Ok first off let me share that I went to the doctor's yesterday and I am down 13lbs (YEAH ME). Now on to the reason I am posting...I need to VENT!!! So I call my work yesterday and let them know that I can return to work on Monday. My doctor agreed to let me go back as long as I take it easy. So my main boss is like "great cant wait to have you back. By the way come in tomorrow so I can talk with you before you come back on Monday for work", ok no problem there. So I go in this morning to talk with my room lead (I am a pre-school teacher), and my main boss. They are pulling me from my room, now mind you before I left they were all like "we are going to miss you so much and cant wait for you to come back, your such a great worker, counldn't ask for anyone better". My co-workers and the kids in my room, have pushed me to work at getting better sooner so I could go back to work. They were my motivators in pushing myself just a little bit further. I kept telling myself "walk just a little further you want to go back to work and be with your friends and the kids","I know I am hurting but lets not take a pain pill for it just push through it cause you cant go back to work on your pain meds". I am so hurt right now I cant even see straight. My room lead told me that the girl that they put in my room while I was gone is just AWESOME:ack2:. She is just really pleased with her and thinks she is good for the room. HELLO, what happened to "your the best Tina, couldn't ask for more". I dont know maybe I am being a big baby about this, and maybe its cause I feel like everything has been a lie. But I am the type of person that doesn't do that to a friend, and we were all suppose to be friends. We would hang out on the weekends and text each other at night. I just am really upset and I feel like I am being punished for having my surgery:crying:. I feel like if I wouldn't have left then I would still have my room (I still have a job but my hours are going to go down the toilet cause I wont be in a room). Sorry for the pitty party I am having I just dont know who to talk to about it. If your reading this thanks it means alot.
Tina
banded 1-26-09