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Hey Monique - this is My Capt. Mo... Monique Lisa - My brother (her dad) calls her Mona Lisa....

Reggie you better take care of yourself my lady! I will pass on what my PCP ALWAYS tells me when I call him every time I get a new brain tumor - He says "Not to worry - if it was a tumor, it wouldn't go away - You would still feel the way until the tumor was removed or treated." Always gives me a little piece of mind when I'm stressed out about my migraines. Get the CT scan, it will make you feel better - at least it put me at ease! Diabetes is a different story - don't know what to say about that as I have zero experience with it thus far - knock on wood! Please keep me updated as to what your doctor says and let me know if there is anything I can do to help. Tina - I completely agree with you - stress & personal issues must stall weight loss because I haven't been hardly eating at all and my scale isn't moving - I have been under alot of financial stress lately - Can't wait for my husband to get back to work - he's an electrician in the san fran union and work is so slow - there are 150 guys on the books ahead of him waiting to be called out to a job! - sorry if I'm repeating my self cuz I think I already told ya'll this before. Pammie - i so wish I could say something to make you feel better!!! Heck wish I could say something to make myself feel better. I will say this.... At least you know when you're feeling your lowest there is no place else to go but up! Call me if you ever want to; to cry or whatever! Patsy - I'm so jealous! I didn't get ANY warm air tube! so glad you're feeling so well. Can't wait till you get where I'm at - Can't wait till everybody who isn't already happy with where they are with the band gets here - I know it can't be possible that I'm already at my permanent sweet spot but boy do I feel like I am - so in love with Rambo HOWEVER - Rambo failed me a bit today - or I guess I failed Rambo - apparenlty he enjoys Hershey's chocolate syrup as much as I - Just when I thought I had gotten rid of all chocolate my nephew asked for some hot chocolate - we don't have any chocolate I say - and he says - yes we do - dad got some GRRRRRRRR. got the nieces & nephew this weekend. I hate when I get to ramblin cuz then I forget what I wanted to say to everybody! Tamra - how are you doing? Still starving?? Coco - still waitin for my doorbell to ring - need my house cleaned & organized from top to bottom - where are you? Went out with my bestest friends that I had to cut off to lose weight LOL - of course we went to chevy's I got a Chilli Relleno - yummy! they got margaritas, pitchers of beer, rice beans taco's & all kinds of junk food - i held strong for as long as I could but I ate 4 chips with some salsa! Of course it couldn't stop there - then we had to hit the bar so they could have a few more pitchers! I had zero alcohol. For the first time I actually felt guilty that i lost weight - one of my girls came by here before we went to the restaurant to borrow something to wear cuz she can't fit into any of her clothes anymore - she just had her 4th child! Anyway - I use to always have jeans she could fit into but suddenly - i had nothing for her - She wound up staying in her sweat pants & t-shirt. It's a bittersweet feeling. I know she's not one of the ones that doesn't want me to succeed and I know she's happy for me that I lost weight but I also could feel her sadness at how big she's gotten - I'm sure that I only made her feel even bigger. Heather - did I mention that I don't take the citrate one? I don't know what the difference is but in the class Robin pointed out that it was ok for me to take the ones Im taking because I was getting the band & not RNY - RNY'ers have to get the citrate ones because of the malabsorbtion thing... Ok, I'm sure I'll be back up again when I remember everything else i wanted to say

Hi All, Just checking in - nothing new to report. Tina - I'm so glad you stood your ground. As band experienced adult you don't need a babysitter LOL John - so so happy for you - mini goal, surgery date - 3's a charm! woop woop Lee - Monday's the big day? I'm confused - I thought it was the following Monday??? Coco - what's up my shopping buddy? Donna - what's going on?? Miss you lady!!!!!!!! Pat - so glad the hard part is over for you - wasn't too bad though, right?? Mo, if I could share with you I totally would - funny thing is I'm not eating hardly anything but my scale won't budge - Stupid WW scale - I know it's rigged! Or silly me for not exercising - something bout this weather that makes it even harder for me to get motivated! Ash - I am so glad you're sticking with us even though you've decided to put your surgery on hold! Jes - what up?? How's your band working for you - I've decided to call mine Rambo - tough but lovable! April - where are you sweet lady? Tamra - you in bandster heaven or hell LOL

Just finished my Decaf Americano that I got at 8:30 this morning!

Thanks Lee & Donna for the Piatti's ideas... Yes Donna - I am so lovin my restriction - I wouldn't change this band for the world - I know this was the best surgery choice for ME. I don't really want to tell Bridezilla about the band because EVERYBODY has an opinion. People who are getting RNY because it is best for THEM seem to think it's best for EVERYBODY same goes with the Sleeve, the put the fork down method, the diet pill method and so on... What works best for some doesn't work best for others and I really don't want to deal with somebody else's idea of what I should have or should be doing. If I wanted their opinion I would've asked for it! My point is that I'm thinking a small cup of soup so as to not let on to her about the band - Boy, what a round about way of getting to my point LOL - she knows I'm dieting so it is what it is! Really you guys never told me it would be this good! Actually, I think Riley did, but you just don't believe it till you experience it. Still have my night time chocolate thing going on but it's not because I'm hungry - this is my head/eyes talking so I just can't have it in the house anymore - my husband is ok with that! Coco - it's funny that you mentioned raisins on the phone - my husband is a finatic - loves cinnamon rolls but won't get cinnabon because they don't put raisins in their rolls - Once I pointed out the sugar content he freaked out LOL. He's trying to cut back - funny how he freaked about the raisins but not the actual rolls - MEN!

Lee - Welcome to my insomniac world! Hope you all are having fun in the class - did either of you bring ur cameras Yes, Tam - it is real! Like Donna said, though, don't get discouraged when you stop losing so fast - as soon as you get to the real food stage it will slow down - if you hit the fries, it will STOP. So listen to JES!! Jes, how goes it? are you feeling any restriction yet? Could I possibly be at my sweet spot already? Not hungry at all and it's taken me 2hrs to drink 1/4 of my venti coffee - not because I can't get it down but because I'm just not thinking about it - HMmmm?? Need help my peeps! I gotta go to Piatti's tonight with Bridezilla - who is use to seing me eat my whole plate. Now I'm done in two (2) or three (3) bites. Do I just order soup/slider or just tell her I'm not hungry or.... I just don't want it to come back up in front of her, her fiance and the other bridesmaids LOL.. I'm still learning how to use this thing - I haven't gotten the "warning" signs yet - AFTER I'm full my right ear hurts but....

Yeah, Donna - lemme tell you how much I'm enjoying this restriction.... Today has been a crazy day - my niece's boyfriends birthday (16th) is tomorrow - Hers was last Sunday and he bought her a whole outfit - ladies he got her matching shoes too! So, since she's living with me and my brother who is anti dating/boyfriend, it is my responsibility to be sure she takes care of him. Did i mention he even brought her a cake to school?? He's a keeper. Anyway running around at the mall all day getting "gifts" and then back home to make a cake - she wanted to make him the giant cup cake thing so I let her use my pan - she couldn't get it out of the pan and crumpled it all up OMG! Now she's a crying mess cuz It's too late to start all over and she has to finish her homework, blah blah blah - Long story, i know - so the only thing I know how to do wtih crubled cake is make cake balls - so she's doing homework and I'm melting CHOCOLATE & things. I tried to eat a cake ball and could only get in a small nibble or two. I said it before and I'll say it again - I LOVE THIS FRIGGIN THING! Ash - isn't it the greatest when you find a group that fits you?? Not all groups are so welcoming so I'm happy for you. It makes all the difference in the world!! Nicole I've been thinking about you and your sister all day. Wondering what could have gone so wrong! If there is anything I can do for you I'm here!! My love to my Auds. Lee, coco & john - have fun tomorrow and if you want to stay on the good side of Liz & Robin don't mention this site LOL I have to wonder if Liz is talking about the site in it's entirety or this specifically this thread. Hmmmm? either way, don't mention it cuz she says we're idiots LOL LOL. Tina - glad you were able to cut the cord! This crap & life in general is hard enough without the added negativity! Candi - where are you? Thought you were back with us girlfriend~! Tam - lemme know when you open up that Restaurant girl - I need a job hahahaha so tired - gotta go to Santa clara with Hitler aka Bridezilla tomorrow to have a meeting with the coordinator of the venue where the wedding is taking place - BORING! Oh, then to Piatti's to see how the food is for the rehersal dinner.

Jes, you'll get it soon enough - I think I will need to lose about 20lbs before i need a fill. 5cc's seems to be pretty good! So now all I need to do is lay off the midnight chocolate LOL Funny how that never seems to come back up! I shoulda ordered a band that doesn't like chocolate!!

Ali - point west group is always the 4th Saturday of the month from 11 - 1 Hey Karen - how's it rollin??

Jes - I'm there! Heather - you are just a wealth of info today - I love that pic - it's the coolest thing yet! John - I hear ya on how frustrating all this can be and I'm happy to say that I really don't know how you feel but i do know that it will be greater later! At some point, you'll be jogging down the street with your headphones on thinking about all this hassle you've been put thru and just have to laugh! Lee - glad you got into the thursday class but just a warning ya'll they tried to separate me & jes cuz we were having too much fun - pee BEFORE you go in cuz if you walk out during the class they will talk about you behind your back like a dog! At least, that's what they did to jes. So.... I am a complete COMPLETE restriction rookie. I just don't know what I'm doing here yesterday was cool but today IS NOT. I had a scrambled egg for Bfst & that was fine. bout 2hrs later I had a cup of decaf - that was fine BUT.... I was running my niece around all afternoon and didn't prepare so when she wanted Wendy's i said cool - I ordered a cheeseburger & threw away the bun - I ate about 1/2 the burger and it started to come back up - I spit some out into the bag and was like ok - that was one bite too many - then bout 15 min later walking thru the mall talking to Coco on the phone, here comes the rest - I had to hightail it to the bathroom - my poor niece has no idea what's going on so I had to tell her I had something stuck in my throat - UGH! Did I mention I LOVE THIS THING! I will get the hang of it and learn when to stop but till then, my band won't let me fail YEEEEE HAAAAA Tamra - what's wrong with you girlie?? Are you picking up your daughter & things? NOthing over 10lbs!!!! Pat - Just keep an eye on those incitions - if it gets puffy or turns green - go to the hospital LOL One of my little ones, right beneath my boob kept bleeding cuz my bra was right on top of it - sitting up for me was a no-no

Oh, Nicole - I read about that shooting in the news today - He wasn't alone right? Were the other two men hit at all - any ideas why?? You & Your sister are in my thoughts and prayers! Pat - good to see you're making the most of things LEE - ROCK ON GIRL! You & Coco will be like me & Jes. Congratulations - since you don't have a pic up be sure to introduce yourself to Coco. She looks just like her pic and I'm sure John will be sittin next to her. He'll be the handsome man getting the sleeve like you. Annalyn - so glad to see you back here - keep at it girlfriend and just think about all the weight you just lost by filing that divorce! April - how are you girl? Donna - I see you ! what's up? Tamra - if you're gonna do fries make em Wendy's for me LOL. Also mashed potatos were my savior.

Tamra - back away from the fries! This is the time period when you will lose a large chunk of weight if you play the game right. Plenty of time for fries once you hit banster hell LOL

wooooo hooooo - congrats Bella!!!

Hey Pat - where are you ? I know the hubby said you were home & resting but it's not the same as seing you up & posting! Gotta see that thumbs up girlie.

Damn, Tam - you shoulda stuck with Doc Who! Sounds like Baggs did a number on you LOL. I had ZERO problems - Never opened the gas-x box - only took the vicodin 1 time because they told me to take it later that night when I got home. got no pain meds before I left the hospital - didn't need it. Up & ready to go right after surgery - Yep - you shoulda stuck with The Doc! This is his curse on you for switching LOL LOL LOL

PAT - Welcome to the bandside! You should be in the comfy chair chillin out! Cain't wait to hear how your recovery goes! Tina - I agree with Pammie - lay low sister! Did I mention that the meetings with Robin are NOT a requirement!!! You can lose the 12lbs! I feel for you though, I know how hard it was with so little in my band - Now at 5cc's it's finally working like the tool it was suppose to be. Get yourself a really large bottle of water and just drink it ALL day long - I put crystal light in mine and it really did help keep me from eating so much all day. Coco's on the move! it's all fast tracked from her on out! (still workin on my hubby) Hey John, since you're a veteran at this, take care of Coco in class Thursday. Tamra - sending Bri good thoughts!! I had a decaf coffe as soon as I was on full liquids - only had a few sips just because once I started drinking it, i didn't really wasnt it. Hot tea is fine too - AS LONG AS IT IS ALL SF & DECAF! Lee - you gonna weight in or what?? would be so cool if you could go to the orientation with coco & john. Pammie - chin up lovely ladie - I know how you feel though as it is those same blues that are keeping me up at night. And I'm alreay oh wellbutrin LOL. Oh boy - since I got my fill by tummy is so darn loud. I hear it rumblin when the TV & radio are off and I just look over at the hubby and he can hear it too. Not a hungry thing though just an air thing. My life would be so perfect if I could just get past the late night boredom wanting to eat thing though. I had a small handful of sunflower seeds at 2am. Seriously - I need some ambien but they won't give me any :confused: I know this weather isn't helping any either - it is a proven fact that we want to hybernate & pack on the pounds in the winter - Robin probably wouldn't agree though LMAO

PS: don't even want any chocolate today!

Oh, Pat - sorry you have this hickup at the last minute! I would email Dr. Park if I were you! Been up since 4am have a headache but got to see Coco this afternoon - I really want to post for her but I don't want to steal her Mojo - just know that it's good news and Liz thinks we're idiots LOL RANT: Bridezilla got these little jars that she wants to fill with personalized M&M"s for wedding favors - why does she wasnt me to come take all the jars out of their little individual bubble wraps, put the personalized ribbons on them and then put them back in the little bubble wraps so that the ribbon can get flattened and we have to take them all back out of their little wraps to put the M&M's in when she orders them closer to the wedding date to put them back in they little wraps AGAIN to transport them to the wedding just to take them back out to give them away??? Wouldn't it make sense to do the ribbons & M&M's at the same time? I'm so confused by all this- I don't think I'm a very good MOH. Or at least, I don't like being a MOH. I finally know what it feels like to be banded! This morning I ate 1/4c of chicken salad and was DONE! for lunch 5 hours later I TRIED to have another 1/4C but could only manage two bites before it got stuck in my throat and I was done again. too full to even drink my water. I LOVE THIS FRIGGIN THING!

Hey Pat - how was that MOM LOL - See you on the band side :wink: Maria - you are ALWAYS missed! Wuv u! Pammie - no pain no gain right?? Heather - did I miss the challenge post? what's it all about?? LB - How you doing this morning - better??? Coco - You could be on the band side next week if things work out for you as they did for LB! Woo hoo!!!! K, I woke up at 4:00 am this morning - didn't eat but sure did want to - couldn't go back to sleep either so I've been up and now I have a headache - GRRRRRRRRR!

Ok, so update - I did eat a little snacky snack last night before bed - but I still woke up at 4:00 am this time - didn't eat though! forced myself to just go back to sleep. April - I had a little piece of my unsweetend bakers chocolate and it was wonderful - so I couldn't stop and wound up eating the whole darn thing so now it's gone and i won't buy anymore - so no more baking LOL. Chocolate is like my own personal brand of heroine (sound familiar coco? LOL) so knowing is half the battle and now I just truly know that It is just something I can't have at all. Funny but before all this I could just have a square of dark chocolate and be fine but now it's like oh no - I gotta have it simply because I know I shouldn't - Mind games, right MO? I'm not having another snack tonight but I did space out my hot bath - took it at 9:30 so hopefully I will sleep better - also since I've already had my carb fix I don't think I'll wake up wanting it. Lee: So not sure about the poses - It seems my head is ALWAYS sideways but I don't realize I'm doing it till I see the pic - I do try to not rest my arms against my side so that my fat doesn't push out LOL. I must win some type of award for the biggest thighs though LOL. Can't wait to see the hair stylist for the wedding hairdo so i know how much i get to cut off! Pammie - I don't know what us up with me & the nick names - Nicolie was just to much to say so I had just thought "cole" would be better and that turned to coco. as far as LB goes - it was just too funny to resist.

Mo - so funny that you said that - yesterday after lunch it was - it takes a minute for it to register that you're full and then bam -ear hurts. today is totally different - I can actually feel it passing thru the band & it's not nice! This whole thing is such a learning process

thanks Jes - sure would be nice if you could come next time!!

Pat - thanks for the compliment sizing for a bra is the easiet thing on earth - only problem is it's just a guideline as they are all a dat bit different styles & brands. 1. measure your ribcage right below your breasts - that is your bra size. if it is an odd number you can go down a size or up a size depending on the brand & style - for instance - I measure a 33 so I wear a 34 bra. 2. measure around your breasts at the fullest part. subtract your rib cage measurement from that number - every inch is a cup size so if your rib cage is a 34 & the fullest part of your breast is a 38 - that is a four inch difference (1"=a, 2"=b, 3"=c, 4"=d) you would be a 34D. "Piece of cake" - or "pice of steak" since we are all on protiens now LOL two days lady! Today is my nieces 16th B-day - I'm taking her & a few friends to Cal Skate in Rohnert park - Pat, Riley - you two should meet me there - good exercise! 6:30 - 9

thanks Riley! question... so i just got this fill and while i think im getting close im not sure i have "restriction" but im not sure. I can feel EVERY bite i take go thru the band right away but the thing is, I can actually FEEL it & it kina hurts. Did u ever experience this phase? Tamra, u need to check ur insurance to see if ur comp coverage has a full glass replacement endorsement. Dont worry, comp claims wont raise ur rates. So excited bout your weight loss - Update that ticker girl! Coco - work it out Mz. 219. Does anybody else find themselves ever using their txt abbreviations while typing? I just realized that I've been doing that LOL We got new panties yesterday.....

Allison - It is up to you as to what surgery you want. and all I really want to say about that is that Kaiser pushes RNY on everybody so if that's not what you want then be firm. Also, you may get some PM's from people voicing THIER opinions on what surgery you should get so don't be influenced by anybody else - do your own research and decide FOR YOURSELF what is best for you. No suregery is a cure all - with the band you struggle in the beginning until you get the right adjustment & restriction for your body then it gets easier to lose the weight - with the BP you have it real easy in the beginning while the mal absorbtion is working but once that wears off you struggle to keep your eating habits in check for the duration. Don't know much about the sleeve since it was not an option for me when I started they just started doing them. Sounds like a good option too though. but again, NONE OF THESE ARE A CURE ALL OR MIRACLE PROCEDURE - you still are responsible for your eating habbits - the ones in your head LOL Good luck! Coco - all the pics on my camera suck! The light in tha background is horrible and you can't really see anything so tell Robbie not to quit his day job LOL Heather - can't wait for you to email me the one on your camera - I will PM you my emal address right now. Left Boob - where you at - you need to keep us up to date on your progress - weight yourself yet??