jacqueline5678

Very excited this morning. Good things have been coming my way all week. I finally got over my stall (which ended up being dehydration) and have entered "onederland".  I have gone from a 40J to a 36H (start weight at 256). And to wrap it up even more nicely, my husband had an very successful surgery for his battle with cancer this Friday. Very excited and happy and a million other things. 

Had an NSV yesterday. I ran the best mile of my life. I was always very slow, still am, but much faster than I once was. I'm pretty proud of my 17 minute mile. Now to push to get down to 10 minutes. 

Its weird how your body image changes over time. I was fit in my youth (up to senior year in high school),  i had a very softball playerlike/borderline hardbody and i loved my body. After gaining weight, my confidence plummeted. For most of my adult life, I tried hard to lose weight, always imagining myself as thin with not much muscle. I'll never forget my father (love him to death btw) telling me at 18 to stop lifting weights because I (meaning me specifically, not females in general) can bulk up a bit from it.  He had always treated me like i was his 2nd son, but as i got older he started pushing me to be "girlier". I guess he realized as puberty set in, that despite all my feminine attributes my body liked being muscular. And it kind of stuck with me for a long time. I was terrified of weights after that. I wanted a flat stomach and a thigh gap and thin arms, but no six pack, no definition. Now, as i watch myself shrink down, I'm embracing how my body is truly designed. I build muscle (much easier than a lot of females), and I'm finally ok with that. I care more about what this body can do than what it looks like. And a lot of the things I enjoy require muscle....so......

This morning I dropped about 3 lbs. I have been struggling to lose this past week. But I think I have figured out my body's pattern. It absolutely refuses to lose within a week of my period.  Does anyone else do this?