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I had to take off my wedding rings and bought silicone ones a size smaller. I bought boots that actually go up my calves.


HW: 282.2
SW: 255.4
CW: 226

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

I’m 5’1- my weight on the day of surgery was 256.6 lbs and my BMI was 48. It’s been almost 10 months since surgery, I’m down to 140.8 lbs and a BMI of 26.6. I went from a size 24 jeans to a 2.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

10 months today! Down 117.4 lbs since the picture on the left was taken. 256.6 lbs on the day of surgery to 139.2 lbs this morning.

I was 31 when I went to the information session for my surgeon’s office and 32 when I actually had the surgery done. I wish I would have done it 10 years ago.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I’m 5’1- my weight on the day of surgery was 256.6 lbs and my BMI was 48. It’s been almost 10 months since surgery, I’m down to 140.8 lbs and a BMI of 26.6. I went from a size 24 jeans to a 2.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I had to take off my wedding rings and bought silicone ones a size smaller. I bought boots that actually go up my calves.


HW: 282.2
SW: 255.4
CW: 226

I had to take off my wedding rings and bought silicone ones a size smaller. I bought boots that actually go up my calves.


HW: 282.2
SW: 255.4
CW: 226

I just bought and fit a pair of size 2 jeans. I was wearing a 24 before surgery.

I just bought and fit a pair of size 2 jeans. I was wearing a 24 before surgery.

I just bought and fit a pair of size 2 jeans. I was wearing a 24 before surgery.

I just bought and fit a pair of size 2 jeans. I was wearing a 24 before surgery.

I don’t even know why I’m posting this other than I need to get it out.
By processing your feelings in part (here), you're already helping yourself to grieve in a healthier way. While I can't feel your pain (no one can), I can sense a great deal of strength in your words. And it's that strength and your determination to get through this without food that will help you to become even stronger. You're already stronger than you think. That said, don't walk around with a brave face. Now isn't the time. Strong doesn't mean numbing out or denying your feelings. I've always found crying to be very cleansing. Big girls do cry.
By not allowing yourself to head down a destructive path to cope with your loss, you are, in a sense, honoring yourself... and by honoring yourself, you are honoring your brother. And your mother. And your young daughter who must be hurting terribly seeing you in so much pain. Comfort your daughter. Sometimes when we look beyond our own pain, by comforting another, we are able to comfort ourselves, too.

My brother was a kidney recipient 9 years ago and we’ve set up a fundraiser for the American kidney fund in his name and seeing the donations warms my heart. He was also an avid golfer and despite knowing nothing of golf, other than my love of putt putt, I might try to learn.

I’m just reeling in grief. I don’t want to turn to food. And I won’t let myself. But as of right now, I’m barely eating. Barely drinking. Everything makes me nauseated. I don’t know how to cope with this. I’m just so lost.