Colleen6

No one can tell you if this is the right choice for you. Only you can make that decision. I can tell you what made me decide thoigh and yes I still have doubts and am super scared. I've been obese and morbidly obese since I was in my late teens. I feel like most of my life had been focussed on losing weight. Getting on scales. The excitement of losing a bit and the depression and deep rooted sense of failure when it all comes back on. I'm tired of this cycle. I used to be active. I had a life. I have dreams and adventures I want to go on. But I'm trapped inside my own body. And the more I feel trapped the more I eat and the more I fail. This insanely destructive cycle needs to stop. I want to be free. I want to stop panicking every time I have chest pain - is this it ? Is this the heart attack I know is coming ??? Who wants to live like that ? I'm tired of the depression the lack of self confidence and self loathing. And THAT is why I'm doing it. Surgery won't fix my mind but it'll give me a fighting chance. I don't need the hot bod I just need to be free and able to live the life I know I deserve but can't do becaise I'm hiding in the fat girl shield