ftcitylady

Hello Everyone, Anyone in Knoxville TN? I am going to my first meeting this Tuesday July 8th @ Parkwest Hospital. I dont even know if my insurance will pay. I bet that is everyone's first concern, insurance, then when they find out they will, that's when they panic and really get scared. I know that's how I will be, big chicken that I am. To be honest, I am known for my cooking, and the thought of giving that up and all the good food , well, that scares me too! I love trying out new recipes, I collect recipe books, even have a job cooking for a lady one day a week.My life revolves around food. Giving up my hobby, my job, my life... but I know its to save my life.. It's just scary. And all that scares me that I may not have the right mindset and then I end up in a vicious circle in my mind asking myself if I am really ready. Someone help me, did anyone else fight this battle? Am I doing the right thing now or do I need to wait till I can say none of this matters anymore? I mean I can live without it but its just scares me to think I can't do it anymore. It's giving up a love, a old friend, something that brings me comfort when nothing or no one else can. Maybe they will have answers Tuesday night, Maybe I will figure it out then. Anyone else going? Look for me, I will be the 245 pounder there! LOL I hope to learn a lot in this group, I am so glad I found it! Wish me luck!