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Thanks everybody for all my kitty love! I will pass it on to her :thumbdown: I have to give a deposition on Monday and I'm freaked out about it. I am not good under pressure and I will be interrogated by FOUR (4) sets of lawyers! I found out about this last week and have just been stressed out ever since - now that Monday is getting closer I am really feeling the nerves - Ah, but I don't want to eat LOL Anyway - it has messed with my concentration a little - Jes will tell you, when my concentration is off I'm no good to anybody I guess I'm so stressed because I don't know what they want with me hahaha Anyway, the following day, Tuesday, is some type of "mediation" but I don't know if I have to be there for that. If so, I will miss my appt with Doc Fisher - UGH - I want my fill :eek:

Heather - have fun girl and take lots a pictures!!

Let me just begin by saying my cat has a tumor sticking out of her but and is scheduled for surgery December 22nd. Doesn't cancer ever take a vacation? My poor baby had to get a rectal exam today - how the heck to you explain that to a cat - now she's not speaking to me! Yeah Donna! Glad you got your fill and are losing again!! Don't think this weekend will work because it will be storming and, I, too have been Freezing lately! Not gonna venture out in the rain. Riley - I have found my cure for head hunger! Wellbutrin LOL. I've been back on it for a few days now and have not been wanting to eat at all. Feeling any better? Lee - I bet you'll be banded by march! Good luck with Dr. Baggs. Minxz - long time no read - love the pic! 50lbs is quite a lot of weight - congrats! TAMRA - SO PROUD OF YOU MY LITTLE SOLDIER! Keep marching on - you can do it. Don't let the ex get you of track! John, where are you? How's it going?? Jes - how's that fill working for you? I'm really anxious to hear - so glad Park isn't gonna be doing any of my fills LOL Ok, so anybody heard from either of the Nicole's?? How bout April?? Ladies, where are you???????? Nicole - I know you're working alot now and don't have time to sit around on the computer but check in would ya! Nicollie - WTF? You've been MIA - your computer broke? - I know you can post from work cuz you use to post ALL THE TIME so don't even try to lie! I hope you haven't dumped us! April..... You hoo! Miss you girlie - come back!! How you feelin Tina?? How's michaela? Pammie - what's going on sister? How are you? Still not feeling up to par? Monique - FYI - I could eat a bear too if I could catch one. hahaha - Haven't been feeling much like eating the last couple of days but right before that it was on and crackin! Reggie - will you cook for me again - or teach me how to cook for myself??? Hope all is well with you and yours!

Started trying to read to catch up but i missed too much and it's too hectic for me to actually concentrate on what I'm reading so for now - HI Tina, Pam & Riley - hope all you ladies feel better soon! Yes Jes, you were part of the news - so glad you got our fill - hope I get one too!

Keep at it Tamra - you will succeed!

Hi Pammie - RE: Facebook... tried to comment on your comment on my status LOL but I got another error message - done with FB!

I really hate it when I talk to some of you folks on the phone and get good news and I really just want to post it but i'm trying hard to let you post your own good news - so get on it ladies - You know I can't keep a secret LOL LOL

I had pureed chicken & rice soup - before I was even aloud to have mushies! It should be fine as long as it is pureed. liquid can't really get stuck. Enjoy it!

Glad you had a good weekend Liz! Try to keep your mother a little while longer - you'll miss her when she's gone - trust me hahaha

Riley - I got my cookbook from Jes - I love it! What about a fiber cereal - let it sit in some skim milk to get soft - you could probably even warm it up some! I bet that would be a great mushie - why didn't I think of that before!!!!

Hey all - I should stay away from this site before I get a sore sick and a throat LOL Tina - so glad you got a fill! I hope i get one on the 15th - not doing so well in the weight loss dept! Reggie - good to hear from you - try to check in more often - missin you girlie! Maria - I never did much mushies but what I did eat was alot of mashed cauliflower - I used a little sour cream to mushie it or whipping cream - you could even use some plain yogurt - whatever works for you. Talapia is a good one because it is so soft already you don't even really need to musshie it up - just chew, chew & chew!

Tamra - I lost my job a year ago LOL - Actually, I've been on disabilty and was told that I was cleared till Feb 1, 2010 but then, instead of getting my regular check they sent me packing and said that my time is up and I have exhausted my benefits so i had to apply for unemployment because my old job is still "unavailable" and my benefits are thru my husbands union so I'm good there - thank God for small favors! Pat - I use to go to the San Rafael Kaiser but it was horrible - my doctor basically told me there was nothing wrong with me - that my migraines weren't real and that my "fatigue" was common and to get over it as 1/2 of americans are "fatigued" - When I told him my last 3 fingers turn white and go numb when it's real cold out he told me to put gloves on - jerk - My fatigue is due to my sleep apnea and still don't know why my fingers do what they do - in any event he wasn't the first person there that rubbed me the wrong way so I finally switched to Vallejo and have had nothing but kind hearted people to deal with. My PCP just told me to call them directly since i'm already in the psych system but I will do the google search - good info! thanks!

GO TINA! So glad you got a fill! Hope I will get one too. I'm going to keep my appt and see what's up. Lee - sounds like you would be the perfect compound president!

and doing our own fills! gotta get up & out - time to pick up my niece from school - got to get her to a doc appt today will chat later ladies & john Happy Friday!

I love my ground turkey. got lots a real turkey from thanksgiving in the freezer so since I'm only eating small portions it lasts quite some time! I do have a savings account we will be fine I'm just not going to blow it on x-mas and having nothing left in case I need it for food or mortgage - it's all good! Whis is it so much more expensive to eat healthy? Gotta learn to grow my own veggies! Maybe we should get a lap band compound going and we all move in and live off the land

Liz - I'm so sorry this is all happening right now but it will all work itself out. You are doing the best thing you can by working out and eating right and this will all pay off in the end. I so wish I had the workout bug - I'm sure my spirits will be back on top and I will be ready to rock once I restart my wellbutrin - TODAY is the day for us to rock on!

Oh to be able to walk boldly thru a chocolate bar

.99 cents cheeseburgers & top ramen are whats on the menu till i get approved for unemployment hahaha. Its hard doing this on our own but i couldn't imagine how hard it must be with children depending on you. on the bright side, there's no place to go but UP from here. PS: x-mas is cancelled

Riley Wellbutrin never made me lose weight but always kept me frm getting cranky. i switched from the sr version to the regular ones and it appears to be a different generic brand. just not working the same. my headaches are even real frequent again. Doc Fisher said it was fine to go back to the SR ones. They are at the pharmacy waiting for me but I was just waiting for $. Got some now so I'm gonna pick them up today. Did i mention that i'm officially poor now - got Suave shampoo, conditioner & St. Ives face wash - all for about 10 bucks - bargain!! Afraid to see my PG&E bill though... Been so cold we've had the heater on!!

good morning Maria. I went thru the same thing. sneezing was the worst thing in the world. i'd grab my port & hold on for dear life LOL. my problem with sleeping was because i sleep on my left side & tummy so i kept rolling over on it in my sleep and it would wake me up. Now its no big deal. i dont feel it at all when im laying down or standing up. its when im sitting for a long time or bend a certain way that it hurts a tad. my rib cage hits it.

Tina you just made me miss my Daddy - if he were still alive he'd fill us up - Dare I say he was pretty good with a needle - although, we could never be sure if it was just saline he was giving us :w00t:

Happy B-Day Tamra - you are forgiven on for the slip up :w00t: I had a handful of almonds - I never thought my almonds would be a bigger issue than my chocolate but it is! They are just so handy. OK - so another lesson learned! Tonight I went to a girlfriends house and her ignorant husband pushed me way pased cranky straight to angry so I just walked out! came home and then tried to eat my dinner! two bites of my canned chicken later I was so done - my chest hurt and I knew that if I didn't stop I would be in trouble - so bandsters in hell - just get angry and that thing will kick right in! yee ha! Thanks Riley!! I don't know whats wrong with me - I've just been a little sensative lately - I really need to get my wellbutrin hahahaha - I will pick it up tomorrow!

real quick - back to bands.... My port is directly under my rib cage and every time I sit down my rib cage hits it and it's getting sore all over again.... any body else have this issue? Is it cuz I'm short and there was noplace else to put it? I keep gaining and losing these same two pounds - at this rate i will NEVER get a fill --- anybody wanna hop on over to mexico with me for a fill?? Looking for the spanish speakers to attend LOL LOL LOL

Good thoughts, Heather! and please tell your sister for me she wasn't abandoned! She needs to call that girl to kiss & Make up! wow - so many hugs today - I'm feelin the love! riley - was I too harsh- should I go back and delete my messages - I just want us all to get along :w00t: Happy fishing! Oh, and Pat - want my surgery moo moo??

John - i love group hugs :w00t: