heyhiitsme

Hello! I have been reading a little on this site, and it has been making me feel better... but... if anyone cares to read my situation, I'd love feedback. I am about 205lbs, 5'6" and 34 years old. I have always struggled with my weight, and the only times I have been "healthy" weights, is when I have used some outside aide, such as phen or contrave. Well, the phen makes me feel awful, and the contrave doesn't work for some reason anymore. Plus, I have to combine it with a ton of zonegran (similar to topemax). Basically im a walking pharamacy - yuck. I don't know what to do... I'm very afraid of surgery. It gives me major anxiety to think about going under anesthesia. And taking pain meds. I also seem to be just incapable of dieting and exercising properly. I have spent so much money on nutritionists, Jenny Craig, meds... I've gone to OA... Part of me thinks I'm just lazy. I mean, it takes so much effort for me to not overeat and to get up and exercise everyday.. I had my thyroid checked, and I'm 1.42. I'm always on the low end of normal, although I've been borderline too low before. I am anemic, and need vitamin d I guess. Sorry this is all over the place. I guess what I'm getting at is - does everyone else here feel this way? I have been reading the pre-op diet and that's the scariest part of all! If I could do 3 weeks of healthy eating then why would I need this surgery?? Should I take medicine to help me with that before the surgery?? I don't know what to do! Any advice is welcome. Please tell me your candid opinions - I very much appreciate you taking the time to read my story and respond. Thank you!!!!

So I guess my BMI is 36, not 33. Neither the surgeon nor my GP has expressed concern over me doing this, but my GP knows I've struggled with my weight for years. It turns out I only need to do a liquid diet 1 day before the surgery, not 21 days like I thought. they have told me that the sleeve resets your brain so you dont crave junk food so much, in addition to not having the space for as much food, and that is how you lose the weight. I am really scared for the actual surgery - less of the aftermath. but I am really tired of being so overweight my whole life, and how it makes me feel. thank you for your reply.

ALSO - do we know the long term effects of missing part of your stomach? I've been trying to research it but I don't see anything.. maybe I'm not looking in the right places. I know people who eat less live longer.. but what about missing part of your organ?