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I met both my deductibles and could have gotten the surgery for 20% of the total cost and my fills would have been free but the decided to fire me for making an accidental mistake. It was there fault I made it too. I was just starting the long process when they let me go so now im trying to make it on my own. And on top of it all about a month before I was fired I was told I am insulin resistant. Now I cant afford my meds but the one really good thing that came out of all of this I got a membership to the YMCA for $11.40 a month and have been toning up and getting in better shape. I feel really good! Norton’s had a thing on tv tonight about insulin resistance and what to do about it and so far im going really well but my biggest enemy has been my eating. I want to all the time and salads don’t cut it I want heavy cheesy meaty stuff. The thing from Norton’s said that having too much insulin will do that to you. It will make you hungry all the time and make you want food high in carbs, so im glad it all makes sense but it sucks that I have to work twice as hard to loose weight because no matter what I do I will stay hungry so I guess ill have to get better self control and try and be even more active.

I met both my deductibles and could have gotten the surgery for 20% of the total cost and my fills would have been free but the decided to fire me for making an accidental mistake. It was there fault I made it too. I was just starting the long process when they let me go so now im trying to make it on my own. And on top of it all about a month before I was fired I was told I am insulin resistant. Now I cant afford my meds but the one really good thing that came out of all of this I got a membership to the YMCA for $11.40 a month and have been toning up and getting in better shape. I feel really good! Norton’s had a thing on tv tonight about insulin resistance and what to do about it and so far im going really well but my biggest enemy has been my eating. I want to all the time and salads don’t cut it I want heavy cheesy meaty stuff. The thing from Norton’s said that having too much insulin will do that to you. It will make you hungry all the time and make you want food high in carbs, so im glad it all makes sense but it sucks that I have to work twice as hard to loose weight because no matter what I do I will stay hungry so I guess ill have to get better self control and try and be even more active.

if you find out something good let me know. i wouldnt do ups. worked in small sorts for about 6 months and my back got really messed up i actually woke up one day and couldnt move my legs it was bad i had to go to the hospital and they said taht i had a pinched nerve and some other minor things but almost every day i woke up and couldnt upen my hands for like the first 5-10 minutes. it was really hard on my body

so it has been like 9mo since i have been on here, but you all have managed to remember me and just when i have been thinking about sugery again. how strange

so it has been like 9mo since i have been on here, but you all have managed to remember me and just when i have been thinking about sugery again. how strange

im so excited i went and picked out two REALLY nice guess handbags to sell on ebay. i love these bags. they are so elagent looking and they make me feel like im important when i try them on so i know who ever buys them will love them. they are both leather-ish. one is black and the other is white. if you are interested at all please go check them out!!!!! eBay Seller: charmynme: Women's Accessories, Handbags, Clothing, Shoes Accessories items on eBay.com :tt2::thumbup::thumbup::tt1::tt1::tt1::tt1::thumbup::w00t:

im so excited i went and picked out two REALLY nice guess handbags to sell on ebay. i love these bags. they are so elagent looking and they make me feel like im important when i try them on so i know who ever buys them will love them. they are both leather-ish. one is black and the other is white. if you are interested at all please go check them out!!!!! eBay Seller: charmynme: Women's Accessories, Handbags, Clothing, Shoes Accessories items on eBay.com :tt2::shades_smile::thumbup::tt1::tt1::tt1::tt1::thumbup::w00t:

yes exactly that is what they did the few weight watcher meetings i went to. thanks i am keeping on it. my aunt is emailing me a list of every weight related problem my grandma, dad and aunt has or had. their are a lot of them. I'm going to use them along with some other things to wright up why i think i should be approved and why i want this. i really find it unlikely that that will not work. i WILL find some one willing to approve me! how is everything going with you???

i was half an hour late. there were three buildings and my directions told me plaza III west garage so thats where i went. that wasn't it. so i went to the next one. plaza II that wasn't it either but i didn't know how to get to the other building or even where it was so some nice older guy helped me out. i got there half an hour into it but no one seemed to mind. i was hoping to go in there and the Dr tell me, "well of course i will send the insurance company my approval!!" but instead they told us a million things that i already knew and sadly he made it seem like bypass that the best option. it made me sad. after about an hour of great grandmas asking the same questions over and over i had to leave. i had a migraine and i could have answered their questions myself. the Dr's assistant noticed me looking at the clock and come and asked me if i need to go. i told her yes but i have a question to ask. she looked at me funny cause this was the time that we were suppose to ask the Dr things but mine wasn't about the surgery. so i asked her. she told me that there isn't really anyway to get around the age limit but if i can prove that i am in a mature state of mind about this then i can probably get approved. she recommended the psych eval. so in about an hour i am going to call and set it up. i hope.

i was half an hour late. there were three buildings and my directions told me plaza III west garage so thats where i went. that wasn't it. so i went to the next one. plaza II that wasn't it either but i didn't know how to get to the other building or even where it was so some nice older guy helped me out. i got there half an hour into it but no one seemed to mind. i was hoping to go in there and the Dr tell me, "well of course i will send the insurance company my approval!!" but instead they told us a million things that i already knew and sadly he made it seem like bypass that the best option. it made me sad. after about an hour of great grandmas asking the same questions over and over i had to leave. i had a migraine and i could have answered their questions myself. the Dr's assistant noticed me looking at the clock and come and asked me if i need to go. i told her yes but i have a question to ask. she looked at me funny cause this was the time that we were suppose to ask the Dr things but mine wasn't about the surgery. so i asked her. she told me that there isn't really anyway to get around the age limit but if i can prove that i am in a mature state of mind about this then i can probably get approved. she recommended the psych eval. so in about an hour i am going to call and set it up. i hope.

lol omg "fat fort" thats the funnies thing ever i really laughed out loud at that one. so i have to ask during all of this planning and prepping for surgery what where your goals? what did you see in the future that can be attributed to the band? i want it to be thin and healthy and to prevent the weight related complications that are killing most of my family. i cant wait to loose the weight. i do get the self acceptance and change thing though. i know I'm a big girl but i don't think about HOW big, then when i walk past a store window and see my reflection I'm always a little confused cause i knew i was big but not that big. I'm just in myself and don't think about it so much. i think it is both sad and funny that you feel competition with other big people. you seem to have a great personality. try to celebrate this change. go do something with your self that you will like, like getting your hair colored a color you never had the guts to do or get it cut in a style you never had. i find things like that help me really look at myself differently like i am capable of change and it makes me feel excited. or if you change your hair all the time so buy a dress or if you where those all the time go get a manicure/pedicure just do something you wouldn't normally do that will make you feel good.

im excited but a little nervouse. i really wanted my boyfriend to go with me but he has to work. i would feel a million better with him there but you do whatcha gotta do. i need to go over the check list they sent me. i think i have have every thing i just need to get it in order.

i look at the before and after pictures every day and some times if that doesnt help i go and read the comments on the plastic surgery threads cause most of those people have lost 100lbs or more and that gets me pumped.

lol thats really cute!!! i work at geek squad and that is like every girl here! : D

lol i bought bigger towls.... i want that tooo though. i think about that one all the time. or like being able to sit in the chair at Dr. offices without getting my hips stuck. walking past store windows and not feeling huge from the reflection. not worrying about what is jiggling where when i do what. and the biggest thing is not having to pay more to get something in a bigger size!!!!

i have had two serious relationships and the first one was not a good one he was super messed up. i still think he really did love me but he was too screwed up to treat me right. i don't thin he knows how to show love. any way we were not a good match it was unhealthy (emotionally) but the whole time we were together i was well over 200lbs and I'm suppose to be like 130ish so weight was never a problem we did all the regular intimate things and it was never ever a problem and now i am with the guy of my dreams. i weigh almost 300lbs and it does matter to him either. he is so awesome. he acts like I'm just the hottest thing ever. but I'm cool about it to though. most of the time their has been times where i have wrapped up in a blanket and cried but he in all his awesomeness has swept me off my feet and made me feel like a goddess again. but my point is that if you let your thin your weight is apart of your personality you are way wrong. its apart of your body and you will find love on personality and once they see you thorough loves eyes you will always be a beautiful sexy woman.

wll its 6-30 how did you do????? did you make it???

omg thats only like the funniest thing i have read all day. i do that i was telling my boyfriend something the other day and nothing was coming out right and i just started saying, "shut up shut up just SHUT UP!!!" and he got all mad and was like, "i want even talking" i laughed cause i was saying to myself. but yea do what ever you have to do girl good luck.

have you been with the same person the whole time? i know that sounds funny but when my aunt lost about 80 obs she and her husband split up and she hooked up with two guys (over the course of a year) and she said they both hurt. but before her and her husband split up she said it was fine. she decided its was because she had been with the same person for like 9 years also she developed bacterial infections after the other two guys. it was ans std or anything its just that her body was introduced to a new chemical and it reacted with infection. sounds odd but its true

i have really grown to love this site. there are about 5 people that i really like and take interest in their journey. i check the blogs every day and comment and some times they comment back. its nice. thanks to so many of you really giving me great advise i hope to leave the seminar tomorrow with great confidence that i will be approved. you all have given me encouragement so that i want to keep trying and your successes make me want it for myself, your advise leads me in the direction that i need to go and i just wanted to tell you all thank you for everything. keep your fingers crossed for me. my Dr is a butt head and wont approve it but lets hope the bariatric specialist will.

i have really grown to love this site. there are about 5 people that i really like and take interest in their journey. i check the blogs every day and comment and some times they comment back. its nice. thanks to so many of you really giving me great advise i hope to leave the seminar tomorrow with great confidence that i will be approved. you all have given me encouragement so that i want to keep trying and your successes make me want it for myself, your advise leads me in the direction that i need to go and i just wanted to tell you all thank you for everything. keep your fingers crossed for me. my Dr is a butt head and wont approve it but lets hope the bariatric specialist will.

lol that would be to funny! thats right show him what he's missing. serves him right he should have staid home instead of runnin around!

wow congrats!!! thats awesome!!!!!!!!

sleep is good. my boyfriend works third shift and i cant go to sleep until he is at work and that means i get about 5 or 6 hours of sleep but on the weekends i catch up and its super nice. yea juice is a tough one i love cran grape and meijer had it 3 for $5 so i bought 3 and after a week and 2 bottles i looked at the calories and WHOA buddy was it a shocker. so it went to the back of the fridge. I'm so impressed with you thought all training for a triathlon thats amazing. that takes alto of determination and especially after being over weight. how inspiring, you told the, "i cant do it's" to get lost and your going for it. good for you!!!!

i go for my consult with dr shena at nortons on july 1st so ill bring it up then thanks now i have a reason to still go!!!! oh and AJONEEN, i have tried the no water with food thing for the past two days. im goint to keep going with it and im going to try and get a scale this weekend so i can see what amount of food satisfies me so that im not stuffing myself. thats one of my biggest problems is that i eat until i hit miserable. and then i go lay down so im goint to take care of both of those. i dont know about the protein tho cause thats only if im not getting enough and since in just cutting back i think ill be fine. thank you guys so much i dont know what i would do with out all the advise and support i get from every one.