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Literally the exact things I want omg!! Ugh. It makes me mad at myself because I know I'm just bored and it's making me this way. But I have so many healthy recipes, and I just want to hurry up and be able to make them and EAT them!! That's why I'm craving all the unhealthy stuff cause I'm like if I can't even have the healthy stuff then F it [emoji30]lol I'm not gonna actually eat any of the stuff. I wouldn't be able to physically anyway! lol I'm really hoping after these two weeks it gets easier. I know I'll have to WORK for it after I'm past this phase but I WANT to!! I'm just mad that I can't move or eat ): you know??

Literally the exact things I want omg!! Ugh. It makes me mad at myself because I know I'm just bored and it's making me this way. But I have so many healthy recipes, and I just want to hurry up and be able to make them and EAT them!! That's why I'm craving all the unhealthy stuff cause I'm like if I can't even have the healthy stuff then F it [emoji30]lol I'm not gonna actually eat any of the stuff. I wouldn't be able to physically anyway! lol I'm really hoping after these two weeks it gets easier. I know I'll have to WORK for it after I'm past this phase but I WANT to!! I'm just mad that I can't move or eat ): you know??

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

I want to eat a pizza and Taco Bell and bread with cheese dip and chips and guacamole and 3 orders of in n out fries and I AM ONLY 4 DAYS OUT OF SURGERY AND I AM SO TIRED OF Protein Drinks AND chicken broth I AM SO HUNGRY AND UPSET. ): I made it worse and tried to make myself feel better by weigHING MYSELF?!? I literally promised myself I wasn't even gonna weigh myself until like 3 weeks after surgery. Idiot. I've lost 1 pound and got super pissed. Now I'm hungry and pissed >

I know its difficult to avoid the food cravings. Stay determined, don't loose focus its too early......things will work slowly but the result are worth waiting.

I'm 5 weeks out and so sick of myself. Very slow recovery and if I read another book or watch more tv I'll smash it. My husband is the fat controller and when I try to talk about the really down days he tells me to be positive. It's a hard bloody lonely process and I have to remember to take a day at a time. fML

I felt that way too. It wasn't hunger and I don't think it was even head hunger. I was just bored. Sitting at home after surgery not really being able to Don anything and all the TV shows is commercials about food. It passes...

Lol....forgive my laughing but DITTO....got rid of scale so haven't weighed myself yet but day 1 after surgery was 3 lbs. Im 7 days out.....sooo hungry. And sick of liquids. Hope its only the head hunger everyone's telling me it is, because my head wants to eat a block of cheese and a jar of Peanut Butter. Hope it gets better soon for us.

They sent me home today, my surgery went perfect but I am in so much pain it's unreal. I haven't been able to get rid of any gas, and coughing feels like death. I can barely sip Water without wanting to throw up ): here's my incisions. The big one is so deep and it pulls my stomach down, ugh it hurts soo bad ): how are you??

Someone please tell me when the extreme pain goes away ))): I just want to be able to move normally again and it's only been 3 days since I've had surgery [emoji21] I'm very impatient and just want to freakin eat solid foods cause being on only liquids for the past week and now for the next 2 weeks... I have constant headaches ): I want to be able to take a normal drink of Water without feeling naseous. I want to get up and off the couch without feeling like my incisions split open every time ): I'm sure I sound like a baby and also ridiculous because I only had surgery 3 days ago but I need to know when it's gonna be better ): I don't regret anything, I'm still motivated as ever but I want to be able to do and eat healthy stuff NOW!!! )): I don't think it's helped that I haven't been able to take my anxiety and depression meds in a few days cause I can't swallow pills yet. So I'm really just in a funk. please someone give me peace of mind.

GOD GOT ALL OF YOU! HE ORDERED IT ALL FOR US! Can't wait for my date with destiny! SHALOM (PEACE be still).

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

They sent me home today, my surgery went perfect but I am in so much pain it's unreal. I haven't been able to get rid of any gas, and coughing feels like death. I can barely sip Water without wanting to throw up ): here's my incisions. The big one is so deep and it pulls my stomach down, ugh it hurts soo bad ): how are you??

That's exactly when my surgery is!!! Ahhh I'll be praying for you!! Let's check in on each other!! [emoji173]️[emoji173]️[emoji173]️

I check in tomorrow at 8:30 am surgery at 10 mixed emotions and scary feeling

on my way to the hospital now. i'm thinking of all y'all.

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

Surgery on Monday. I'm on my liquid diet, which is KILLING ME. I'm trying so so hard to stick to it, and it's so hard to be on social media or even watch tv and see ANY food cause it makes me so hungry ): the packets they gave me taste horrible and make me wanna barf. So I've been drinking Water and juice and chicken broth. That's it ): also my nerves are setting in. As I'm getting closer and it's getting more real, it's making my stomach turn. My pre op class is tomorrow so I'll get all the paperwork and everything done so I won't have to do anything the morning of surgery, but it's just all getting very very real. I just need a boost of confidence to make it through this final stretch. Any advice??

Surgery on Monday. I'm on my liquid diet, which is KILLING ME. I'm trying so so hard to stick to it, and it's so hard to be on social media or even watch tv and see ANY food cause it makes me so hungry ): the packets they gave me taste horrible and make me wanna barf. So I've been drinking Water and juice and chicken broth. That's it ): also my nerves are setting in. As I'm getting closer and it's getting more real, it's making my stomach turn. My pre op class is tomorrow so I'll get all the paperwork and everything done so I won't have to do anything the morning of surgery, but it's just all getting very very real. I just need a boost of confidence to make it through this final stretch. Any advice??

I already struggle with major anxiety, so now that it's currently hit me that I have a week until this life changing surgery has really shaken me up. I KNOW 100% this is what I'm supposed to be doing. I know I'm going to be happy and healthy and confident and my life is going to improve so much.. I think I'm almost scared of that. Because I'm not used to change and I'm scared of change. And I'm also not used to GOOD change lol. I have no idea what this new life holds for me. This new, healthy, not hating myself, depressed, and secluded life. Is it weird that even though I know it's going to change my life for the BETTER I'm still scared for the change because it's going to be so 360? I've just had a really crappy life so that's why it sounds so dumb for me to say that haha. I don't know. I'm just a lot of emotions right now. People who have went through this- how did you feel the week before your surgery. I need some strength and comfort right now. Virtual hugssssss[emoji31]

I really didnt want to tell anyone about my surgery in the beginning cause I didn't want people to think I was just getting wls to be skinny. But then I realized I wanted the support and love from my friends so I started telling them. Some of them are amazing. But some of them are almost getting mad at me.. even when I try to explain how it's for my HEALTH! Physical and mental.. and they try and say you could do so many other things, this is just an easy way out, etc. but they don't understand how my body works and what I have to deal with. It's really discouraging me and hurting me. It's not convincing me out of it in any way, but how do you deal with people who are against you when this should be an exciting time for you.