aubreanna

I have struggled with my weight my whole life.  Even when I was extremely active and in great shape, I always wanted to be thinner.  Now I would give anything to weigh 150 pounds.  My Husband has tried to be supportive as he has seen me struggle with my weight but it is a very sensitive topic for me.  He met at 150 pounds and I am sure that he would love for me to loose weight as much as I would.  When he first approached me with information about a weight loss seminar, I thought why not.  When I realized that it was for weight loss surgery, I was furious but I stayed for the entire thing.  I told my Husband that he cared more about how I looked than he did about me.  He said that he cared enough about me that he wanted me to be healthy and happy with myself.  My anger only held me back for a week before I called to make my first appointment.  Two months later, my surgery is scheduled for July 23, 2009.  It seemed to all happen pretty fast.  I am sure that I made the right decision but now that it is only days away, I am starting to get nervous.  The whole point is to improve my health so that I will be around to watch my two daughters grow up.  Now I worry that something may go wrong.  I am sure it is a normal fear.  Something can go wrong with any surgery.  But I am so tired of struggling to loose the weight only to gain it back and more.  I am looking forward to a permanent life change.