OMG, that sounds like my story...I had planned this for 2006 after my beautiful baby was born and Diabetes stayed. I was given all these hoops, and thought I had everything ready. My husband changed jobs, and they couldn't schedule me before the insurance expired. It was such a mess. I was totally not happy, and couldn't get the credit since I have alot of student loans, and am on my second degree.
A year ago, I started talking to a rep of a doctor in Mexico. I have the money, and surgery date and feel extremely excited and comfortable about this. My surgery date is May 4th, and my husband is going with me while my family holds on to our toddler girls. The various ways that all my immediate family has helped get this together is amazing and validates I am doing the right thing.
If I waited for America, I would not be getting ready for this.
On Saturday night I did the last ride I needed to ride on top of the Stratosphere, Insanity, the swings, and the emotion, and excitement took over me. I have a bucket list, and crossed another thing off of it. May you find the drive to see this through, and don't hesitate to take things into your own hands.