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I'm sure there are many of you that watch "Ruby". "Ruby" is a reality show about a women in Savannah Georgia who once weighted over 700 pounds. Through diet and exercise she has lost down to about 350 pounds. Last week's episode of Ruby talked about food addiction. Ruby initially was offended to be considered a food addict. As I watched the episode I realized... I AM A FOOD ADDICT. I don't say this proudly, I say this factually. Food is heroine. Food comforts my mind and tortures my soul. I plan my day around food and feel excitement as time draws closer to eat. After I eat, I feel dissappointment with my lack of self control (this is the torture part for me) and inability to eat reasonably. Why does food have this kind of control? I have self evaluated for years and the answer is mostly the same...I don't know. I was raised by a single parent and food was limited in our home, that could be a deep rooted issue for me. I have always lived in a fat body; I don't know who I would be without being overweight so maybe that's my fear. Maybe I fear male attention and the impact the attention could have on my marriage. I feel very strong in my committment to my husband but there's always fear of the unknown. Maybe I fear losing my best friend as issues are already arising because I am smaller than she is and she is showing signs of being uncomfortable with my progress (although this is a minor issue for me because if she's a true friend she will always be there and if she allows our friendship to dissolve due to me losing weight, then that's on her). Maybe I just love food. At this point, I don't know why I'm a food addict but what I know for sure is it's time to be accountable. On Ruby, the specialist recommended following the AA 12 step's and work through the addiction. My church offers a program like this so I am going to get involved and work the steps. As I dive into this area of my life, I have to live in the moment at all time where food is concerned. I have to be more in tune to the triggers that cause me to make poor food choices and learn to deal with them while I am searching for the "why" I am a food addict. I truly believe this is a huge step to my journey and who knows what might happen now that I have accepted my addiction. Acceptance if the first step in recovery. Good luck to all my fellow food addicts.

I'm sure there are many of you that watch "Ruby". "Ruby" is a reality show about a women in Savannah Georgia who once weighted over 700 pounds. Through diet and exercise she has lost down to about 350 pounds. Last week's episode of Ruby talked about food addiction. Ruby initially was offended to be considered a food addict. As I watched the episode I realized... I AM A FOOD ADDICT. I don't say this proudly, I say this factually. Food is heroine. Food comforts my mind and tortures my soul. I plan my day around food and feel excitement as time draws closer to eat. After I eat, I feel dissappointment with my lack of self control (this is the torture part for me) and inability to eat reasonably. Why does food have this kind of control? I have self evaluated for years and the answer is mostly the same...I don't know. I was raised by a single parent and food was limited in our home, that could be a deep rooted issue for me. I have always lived in a fat body; I don't know who I would be without being overweight so maybe that's my fear. Maybe I fear male attention and the impact the attention could have on my marriage. I feel very strong in my committment to my husband but there's always fear of the unknown. Maybe I fear losing my best friend as issues are already arising because I am smaller than she is and she is showing signs of being uncomfortable with my progress (although this is a minor issue for me because if she's a true friend she will always be there and if she allows our friendship to dissolve due to me losing weight, then that's on her). Maybe I just love food. At this point, I don't know why I'm a food addict but what I know for sure is it's time to be accountable. On Ruby, the specialist recommended following the AA 12 step's and work through the addiction. My church offers a program like this so I am going to get involved and work the steps. As I dive into this area of my life, I have to live in the moment at all time where food is concerned. I have to be more in tune to the triggers that cause me to make poor food choices and learn to deal with them while I am searching for the "why" I am a food addict. I truly believe this is a huge step to my journey and who knows what might happen now that I have accepted my addiction. Acceptance if the first step in recovery. Good luck to all my fellow food addicts.

4pyes, I know exactly how you feel. Although I choose Lapband for the slow weight loss, I didn't realize how "SLOW" it would be. When people think of WLS they think of those people who have Gastric Bypass. People who have GB loose weight fast. It almost drips off of them. I dealt with depression when I was first banded because I had expectations that I would lose at least 2 pounds a week. I don't lose 2 pounds a week. I am averaging about 5 pounds a month and I have learned to accept that sometimes that 5 pounds is lost in one week and nothing in the other 3 weeks of the month but overall I lose about 5 pounds. That's the type of "loser" I am. lol Give yourself a break. This is a marathon, not a sprint. Focus on doing the right things everyday and in a year, I promise you will be glad you did this. Figure out what kind of "loser" you are and learn to be ok with it. I will be 1 year out on October 16th and I have lost 86 pounds. My goal was to be at 100 pounds lost by my anniversary but it's not going to happen but I'm not going to be depressed over it. If I end up at 90 pounds, that's still something to be proud of!!! This is a long journey! PM me anytime!!!

Several weeks ago while I was at the gym one of the ladies, who I talk with frequently ask me how much I had lost and I told her about 60 pounds. There was an older man who I never talk to listening to the conversation and chimed in, "Wow, you must have been really big". I just gave him a "who are you look" and was like "Yes, I guess I was". Of course I was furious. Then today he approached me to tell me that "I really didn't think you would stick with working out" and that "normally people as large as you just can't stay committed; try to stay motivated". Can you believe this man? Who does he think he is? Why do people think they can say whatever they want. The worst part is: I think he believes he was giving me a compliment. Anyone else have nasty people out there say mean things to them and embarrass you?

Ok...my sin for today was Strawberry Cheesecake from Burger King. 310 calories of pure sin!!! lol but worth it!!

H - 339 S - 315 C - 270 Hey Sistergrl25 When were you banded? You're doing a great job!!

I know exactly what you're talking about. I get frustrated when the scale won't move too. My advise is to really hold yourself accountable to everything you're putting in your mouth. Get your exercise in (even if that come in the form of yard work) and the results will come. I am only averaging about 5 pounds per months weight loss and that includes the month I lost 0 pounds. Keep doing the right things and the results will come. If you're anything like me, everytime you step on the scale it should be down atleast a pound...it won't!!! Good Luck!!

Until you're banded you will have no idea at how much work is involved with being banded. It is constant effort. It is not easy. My friend ask my why I just didn't put as much effort into losing weight before my band as I do with it. The answer is simple. I have been on diet after diet and I gave up when the weight didn't come off easily. I did not have self control and felt helpless. With my band I am excited about losing weight because I KNOW if I do the right things I will see the results. I have hope that I didn't have doing it all on my own. Plus my band has taught me to slow down when eating and it keeps me from binging and eating excessively. I am a believer in looking at situations positively; you can believe getting banded is a failure or believe it will lead you to victory. My band is giving me my life back and if you see that as failure then the band probably isn't for you.

I have just started to jog a little on the treadmill and I am noticing that the jogging is causing the area around my port to hurt. I carry most of my weight in my stomach and believe when I jog the weight I carry is tugging and pulling the port. Has anyone experienced this? Do you think it will cause me any problems later if I continue to jog? Thanks!

Finally, I think I have my sweet spot!!! I got a fill on Wednesday and 8cc's in my 14cc band I can finally tell a big difference in the amount of food I can eat. I went off liquids yesterday and didn't notice much of a difference until today. I can only eat a 4 or 5 bites and I'm done. Also I had been able to eat bread but not today. I hope I can keep this restriction for a while and take off some pounds. Finally!!! I feel like my band is doing what it's suppose to do!!! My doctor was intially going to give me .5cc but I explained that I could eat a lot more than I should be able to and he gave me a 1cc. I am so glad he did!!!

I have noticed that my taste has changed. I didn't notice quite as quickly as you as I am 5 months post op. I always hated onions....ALWAYS! I tried to eat them but just never could. Now I love them!! I still don't like them raw but I love them cooked. There are things I loved that I hate now, like pasta. I went to Olive Garden a month or so ago and had my classic Chicken Parm and I couldn't eat the pasta. It tasted like mush to me. My family and friends say they don't know who I am!!! lol The only educated guess I have on why your taste may change is that we have to slow down to eat our food now because of the band. Speaking for myself, many times in my preband life I have eaten and never even tasted my food. Maybe slowing down and actually tasting the food helps us to realize it wasn't all that to begin with!!! Good luck!!