MowryRocks

Surgery on 8/21/17-cant believe its that close!!!!

I have decided not to go through with the surgery. If they can fix the pain I have in my head then I believe I can do this.

I don't know what is going on, but I am dropping weight like crazy since I broke that last stall. 

8/7- 181

8/10- 177.4

8/11- 176

8/13- 174

8/14- 173.5

Is it a coincidence that I was eating mainly plant based on my week long camping trip, (we don't serve meat on any church activities), and decided to go fully whole foods plant based a few days after returning? I am really beginning to believe my body is telling me something here. I guess time will tell. I am starting to look ahead to maintenance as I think it is closer than I thought. I am now thinking that 150 may be to too low for me. when I hit 160 I will re-evaluate my goal. One thing I have noticed about eating this way is that I get fuller faster. It doesn't seem like that would be true, but it is. Maybe it is just because the foods are less calorie dense, but I have to eat more often to get the same amount of calories in as before and I feel fuller faster.

Anyway, so far so good. I feel really good and I am confident that I found the best diet that will be sustainable long term. 

I am so close to weighing less than my husband, I can taste it!  Just 5 lbs to go to make it official.  He is a foot taller than I am and more heavily muscled, but that will not stop me from doing an obnoxious little victory dance.

They finally set my surgery date and it is already pre-approved from my insurance provider. I cried a little, the date is further out than I had anticipated - but at least it is set and I am on my way! 

I've got a lot of mixed emotions, I mean it's such a serious surgery... and I am a single mother. My boys are 13 & 11 and I think am I being selfish to put myself at risk like this or am I being smart because I'll be fine and it's important to be healthy. Who can say? I feel in my heart that if I don't do it that it's only a matter of time before I just don't wake up one day. But it's scary none the less.

I guess that I am going to have 3 weeks of optifast - I go to the class for it in 20 days. Then September will be busy and I will have a ton of appointments. Pre-op ed class, exercise class & weigh in, pre-admission testing, final visit with the surgeon & on to October!

It's difficult not being around anyone that understands how I am feeling or what I am going through. I cry a lot.

I'm mean because I am in pain everyday and I feel like I've pushed almost everyone away. 

I can't wait for it to be better.

Tomorrow marks 4 weeks and this week the scale hasn't moved. Only 18lbs down. Is this normal?

Hey Everyone~

I am new to Bariatric Pal and my surgery is in 2 days.  Starting to get a little nervous, but am excited as well!  Any feedback about how to cope with the next 2 days is welcome

Hi. I am new here. 2 1/2 weeks out from surgery.

Struggling at the moment, the last few days have been pretty bad. Feeling frustrated and angry. Have made some crappy eating choices since Monday and having an awful flareup of knee pain that is affecting my walking. Trying to stay positive and not let some bad choices affect my overall path.

I ran in the pouring rain this morning for the first time. It was actually not too bad except for the rain in my eyes. I am having a slight issue with my right knee, nothing serious just a twinge so I am running with a compression sleeve and following the RICE protocol. I am praying this doesn't side line me. I will be taking an extra rest day tomorrow just to be careful.

Wonderful Onederland!!!  My stall finally broke.  Saturday I was 199 and this morning I stepped on the scale habitually (I was going to wait a week to enjoy 199, hopefully  without seeing 200 creep back in there somehow) and I weighed 197.  Thanks for all the support and assistance getting me through what was one of the most emotionally painful stalls, EVER!!!!

It seems I've hit raw nerve with Greensleevie. According to her everyone fails at the bariatric surgery no matter what. And only she knows better because she has experience so all the doctors and nutritionists and all the programs that the hospital has put me through to make sure I do have a successful outcome are full of crap because Greensleevie says so. 

 So what is the point of going through all this if there is no hope for a successful outcome.  According to her I don't have the will to have a good outcome. I MUST FAIL and she says so. Weeee ...here goes a very sad and depressing road to no where. So if she fails or has a hard go of it...than everyone else must follow suit. NO ONE can have a positive experience and have good and healthy life after bariatric surgery. Again what's the point of going through this ??? 

I am told I'm immature and  I protest too much because I'm a "newbie" I don't get to say how I should live my life... I must be a moron.

Any one out there looking for positive feedback or a good role-model or some positive reinforcement look some place else... this is sickening

I have made a conscious decision to be the best and healthiest I can be. Why does that bother people. Too much negative feed back I must say good-bye this is very sad and I won't be a part of it.  

Post op Day 22...

So the dreaded stall is here....first I was angry,sad,depressed. I think I might have gone through every emotion possible in a matter of a few days...oh lets add confusion. I have been reading too much into other peoples journeys and I simply must stop. I took a break from FB, next might be insta.....then today I was just researching more about the stall and I found a thread were this woman made perfect sense....

"Please remember, Weight Loss Surgery is NOT a diet, it’s a lifestyle change which requires patience, diligence, mindfulness, change of old habits, etc.; it’s not a quick fix. It really does sound like you are doing very well and you just need to keep going and be kind and loving to yourself and embrace your success right where you are."

I have been expecting fast results when my body is still healing, my wounds are not even all the way closed up. I am doing more damage by fretting or physicking myself out. I need to relax and continue with my new lifestyle and give it to the Lord. My body is so tired, I get tired in the shower washing my hair. I also think I am about to have a visit from Aunt Flow....so maybe that is playing a part. I felt more bloated and have been having those hunger pains more (usually I eat more during my time of the month) I also saw some candy and wanted it. I only liked candy during my time of the month.

Also there are a few people on this site who like to give backhanded compliments. Or even advice, this site does have wonderful information but sometimes the threads can go crazy and too many people have an opinion. Just going to keep doing what I am doing and walk more. I have been doing my correct water intake and staying within my approved foods. 

I hope everyone has a wonderful day! 

It seems I've hit raw nerve with Greensleevie. According to her everyone fails at the bariatric surgery no matter what. And only she knows better because she has experience so all the doctors and nutritionists and all the programs that the hospital has put me through to make sure I do have a successful outcome are full of crap because Greensleevie says so. 

 So what is the point of going through all this if there is no hope for a successful outcome.  According to her I don't have the will to have a good outcome. I MUST FAIL and she says so. Weeee ...here goes a very sad and depressing road to no where. So if she fails or has a hard go of it...than everyone else must follow suit. NO ONE can have a positive experience and have good and healthy life after bariatric surgery. Again what's the point of going through this ??? 

I am told I'm immature and  I protest too much because I'm a "newbie" I don't get to say how I should live my life... I must be a moron.

Any one out there looking for positive feedback or a good role-model or some positive reinforcement look some place else... this is sickening

I have made a conscious decision to be the best and healthiest I can be. Why does that bother people. Too much negative feed back I must say good-bye this is very sad and I won't be a part of it.  

Less than a week to go.  Blood tests and ECG today.  I'm almost at the target weight that my surgeon doubted I'd make pre-op (It gets me below the cut off for an extra charge the hospital makes), I'll beat it easily before surgery day.  Feeling nerves for the first time.

So...officially I'm still obese (BMI 35) but I certainly don't feel like I am. I feel so much better (and smaller) at this current weight than I did the last time I was here (albeit gaining then). Just need to get that pesky scale moving a little more!

Sorry I am sooo late. I will make it short and quick.

6/15 - Keto nothing out of the ordinary. 

6/16 - Gym and healthy eating. 

6/17 - I had a small I mean baby spoon of Red Velvet cake for my b-day and I was out for the count. I had to use the bathroom a lot. My mom said, "uh hmmm. was it worth it?". I whispered, " Yes" lol. Just an overall bad day. I broke the diet and ate carbs and sugar. Shame Shame !!!! Lol I am only Human.

6/18 - The cake was still messing with me so I barely ate or even drank water. I was exhausted all day. Weighed in at 209.8 lbs.

1-Month Post Op Overall Loss: 14.6

2-Month Post Op Overall Loss: 8.8 lbs

3-Month Post Op overall loss: 10.8 lbs

6/19 - Barely ate or drank water again. I just slept most of the day away. Spent a lot of time in the bathroom. 

6/20 - Still followed the Keto Diet.

6/21 - Still followed the Keto Diet. Still time, adding breakfast foods to the option instead of a shake or protein shot. 

6/22 - Breakfast: Baked Turkey Bacon (3 Slices), 1 Egg white. 1 Romaine Lettuce leaf. 

Snack: 14 Olives

Lunch: 2 oz of ground chicken, mild salsa, 1 tsp of sour cream, and 1 romaine lettuce leaf.

Snack: Sugar Free Popsicle. 

Dinner: 2 oz of ground chicken, mild salsa, 1 tsp of sour cream, and 1 romaine lettuce leaf.

Snack: 1 pickle

6/23 - Breakfast: 3 Egg Whites

Lunch: Homemade Chicken Salad - no dressing. 

Dinner: Pickles and Sugar Free Popsicle. 

6/24 - Went to a friends baby shower. They actually had healthier food options. Met a few of her extended family whom had Bariatric Surgery. One woman (weighing 392 lbs) had the bypass 17 years ago. She said back then there was not a pysch eval, waiting period or even a pre-authorization. She said she went to the doctor Monday and that Thursday she had the surgery. She showed me all the scars from access skin removal. She told me that nothing prepares you for the disappointment you will feel when you work hard and you do not look the way you thought. She had to have a full body lift and breast augmentation. It was soo enlightened to speak with someone whom was from that time and had the experience. She told me that sugar kills her but rice and bread is her fave. She stated that she got down to 125 lbs and felt soo unattractive. She stated that she gained her weight back up to 185 lbs and have maintained that weight for over 10 years. 

6/25 - Had my Keto Meal. 

Breakfast: Baked Turkey Bacon (3 Slices), 1 Boiled Egg white. 

Snack: 14 Olives

Lunch: 2 oz of chicken, 1 tsp of sour cream, and 2 romaine lettuce leaf.

Snack: Sugar Free Popsicle. 

Dinner: 2 oz of Chicken and Romaine Lettuce with 1/2 tomato. 

Snack: 1 pickle

My best friend is trying to get me to try Isagenix (https://www.isagenix.com/en-us/products/weight-loss). She has lost 55 lbs since February on it. It is like $378 a month. I am like the hell!! Bro whom has that money. She is really excited and she wants to me to try it so bad. I am tempted. Keto has been awesome but I am bored now and want to try something else. I think I am a Fad Diet Groupie. 

Oh and the Hydrate. On the days when I focus on water. I am barely eating. I love those days. Food does not be on my mind. Below I have screen shot my progress. So yayy. Keto has really helped me get back on track. 

Yesterday was my 6 month post op appointment, even though I'm 8 months out on the 26th.  Thinks have been delayed for me since my husband's stroke at the end of February and resulting heart surgery mid- May.  He is still really proud of me. 89 pound down.

Joined Planet Fitness last night.  Spent an hour there last night on the treadmill, doing the 12 minute ab circuit, and working on arms and shoulders.  Went back again this morning to complete Week 3 Day 1 of C25K and do the ab circuit this morning.  Early morning is going to be my jam.  It's close to work, so it should be easy to keep up with regardless.

I shared this site with my daughter and my "Concerned Mom" discussions.  I was asked to see if she'd like to be part of the BariatricPal community.

Please welcome Gabbby.  She just joined us.

It's Sunday, Father's Day and the family will all be together this afternoon.  No one knows other than her father and older sister of Gabbby's decision to have the sleeve done.  

We are 3 days away. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I know she'll have a positive outcome. Thanks for all your support. 

3 days without stepping on the scale is really messing with my head.  3 more days to go!  Onederland is coming, but it needs to speed up just a tad...lol

Feeling so sad today

I am really thinking about vlogging my journey, or blogging at a minimual, anyone know a free blog spot!?

Can someone tell me how to start a blog page? thanks

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4/19 - Had a protein shot which was 15 grams of protein for breakfast. Had 1/2 grill chicken broken up into 4 small meals, with two pieces of steamed broccoli each. Premier Protein shake for dinner. Total 65g protein, 2g sugar, 9g of carbs, 6g of fat. I also have not stepped on a scale since my 2 week post op. I am starting to worry that I am either stalling or have gained weight. I am sure that I am just overreacting, however I weigh in Friday when I see my NUT. I am hoping that I have lost weight. 

4/19 - Had a protein shot which was 15 grams of protein for breakfast. Had 1/2 grill chicken broken up into 4 small meals, with two pieces of steamed broccoli each. Premier Protein shake for dinner. Total 65g protein, 2g sugar, 9g of carbs, 6g of fat. I also have not stepped on a scale since my 2 week post op. I am starting to worry that I am either stalling or have gained weight. I am sure that I am just overreacting, however I weigh in Friday when I see my NUT. I am hoping that I have lost weight.