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Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

No after pic - all eaten. I fancied a plate of things to pick at. salad with tahini and lemon juice, low carb tortilla, vegetarian cheese, 2 veggie sausage links. I was stuffed after this - it was too much really but it all tasted so good!

I'm meeting a professional contact in a coffee shop later today whom I have never seen in person. I was describing what I look like so he could recognize me, and I told him I was "slim." It sort of made my day, because I used to tell people to look for the "big boy." 🙂

Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

I lost a coping mechanism. Binge eating was my skill I used to keep my emotions in check, and now that I no longer have the ability to do that, I am suddenly faced with EMOTIONS.
It sucks, but I've been actively going to therapy and finding it very helpful. I'm learning new skills (creative wise, I'm knitting and doing things for fun that I never would have tried before) and just learning in general. Yes, I still have horrible mood swings sometimes, but it gets a little easier?
You just gotta hang in there and do your best, and all the support you can get and give is even better.

No after pic - all eaten. I fancied a plate of things to pick at. salad with tahini and lemon juice, low carb tortilla, vegetarian cheese, 2 veggie sausage links. I was stuffed after this - it was too much really but it all tasted so good!

Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

Moo Shu Vegetables. It’s so good.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

No after pic - all eaten. I fancied a plate of things to pick at. salad with tahini and lemon juice, low carb tortilla, vegetarian cheese, 2 veggie sausage links. I was stuffed after this - it was too much really but it all tasted so good!

I was done last July and I did drink a little about 3 weeks out - When I mean a little i mean like a 4oz drink, Just to calm me down and get the journey going - Not that I am proud of this fact but now i can drink without a problem, It is easier to drink then eat.
Not saying this is a good choice and I know it is not - but i love my evening drink and chill time on the back porch and i justify it by mixing a little vodka with Protein flavored water! (Ok Girls light me up I know its coming)

No after pic - all eaten. I fancied a plate of things to pick at. salad with tahini and lemon juice, low carb tortilla, vegetarian cheese, 2 veggie sausage links. I was stuffed after this - it was too much really but it all tasted so good!

I've been wondering where @Frustr8 has gone. I miss seeing her on this board.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

The value of this thread for me, early on in the process, was seeing that one doesn't have to be perfect to be successful. I know myself, and know I am incapable of sticking to a very strict diet long term. Most BP posters preach rigorous compliance ... and that's not me. This thread gives insight that not everyone is perfect as is sometimes portrayed, and yet the weight still comes off.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

Today is my RNY surgiversary - that year went quick.
Today I also have a ton of head stuff that's come crashing down on me - I think PMS/perimenopause is also kicking my arse. I have been yo-yoing the same 5 lbs... this keeps happening. I will take a month or so of yo-yoing to lose a few pounds. There is no other reason than I am eating the wrong things/too much because I am battling years and years of food addiction (and shitty genetics). It's really REALLY doing my head in.
I have decided to try weight watchers... to just try to keep me accountable and on track. I don't know if this is a good idea or a bad idea but I'm going to give it a go because I am really scared that I am going to start gaining weight.
Anyway, if you haven't already guessed, I'm having a bit of a mini breakdown over here.

Hi everyone, I am new here but I have been in my Bariatric program for 8 months of so. I had a surgery date for February 4th however a week before my surgery I went to get cleared by my primary care. My EKG came back normal but she decided to send me to the Cardiologist and have him review my results just incase my surgeon decided something additional would be needed at the last minute. I went to the Cardiologist and after his initial check he said he would clear me. He then asked what kind of surgery I was having and once I told him he responds with "Are you sure you want to do that?" He then decides to look into the labs database at some blood work results I had done over a year ago and said "oh it looks like your cholesterol is elevated....I can't clear you until I give you a stress test." I was furious. Then he says the only open appointment he had for the stress test was on THE SAME DAY AS MY SURGERY. But not before telling me all about a patient he cleared once and they arrested on the operating table.
I went in yesterday for the stress test and passed with flying colors. As I was about to leave he says "I still think this is a radical option for you to take." He promised he would expedite my results and get my results over to my surgeon the same day which didn't happen. I called back today and he had his aid to tell me AGAIN that my cholesterol was elevated and that may cause me to have a heart attack. If that wasn't enough he called me personally after I hung up with his aid and repeated the same thing. I explained that I went over my RESENT results with my primary care yesterday and everything is under control.
This man knew nothing about my struggle with my weight my entire life. All of the different size clothes in my closet, all of the diets and WL programs I have joined. From the start he decided he didn't agree with my decision and took every opportunity to discourage me.
It was at that I realized I had met this doctor about 5 years ago when I accompanied a dear friend to his office at another location. I remember he asked my name and when I told him he said my name was really pretty but I should lose some weight because "my name was too pretty to be overweight "
Needless to say, I will NEVER go to this doctor again. Sorry this is so long. He really upset me with all of this.
Hopefully I will have a new surgery date soon.
Thanks for listening

Okay so I’ll join in.
I never, ever realized that losing this much weight would make me look like half my face melted into my neck.

The one thing I had going for me pre WLS, was my tight skin around my jawline and i actually enjoyed having a round face.

Now I see this very long face with hanging jowels that slides into a turkey neck.

Not a good look and it makes me look waaaaaasy older than my husband who is 7 yrs older than me.

ok I'm back! It's surgiversary day! Like I said before, I'm kind of stuck... so, today I have signed up to Weight Watchers to help me lose the rest of the weight. I feel like it's a good way to celebrate! 🎉