HisMrsWright

This is not worded too strongly. I know I need to do these things. It's very difficult when I have a really bad fear for throwing up. Before surgery I was a. Why picky eater and I'm even worse now. The smell of things disgust me. The look too. I also do not like milk. I never did before surgery and I sure don't now either. I used to be able to tolerate skim chocolate milk but even mixing shakes with skim milk now is gross. I am so nauseated by all this fake sugar. I have no idea how I was ever such a crazy Diet Coke drinker. I quit months before Surgery and to think about how much I used to drink of it now is disgusting. I keep making broth and shakes and as soon as I get it in front of me to drink I'm about to hurl. It grosses me out so bad. I think it goes with the nausea though. Trying to go to my closest ER and tell them my surgeon didn't take me seriously was a joke. I went to the hospital the surgeon works for yesterday and it finally went somewhere. So I will see what happens from here and keep trying to get Fluid in." Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

I'm so sorry you feel this way! When I hear it from someone else it makes me even more sad. It's so hard not knowing what to do. I feel like doctors are doctors for a reason and they should be able to fix everything and in this case people like us are stuck! I don't think we should feel disappointed in ourself if we did everything we were supposed to. It's hard to wrap our minds around it though. Feeling bad sucks. I hope it will soon get better for you too! Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

I appreciate everyone's kind words, stories, and concern. It's so encouraging to know it can and will get better. I just don't have much optimism right now. I went to the ER again because I felt worse. I finally got a CT scan. It shows nothing abnormal going on in my belly. It did show some very tiny (doctor said if you squint) sign of appendicitis. Now I'm worried about that. I asked if it just stays like that or what. They said as long as no other symptoms of appendicitis I'm ok. I feel like I'm lying in wait for that to happen now. She said if you ask 100 doctors half would be concerned half wouldn't. So whatever that means. While in the ER they called my surgeon and he wants me to come in this coming week for an EGD. It's about time! I left there with carafate. Since leaving last night I am now to the point of vomiting for real. It's not just nausea. I've got the saliva going crazy, heart racing etc going on and it's takes everything I've got to not do it. It's happened several times. I've taking 2 doses of the carafate. I don't know if it doesn't anything or not. I also got some pedilyte popcicles. I tried to eat one earlier. I'm just trying to get fluids in. It makes it harder now that I am on the verge of throwing up. As for my husband and his stupid comments. He's an alcoholic so that doesn't make anything easy. He keeps drinking because he's worried about me he says. How dumb is that? I need him to get his act together and at least take care of our youngest. His mom isn't a reliable source of help and my kids aren't allowed over at my parents house anymore. (Long story but my brother was inappropriately touching our daughter and that's still under investigation.) I am having a lot of problems financially or I'd hire a babysitter. I feel like I have one issue after another and I just need something to go right. I need my health more than I need anything. So here's to hoping this gets better very soon. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

I know every time I post all I do is complain but I have no one who listens or understands. I regret this surgery so bad. My mom told me to eat too much and stretch my stomach out and go back to normal. Is she crazy or what? The other night my husband told me this wasn't his problem. And my mother in law who was a big support just doesn't get it. I went to the local hospital Monday evening. I was hoping their ER would give me a different idea what's going on. I had tried to call my surgeon again that day and never heard back so I just went in here. They said I had starvation ketosis and my body was eating itself and I had low potassium. I ended up staying in the hospital for 2 days and told I would have to follow up with my surgeon because their Bariatric doctors won't touch someone else's patient. Well Ok then. I am constantly sick feeling or just feeling like crap. I don't feel right at all. I have spent a lot of time thinking lately trying to pin point things and I realize I started out ok but when I was able to switch to regular soft foods that's when this started. Now no matter what I have except Water I feel ill. I also realize if I try something more solid that's not pure liquid it feels like a brick in my stomach. I typically stick to a few spoons of broth or nothing. I'd rather not eat. Who wants to feel bad? After coming home last night I left a message for the surgeons office and their PA called back. Every time I talk to him I have to start my story over. I have to repeat everything and get asked the same questions over and over. No I don't have a gallbladder, no I am not vomiting, my surgery date was 10/17/16, etc. Don't they keep files or something? I tell him what the hospital here says and it's like in one ear and out the other. He thought I said starvation psychosis and I said no ketosis and then he said this is what happens when you go to other hospitals. I went to one with a Bariatric program! I figured they knew something. Anyway he told me to start over from day one of the diet. Ok fine. He says my stomach is inflamed blah blah and it's not because of what I did or did not do right and asks if I think that will help. I said no and he asked why and I said because I go days without eating so how could it be inflamed? But he still insists this. He tells me to come in on Monday morning to be seen and we can go from there unless it's still not better during this long weekend he says to call him and I can be sent to his hospital. Well it's still the same last night and today. All I do is cry and lay in bed or sleep. I only made it at work one day and here I am off again. I am not ok. All anyone ever runs are blood and urine tests. I have no more veins left to be poked. I feel like something is broke. I keep hearing some people take longer to heal. I'm not in pain I am sick! I don't understand what is going on. I can't live like this the rest of my life! The anti nausea meds don't work anymore. I want to call the surgeons office again and tell them I don't feel good still but I feel like it gets me no where. I used to think I was tough. I was wrong. Feeling sick is the worst thing. I never imagined this would be like this. I just want to go back and never do it. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App