Jachut, you said you're happy if you're so sore you can't sit on the toilet. I can understand that kind of sore and I can understand liking it. I think this is different though. What if you can't lift the phone to your ear, sleep at night or cry from the head pain? Do you get those? Is that the same kind of thing? I'm honestly asking.
I have visible knots in my shoulders. I wear a size 50 L bra and have had the knots since I was a teen, they just get worse. The Drs have had me on such a high level of Naproxin for so long that my lap band Dr told me to still take it and crush it (usually a huge no-no with the band). I wake up every morning to back spasms. When I roll my shoulders they go "pop", "pop", "pop"-- I have no idea what that is but it comes from the muscles. When I walk my knots get much worse and I get additional knots in my neck and head. They are like lumps that feel bruised and tight. Is that the kind of pain you had? Or has anyone else had that?
I've tried to exercise through it. I have done the same low exercise, like 5 min treadmill five days a week or two 30 min Water aerobics a week, for a month and it gets worse and worse until I've lost a month of work and end up in so much pain I'm in bed for three days. Does it get better?
It's not like I'm looking for an excuse to be lazy. I dream of roller skating, riding a bike, hiking, play tennis, dancing-- I'm crying typing this. I just need some hope that I can get past this horrible pain.