ashleyb

I can't seem to stop thinking about FOOD. I keep thinking what is wrong with me. Now that Im on my pre-op diet I have a lot of time to reflect. It controls my life..it really does. I think about what i have in my cabinets and what i can eat when I put my son down for a nap. And now I'm sitting here and thinking to my self WTF is wrong with me. Why can't I just be normal and not think about food all the time.:cursing: It really frustrates me to know now how much food revolves around my life. I hate it. I hate it I hate it. I can't wait to have the surgery and be done with it. I know it will be hard but I really dont wanna live like this anymore. I wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich today soo bad. ANd I almost made me one. And then I stopped and thought Am I really gonna let a pb & j keep me from having my surgery?? Ohhh it's so much har

der then i thouhgt. So so much!

I can't seem to stop thinking about FOOD. I keep thinking what is wrong with me. Now that Im on my pre-op diet I have a lot of time to reflect. It controls my life..it really does. I think about what i have in my cabinets and what i can eat when I put my son down for a nap. And now I'm sitting here and thinking to my self WTF is wrong with me. Why can't I just be normal and not think about food all the time.:cursing: It really frustrates me to know now how much food revolves around my life. I hate it. I hate it I hate it. I can't wait to have the surgery and be done with it. I know it will be hard but I really dont wanna live like this anymore. I wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich today soo bad. ANd I almost made me one. And then I stopped and thought Am I really gonna let a pb & j keep me from having my surgery?? Ohhh it's so much harder then i thouhgt. So so much!

oh really, if you saw you were gaining weight why didn't you get a fill or something like that?

i was reading your blog and im just a little confused. Are you banded? If you are how did you gain the weight back??? I hope you can take this weight off i know how depressing it can be.