mandie175lbs

I think I have it under control now girlfriend! I am so excited to have a plan! Once I lose the remainder 43lbs, I have a pair of diamond earrings, and necklace that matches my engagement ring that I will reward myself with. My girl at the Jareds (jewelry store) called me the other day to see where I was with my diet (I told her a partial lie.... that I was just on a diet! lol). She is waiting on me to purchase the two pieces of jewelry and I can't wait to get it, but not until I deserve it. I smell success girl! I wish there was something on here where I can join weight loss challenges.... it seems like when most people get their surgeries, they pretty much stop posting or maybe I'm not looking in the right places.

I went to the doctor today and I couldn't believe that my doctor thought she wasn't going to give me a fill today! lol! I told her that until I reach my goal weight, I am expecting a fill EVERY TIME I come! lol! She laughed and kept trying to convenience me that I didn't need it. She was strongly suggesting that I not get a fill, but I was not hearing it today! i told her that if she didn't give me a fill that I was seriously considering going to another doctor for it! I was bluffing, but I made a believer out of her and she gave me 1cc of fluid.... We laughed about it afterwords! I sipped the water that she gave me to test if the band was going to work for me with 5cc of fluid and I could drank water and talk at the same time and she said that that's what she was looking for. So, I'm satisfied.... I guess! lol. My next appointment is December 18. I don't think I'm going to be able to reach my goal by my birthday, but I know it's not going to happen. I'm finally at peace with that.

I went to the Dr. today and got my first fill. I'm back o soft foods for the next two days. I hadn't lost any more weight, but I haven't gained any either. She only put 1cc in it. She said that my band was flushed with saline so I already had about 3cc in the band (I didn't know this!) She emptied the band and measured it to be abut 3cc and she added an additional 1cc. So as I understand it, I have 4cc in my band. I wished she had gone ahead and filled the thing up, but I guess she knows what she's doing. Oh well, I tired from a cold and I guess I will take it down for the day. Take care guys!

I'm trying to send you a private message.

If taking pain meds are not going to help, then why bother taking drugs.... I am really getting depressed because I seriously thought that I would have discontinued taking these pills by now! I think I will call the doctor tomorrow! Buyer's remorse for sure! I guess I will try taking two tylenol and try to sleep until tomorrow.... I don't even want to wake up anymore today.... this is so sad.... I'm done for today:(

It's really been a mind game.... or should I say a willpower issue with me because, before when I was afraid to overeat, I wouldn't dare do it! As soon as I realized that I could overeat and not fall dead, I started to overeat! lol! So, I've made up my mind to work with this band. It's only here to help/aid me by holding off the hungry feeling for a period of time. It can't choose the foods that I eat,it can't stop me from eating just to be eating and it certainly can't make me exercise. Once I realized ALL of this, I saw this whole surgery in a different light. I think I got a little spoiled when I lost weight in the beginning and didn't have to lift a finger! I truly have a new respect for my lap band and we are now working together as a team. When I stop losing weight, I felt that the band was just sitting there waiting for me to meet it 1/2 way! lol!

Just checking on you, I hope you are recovering well.

No excuses.... I'll just have to work hard to do better.

No warning? They just up and change the entire layout? I think they are trying to be another facebook/myspace. lol!

OK Guys, My day is today at 3pm. to see the nutritionist and the psychiatrist. I am soooo scared! I hope I can pull this thing off. Wish me luck and I will keep you guys posted..

Ok Jamie, where are you? Are you ok? I getting a little worried about you:(

OMG! Good luck to you! I'm so excited for you! Please keep us posted. I'm still waiting to hear something from the insurance company:(

OMG! Thanks Shonette! I was told by my doctor that it was ok to switch from the chewable vitamins, but what you said makes a lot of sense. What are you taking for calcium? I'm going to start crushing everything. I hate taking pills and the vitamins smell sooo bad that I would hate to crush them and open them up. I can just imagine the smell that would come from it. I'm cutting them and when I do that it makes sharp edges and that scrapes the back of my throat. So I guess I'll be out looking for other was to deal with taking these pills. Thanks for responding and thanks for caring.

Psych eval and meeting w/nutr went well yesterday. I hope I didn't talk too much w/the psyc doctor! lol! Today I have the upper GI procedure. This is the last appointment I have before everything is sent to my insurance co. for eval. I can't wait to get in and get out of there today. I've been dreading this, but I have to get started on my gluten free diet (found out Tuesday that I am allergic to gluten) I swear, when it rains it pours! So now I having to change my eating habits tremendously to accommodate this issue with gluten. I hope my insurance co. is willing to approve this surgery. I don't usually get my hopes up about anything, but I am really flying high on this one!

She made a phone call to my insurance company and confirmed what I told her, so now , I don't have to pay anything out of pocket for my fills. I told her that I had already set up a payment plan at the hospital and that I didn't need them to collect money from me to pay on that bill.... All in a days work! lol! You guys may want to check with your insurance company, you may be spending unnecessary money.

Sometimes when I eat, it's less than 3 hours and I am thinking about eating again. Usually, I'm not hungry, but before, when I would eat, I felt full for up to 4 or 5 hours and eating between meals was the last thing on my mind.... so, as much as I hate thinking about the my doctor sticking that needle through my stomach to find a port, I guess I better go ahead and have it done before I start gaining weight and forget how I'm suppose to fill when I'm full! lol! Good Luck Guys! Oh! No one has said anything about the fills! Is it going to hurt?

Sorry Guys, this is a long one! lol! Start reading from the bottom up. I know that the time is listed, but I numbered them for people like me who see little notations/guides like that after the fact! lol!

Starting Over...

Still waiting.... I am so wishing for some news next week! I don't think I can go through another weekend thinking about this surgery. I don't know what i'm going to do if I am denied by my insurance company....

Thanks a lot! We will get there!

Thanks for respponding. My appointment is today at 3pm. I'm going to eat an entire watermelon and drink plenty of water along with my little secret to reach a higher bmi. lol! Wish me luck an keep me posted on your status.

Thanks for the encouragement. I'm going to need ALL the help I can get! This was some painful stuff to go through. lol! The first day was unreal, while I was sitting on the table, I seriously thought I was going to have a heart attack! I was scare to death! My anesthetist gave me some anxiety meds through the IV. (Thank Goodness!) How have things been with you so far?

Thanks for the information. I am so happy for the reactions your co-workers gave you! I know it felt great to hear all the compliments. Good for you and keep up the good work. I've decided to cancel the engagement party in September. Just thinking about it stressed me out! Now I can concentrate on this weight without all the stress of having a deadline. Good luck to you and thanks again for the information.

Thanks for your beautiful words of encouragement. I will be on clear liquids tomorrow. I just hope and pray that I can get through that without vomiting. When I'm hungry, I get sick to the point of vomiting and I hate to vomit. Since I was a little girl and every time I've vomited in my life, for some reason I urinate on myself. lol! I know this is too much information, but it's crazy that I can't control this! lol! Anyway, I know you can't wait to have your surgery. My feet, back and side started to kill me from the extra weight! lol! How tall are you? Are you the person in the black or pink? Take care and I will certainly be praying for you and all of us here who are trying to make that change in our lives. We can do this! Keep in touch and I will do the same.

Thanks Shonette. I realize that I'm human and I need to hear positive comments just like the next person. I'm going to continue to work hard and try to make my next picture 100 times better than these! I rejoined the gym that's a drive away, so I will either start back at that gym tonight or I will start first thing in the morning! Take care.