I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I had a real rough time right after my surgery. The first thing was realizing that I had become allergic to the whey protein. Next I was trying to eat to much to fast. I struggle with food addiction., to this day. I had to get the food storage containers out of the baby section and watch what I put in them. Vegetables, chicken, seafood but not to much. We can't eat off a plate that is too much and it makes you feel miserable. Lastly I used CBD oil I checked with my doc first and it helped me become mentally strong to fight the fight.