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Julie. Oh God, I hope your right as I just came back from another movie and big popcorn and then two hamburger patties for dinner. I f I can be like you in any way I would feel lucky. So when you had a big restriction, would you be kind enough to give me an idea of a typical day for you with food and fluids cuz i honestly do not have a clue? Can I swallow pills? Can i drink lots of water at a time? thanks julie, I appreciate it.

mandi,if anyone can do it,, it's YOU!

Dear water lillyand anyone else who is here . Please help me, I feel out of control and yet I am banded now and just finsihed full fluids( cheated and i can now eat solid foods, i just chew better or gag) but I have now seenmovies for the past three days and loaded up with popcorn,................what the hell is happening to me? I mean I borrowed this money to do it, I have to say I have at least excersized for the past three days but I am eating AND hungry...I am sick of yogurt, sick of cottage cheese,sick of fluids, I want something REAL , somethignmeaty......I am blowing this big time. I am not evengoing toget weighted today and feel more depressedI mean i went to the movie last night and ate a whopper with cheese and then popcorn...almosta large one, I have to say i can't eat as much but even that makes no difference on scale. First fill comes later sept then 2nd and 3rd Oct. Am I the only failure here? Please help me!

hey there dezado I actaully attended a few overeaters anon meetings and honestly I was soo hoping it would be helpful and for a bit it was , but after a bit, I noticed that I couldn't speak in the group. they folowed a ceratin doctrin all the time and took turns and I couldn't vent/cry/ sek help whatever so I stil felt very much alone. I also couldn't understand it as I lived in a small town and there weren't many poepl at the meeting so I thought it would be a bit more open and time to discuss. So , no, that didn't help. I heard that book by geneen rothman ( roth) ?? is a good one when food is love..has anyone read it and what did you think? thanks Kim

HI No the 23 lbs and it is now just 20 was since I started the preop diet. I am really feeling disinhearted, I actually worked out today but then sai..screw it and after fighting with my significant other I went to a movie ate a whopper with cheese and popcorn, so I only have myself to blame, but I ma hungry and the pureed stuff puts weight on me , the full fluid and I was eating way less then I usually do. If it is this slow since i started, what's the point? the doc was not my surgeaon, but a shrink I went to, to deal with food issues and she told me about the lap band.

I love lamb although at 5.99 a lb for canuck lamb i don't buy it!

hI guys yes Nykee I feel frustrated too and of course today didn't help. i had my mother and my doc pretty well tel me "well you must be doing something wrong" "soup can have lots of calories too". I am hungry. I am tired of the full fluids which end today but since I ahven't lost weight on that i feel that once I eat pureed iwill gain again. Idon't get it. I did start excersing cuz I am a couch potato and it was not fun, nor pretty but damn I did 30 mins on my treadmill at not a huge fast pace but I did it. My first fill is not til sept 15th or so, but honestly I don;t get how I am eating so much less than the garbage can i was before and now so little, if at all.Pretty discouraging considering I am really just started and it is sooo slow already. sorry for the griping ..but here is the only place i can. thanks Kim

Edie, thanks for your message. I don't think I am trying to hurt myself. Why do I eat or anyone here who go to this place? I dunno, But all I know is that I have eaten for celebrations, grief, just about everything and even numbness and continued well after i wasn't hungry. I am seeing a shrink right now as I know I needed help with the eating thing and it was she who suggested the lapband, I didn't know anything about it before. AS far as why I eat....I still do not know or how I got here. I have taken wellbutrin and as you know many antidepressants have side effects that are worse than what they are for and the one big one is weight gain, so I had little alternative. Thankyou for your concern. This has been hard for me...I have stumbled and fell a few times and this is the only place I feel safe and accepted to discuss my fears and hopefully success. I am inspired by the many folks here who are there for each other and me too, so I tell all, and do not worry about judgement and that alone is very freeing. I must say I had a non weight victory today if that is what they call it. This was the first day I actually did some excercise and was able to do half an hour on my tread mill. I may not have been able to get with it in the aug challenge that Cloe started but hopefully I can get with it for Sept. I thank you for your care and concern.:hug: Kim

I love costco...so I will try it!!! I love their pesto sauce...unbelievable!

this sounds dumb, but what is antipesto?????

molly, wheetsin, dezado, julie wow congrats I hope to get on the same page with you one day with the weight thing, Iamstill hovering around 300 and the damn thing doesn't want to move argh!

Dezado I don't think we have that kind of cottage cheese here inCanada?? but it sounds good and Ilike your idea of the baked potato..getting hungry just thinking about it. I ate pea soup tonight, and added cheese..mm good and I ate the whole can, felt full after and now hungry again.

wheezy I am just over two weeks post op and HUNGRY big time, even cheated, hated myself, but i am soo hungry so I can relate...big time.

oh neenagh, lmao..okay so your like the witch in Hansel and Gretal? lol

okay I am lost....neenagh..are you pregnant?man you are so small compoared to me already, and you haven't even had surgery yet???

thanks, so chives with cottage cheese? that is somethign you can buy? maybe a baked a potaoo sounds good, I could mush that up right? put natural yogurt on it???? Imean I am finished full fluids technically thursday but Ima hungry and have to eat something and I know as I ate already and no problem with it. so Iam trying today but man I am getting soo tempted...... if any of you left the diet early,,what could/did you eat with no problems. I do not get my first fill til sept ( later) then in oct for second and third.

lap bandit thanks, and wow, 100 lbs in 7 months is amazing. I am failing already and have soo much to lose and am hungry all the time. Starting again, yes will try but with messing up so soon I am very worried I can't do this.

Dear Tired Old man..I wish you would change you addy to old guy who is upbeat and incredibly supportive. Want to hear something funny? I am a mental health professional........isnt this like physician heal thyself??? I am also seeing a shrink and have since sept ......seems like so many isssues coming up and food is not a big deal to her, I don't think she gets it. I have worked with her and respect her immensly, infact she was the one who told me about this surgery that one of her patients had already had.

No cloe, I didn't. I mean then I look like an idiot . Everyone else seems to be doing great and I just can't do it so early in the game.

does anyone know if this can be covered in canada, I don't think so in ontario?? And you look terrific by the way. I guess I think I will lose my boobs when Ilose the weight,but wow, yours still look good, I can only pray lol!

hEy guys thanks BUt I do feel like I am failing and messingup badly and don't know if I can do this. I almost wish I was living with someone going through the same thing for moral support. I can't satnd the smells inthe kitchen when they cook and I take off to the computer in the basement. The popcorn went down easy although I could only eat half the large bag I usually get and I ate two hamburger patties, the ones from presidents choice that you nuke and have cheese in them. They were interesting, it felt kinda stuck a little when I think the piece was too large but not painful, so I chewed it up. I hate this full Fluid thing and being hungry is awful I swear. I literally am thinking about food more than ever and craving everyting I can't have. I hate to sound weak but boy I guess this is IT for me as far as my weakness in this world and sometimes I feel it has me beat. I used to think alcoholics etc. man are they weak poeple , "just stop drinking" but that they realy don't wan to, but I know I am addicted to food, it seems to have run my life for so long ad look at the prices I / perhaps you have paid..with health, for me a job and relationships , being reclusive all because of food. I dunno, I am finding this really tough. I am eating yogurt again and going to try to get back onthe wagon...but boy I would love a night at the MANDARIN in Barrie! I read about people living in the same communtiy who get together and meet or go walking and I wishI was closer to some of you here. I mean YOU guys in the canadian group are my support system and I tried the other band the canadian one that sends threads all day, but I just don't feel the same connection there and so far I cannot relate to folks talking about plastic surgery etc... Yoda, Cloe, Argon, wheezy, jude et all, Ifeel weak to say this but I do need your support right now and I am sorry to be a oain but I am finding this really tough.

your doctor may recommend a tummy tuck etc and send pics to OHIP, but for the most part they deny them. For some reason, they approve breast reductions etc after losing weight. ( guess OHIP is male dominated) so for the most part, save your pennies.

Messed up Hi Folks Well I don't feel comfortable tellign anyone this, butthis is the only place I can come for help. I was banded on Aug 10th and did okay,,,bt I am hungry. I am on the second week of the full Fluid diet post op and just "lost it" and ate. I mean i ate two hamburger patties with cheese, then went to a movie where i ate popcorn and chocolate. I don't know why I did it. I was starving, sick of eating or rather drinking and i lost control, story of my life i guess. I do not have the coverage for the surgery and it will take me ages to pay it off and I feel addicted to food I guess and if I can't do it now, then I guess i have messed up with this too. I don't know what to do, and if that now means my band is messed up and stretched or whatever can happen. I only felt liek I had something stuck kind for a sec when I ate the hamburger patty but then I ate it and chewed it up better. how the heck am I going to get through this when i am have a fill and crave everything in sight? I am sorry to moan and I know I am my worst enemy but I read of the people here who never mess up and are sooooo determined ,and I am not a kid anymore and I am almost 300 lbs. I started out at 320. So I dunno, I am afraid that i will fail at this since I have done so so early in the game. K

Oh my gosh am I ever touched that you guys wrote to me with your help and suggestions cuz I really feel like I failed and that I am falling apart. I am sooo stuffed right now, I feel sick, as I stuffed in popcorn, hamburger, cheesies and chocolate....what the hell is wrong with me? I eat past the hungry stage to the numb, sick to my stomach stage. I even tried to make myself throw up, that is how awful I feel right now. Can I get a fill before hand? Does anyone know?? I mean I am supposed to be starting my second week of full fluids and here I am eating crap and lots of it. What is PB , by the way? i have no clue. Gawd I feel sick, right now....I have to stop this. I started to get hungry a couple days ago, my mom was visiting, control or what, she can't stop, even though she says she doesn't want to be critical but....... for the umpteeenth time, then of course Peter and I are at it. So my triggers ???maybe.. plus I took my mom to my shrink thursday, the doc says she has never seen me so quiet. so I am here feeling ill, tinking i threw 16,000 down the toilet, BUT I come on here and feel teary when I read you guys and even thoguh I feel like I give up on me...you haven't given up on me...and give me hope and support. I am humbled. THANKYOU!!!!

Hi Folks Well I don't feel comfortable tellign anyone this, butthis is the only place I can come for help. I was banded on Aug 10th and did okay,,,bt I am hungry. I am on the second week of the full fluid diet post op and just "lost it" and ate. I mean i ate two hamburger patties with cheese, then went to a movie where i ate popcorn and chocolate. I don't know why I did it. I was starving, sick of eating or rather drinking and i lost control, story of my life i guess. I do not have the coverage for the surgery and it will take me ages to pay it off and I feel addicted to food I guess and if I can't do it now, then I guess i have messed up with this too. I don't know what to do, and if that now means my band is messed up and stretched or whatever can happen. I only felt liek I had something stuck kind for a sec when I ate the hamburger patty but then I ate it and chewed it up better. how the heck am I going to get through this when i am have a fill and crave everything in sight? I am sorry to moan and I know I am my worst enemy but I read of the people here who never mess up and are sooooo determined ,and I am not a kid anymore and I am almost 300 lbs. I started out at 320. So I dunno, I am afraid that i will fail at this since I have done so so early in the game. K