NCChris

So, I know this thread is REALLY old, but I found it via a Google search because in a moment of feeling blue, I needed to hear that I wasn't alone. I'm a year and a half out from DS and doing great - surpassed my weight loss goal and still going. Only down side is that eating is now a total chore. I definitely had a binge eating disorder (undiagnosed, but looking back I know it was there) and struggled with weight and unhealthy food relationships my whole life. I now completely reject diet culture and have gone on a journey to understand how to eat intuitively with the support of my post-surgical team. All of that to say - even almost 2 years after surgery, I mourn the loss of pleasure in food. Some days it's worse than others, but it is what it is. I'm going to gently push back on a few responses in the thread, because it's valid to grieve the loss of who we used to be and how we used to live and cope. That doesn't mean we aren't happy, following program, and learning new ways to live and cope post-surgery. Just knowing that others struggle with this same roller coaster of emotions helps me immensely though! Keep fighting the good fight out there folks. This tool of surgery is a great one and powerful, but remember to also be kind to yourselves. We are imperfect, but capable!