Move more, eat less and make smart choices)  The problem I have always had was keeping the weight off.  Now, I am not much of a sweets eater.  My problem is the quantity and portions at meal times.  I would much rather eat two full plates of Chinese food, rather than 1 full plate and a piece of cheesecake or apple pie.  Within the last 4 years, my wife and I have had 2 beautiful children and this has changed my motivations for losing weight.  My wife, who is a large part of my life and happiness, does not have the same eating problem that I have.  While she struggles a little with her weight and weight loss, she has always been able to control herself and implement a "stop loss" as she begins to gain 5 or 10 pounds.  I, on the other hand, will gain 5 or 20 lbs and get so discouraged by my lack of self control, that I get a sense of "who cares" and completely go off the hook, eventually gaining back all the weight I had just worked so hard at losing and more.  Part of my motivation to shed the over 100 pounds I need to lose, is I really want my wife to be attracted to me again.  In the beginning of our relationship, we had such a love affair with each other that nothing else in life seemed to really matter.  the fact that we had this love, was so powerful that it seemed to make all of life's problems and struggles easy to deal with.  Well, with me gaining so much weight combined with the stress and lack of sleep of raising to small children only 1 year and 4 days apart, my wife has really become dissatisfied with me and has basically said that if I don't make some major changes, and start setting a good healthy eating example for my children and get myself much healthier that she can not picture herself staying in are marriage.  This, for me would be devastating, not to mention how this would impact my children in their lives.  See,  I am a person who's parents divorced when I was just five years old, and I believe that trauma that happened to me in my childhood someway, somehow contributes to my over eating and poor self esteem.  Now, I am not making excuses, because "if it is to be, it is up to me", but I would hate for my children to have to deal with divorce in their young lives and wonder why daddy isn't there reading stories to me and putting me to be anymore. All because I couldn't lose weigh or control my eating habits.  How unbelievably embarrassing!!!


So in a need to control my eating portions, I am looking towards the lap band to help me save my marriage and my family.  I feel fortunate that in my lifetime there have been medical advances to help people who simply can not control themselves and their mealtime portions to help people like me gain control. I know that this is not a magical cure to make me instantly skinny and healthy, but rather a tool to help me get back on track to better control myself.  I will be banded on September 14th 2009 exactly 1 week after my 39th birthday, and it will truly be "the 1st day of the rest of my life"