Hannah83

I don't pass judgment, but I think folks care about others that are posting and the risk of an ulcer is to some not worth it and they in cautioned worry just respond as such. Not so much a strong opinion but strong concern for others because of the very real complications with smoking or vaping anything. I have a brother that struggles with pot smoking and as much as I'm able to my heart goes out to those who do. I just would hate to see all the hard effort be for nothing at best and life threating at worst.

fantastic job! keep going!

Well, I've just put on my scop patch to start working for tomorrow with the anesthesia. Taken my last shower, and I'm very much at ease. (might be the no food, scope patch and my anti-anxiety with sleep meds and no food, but I'll take it) A bit of my backstory, I blew up in weight when I was age 24 to 25 around that same time I developed awful PCOS. All, while I was struggling with debilitating depression, cutting that, was scary to those around me, and just other things that you can use your imagination it happened I'm not here to glorify what I was, I'm here to give background info. so the form knows my part in the journey thus far. I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome at age 19, and for a very long time didn't come to terms with who God has made me be uniquely His. I have a testimony page on Mercy Multiplied when I graduated from seven months of intense faith-based counseling to gain freedom from the cutting, and have for the last four years been walking out that freedom day by day. https://mercymultiplied.com/2013/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ I got down to 233 pounds after seven months of monaterd eating locked up in a kitchen, my 911 issue I dealt with was my self-harm. The program was very structured and was free of charge, we all came together and worked together. We had chores and duties and as we progressed, for example, I could be around knives when I had the duty of cooking with other girls for a week etc. In my 20's I was a mess, lost and using my hell or high water stance that comes with autism in a self-defeating way. It has taken five years to heal totally from those things, and the same will be true of the food issues. Surgery is a powerful tool, and as such after a time the halo effect wears off, so for the last two years I've been doing on and off pre-op monitored eating with another clinic that I was at in 2015. By the summer I had my gallbladder removed, and when the day came for my gastric sleeve surgery the clinic closed down. I've spent the last 10 months since November of 2016 to now doing kickboxing classes and I've maintained my weight but have gained some really nice lean muscle (which I cannot wait for it to show through!) My father has legitimate worries about 'head hunger' and he's a great father I tried time off and working out and I felt I've honored his wishes. He loves me to death and as I've grown closer to God and been healing he and I have grown closer than we ever have and I love it! It is his overprotectiveness that rises up and finally, he is not getting upset but listening to me and AI to him over this week leading up to my surgery. I think a lot of it has to do with 'daddy's little girl' making her own choices in life, and it's a growing pain but for a parent. My mom went through this when I was at Mercy 4 years ago, and now I sense my father is going through the same. So at the end of the day, I respect my parents but this is part of breaking away in a healthy way. It'd be really painful for him to go through this during my courting and then engagement process! Oh my goodness, him giving me away? yea better now than an awkward later! Anyways, before this becomes a novel length post, I just thought I'd give some information about who I am where I've been and where I am going! Good things in store!

Oct. 31st, 2017 at 7 am is the big day for me! I'm ready!

Well tomorrow morning at 5:30 am on the 31st of Oct. is my big day! I've bought all the vitamins I'll need for the next 3 weeks and shakes. Propel water etc all is ready, and I'm excited! I'm currently 5'8" and 258 pounds. My goal is 160 or 170 range. I'm a follower of Jesus, live my love for God very loudly. I am four years healed of self-injury, thanks to God and a supportive family. My mom and grandmother are very supportive of my choice, my father is not. He is worried about 'head hunger' and this not working out at all. I can understand his concern, but at the end of the day, it is my body and myself I have to contend with. I believe that a huge componate will continue to be my faith, and family. I will also be attending support group meetings at the hospital that I'm being sleeved at. I've been soaking in faith-based music today, and am mentally preparing for the big day tomorrow. I'll probably update this thread when I am back home. It's only a one night stay and then I'm released back home. I do believe that those who are worried will be surprised by joy when they see me push through. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!

(waves) I'm a 34 female and I will be sleeved tomorrow on the 31st. I am 5'8" as well and currently 258. My goal is 170 pounds. Thanks for opening up and sharing, keep going! You've got plenty of cheerleaders here!

thanks for reaching out! I will be having surgery on the 31st tomorrow morning! My dad is very concerned about 'head hunger' and I listen to him he has a point. But after the first month when things do heal up I am going to pleasantly surprise him and others I'm sure because I need this as a reset physically for me to boot me in a positive direction. I've been considering surgery for 2 years and have been planning and preparing for a long time. I've even postponed the surgery for my dad and I've come to realize that I am the one at the end of the day that will have to live with me. I am the one who will get through this as will you.

Hello all, I've been a member here for about a year and some change. I've been through pre-op stuff for a sleeve for about 2 years now. Tomorrow the 31st of Oct. is my big day! I'm with Dr. Terasena's office and they are great. I am looking for a support buddy who can hold me accountable as well as just talk to. My father is very worried, my mom is supportive as is my grandmother. However, nothing beats having someone to email or speak with online. Thanks again.

So glad to hear that you are doing well! My surgery date is the 31st! tomorrow!

My poor dad, I love him to bits. I struggled with in the past borderline anorexia as a teenager and young adult. then it moved into cutting myself. He is concerned about the 'head hunger' and actually I love him for that. But, I am trusting God to get me through this just as God helped me recover from cutting myself I'm 4 years healed thanks to God and my family. They are worried about the 'happy Hannah' going away because for a long time I struggled with extreme depression, of which now it's under control. Their concern is real and they are a good family but I know that this will be a reset physically yes but mentally as well. 'What if this does not work Hannah' is not even on my radar because I'm going to be going to group meetings monthly counseling I'm doing already but will probably go weekly for the first six months. I hear them, and respect their views, but I am still going forward with this because at the end of the day I will pull through and only I can make the choice. I will pull through, there will be though days yes, will I have awful days yes, but I will pull through and triumph. I know it's asking a lot of them my family, but they will be pleasantly surprised. The 'head hunger' has been given its 2-week notice to get thee behind me.

Go with medical advice not ours

No smoking from anything including an e pen! The risk of getting ulcers is very high if you keep smoking or vaping. Get an oil version of the weed you consume!

Here here! This is such a well thought out uplifting and honest post. Thank you frankies gal honestly I've gained a lot of insight from reading your responses.

I'm so excited for you sandy! And to those that have had the surgery done or have yet to have it done. I am in the Newport News Virginia area and have just had my gallbladder removed. My surgery is going to be sometime in late August or early September. I just swapped the gastric sleeve date of the 25th of this month for the gallbladder surgery, one less thing to worry about.

(soft e hug) I understand. I have a relative who had a gastric bypass done and lost 100 plus pounds however she didn't include exercising before or afterward. and has recently started to overeat again one year out. Can I just be honest with you? I've had my gallbladder taken out and I'm doing better recovery wise but I've binged two nights in a row post op. *face palm* The point is to be honest and accountable and the second half of that is to do something about a slip up not fool yourself into thinking that being honest is enough. I entered the foods into my lose it on line account but honestly writing it down has more of an impact for me. My doc has done the gallbladder first and then the gastric sleeve sometime in September. I am an e ear or support if you need one. I'm going to be going to the support group meetings they hold the 1st Tuesday of the month and I'm hoping for the best. We are human, and it's normal to be concerned as with any major life change we have to want the change, and get back up when we fall because we will. It's keep on keeping on and hell or high Water mentantiltily. It was this that actually was the cause of some restricted eating when I was younger and cutting myself throughout my 20's. For me it's been God first and foremost releasing that burden to Him having someone to be accountable to in the real world what I call a 'safe person' and more then one if you can. All this is to say, I understand and as much as possible via the WWW I would be honored to be the person who befriends you.

She has done both separately so that there is less room for error. Surgeons are human too, and get tired. This is what she has told me, I asked her. made sense.

Yea I am hoping it's him again too! On a serious note: I've said it once I'll say it again I absolutely love doctor spangler. She is conservative in her approach to bariatric surgery, etc. On more then one of the Pre appointments from January to June of this year she's said: "I don't want to be the one to say you 'have to' have surgery." She supports every choice I've made and has been very informative, on point and accurate. The students that are at Riverside observe some of the procedures that she does etc. The staff and students all have glowing things to say about her. Now with a surgery behind me I physically know, she has good judgment and is a top par doctor who actually cares. PS. My dad was with me for this first surgery and he's slowly coming around to the idea of WLS. It's been good for my dad he's seen the good work she's done, met her briefly (she was busy that morning) He'll be coming with me to my August 2016 check up with her. And my dad stated about the surgery center: It feels like a nor'easter blew through here. (It was cold)

I'm very excited for you! *hugs from NPN VA*

*waves to BP* hey guys! Yesterday I had my gallbladder removed, this is pre having my gastric sleeve. A few things this has done, it's prepared me for the anesthesia aspect, the God awful afterwards, and feeling better within 24 hours. The team that I worked with was great, I was there by 5:30 had surgery at 7:30 and was done by 9:30! I'm not going to lie, it sucked majorly. However this was a good 'real world' test if you will as to how it will be when I have my sleeve done. Now I know to ask for the anti nasua patch the night before surgery. I also know the layout of the place I will be staying at, etc. Apparently when I was coming out of being asleep I asked the doctors how they were doing. I don't remember this but one of the nurses mentioned it to me. I was also, while still half out of things encouraging those around me to 'breath' as well while forgetting myself to breath. I'm sure they have herd a lot over the years as far as people being under and coming out groggy and what they say. So it's nice to know that even at my subconscious level I ask how others are doing. In fact the anesthesiologist said 'I want to know when you are having your sleeve so that you get me again because you were the funniest and nicest person in surgery I've had.' I'm feeling so much better now, but yesterday afternoon I felt like hell. Ain't going to lie. But again with hard thinking and re-dedication to this lifestyle change it's made me that much more determined to grit through it and fight for my health. I also believe there isn't such a thing as things just happening. This has prepared me, my family, and has been a good experience as in what to expect when I go back for my sleeve Sometime in September 2016.

*waves* I'm in the Hampton Roads Va area. I'm having my gallbladder removed on Monday and my gastric sleeve about 8 weeks later, so sometime in late September 2016 possibly October. I'd love to be your support/accountable partner. The surgeon that I have is great because she isn't doing both the gallbladder and the sleeve at the same time as is more common then I realized. She's very conservative has mentioned several times 'I don't want to be the surgeon who says you 'have to' have surgery' And she is doing both procedures two months apart. Cannot wait to hear more from you gals

As I have mentioned I am having my gallbladder taken out first. Then about 8 weeks later my gastric sleeve surgery. The date for my gallbladder is the 25th of July! This coming Monday. I decided to have it removed because I honestly don't want complications down the line, ya know?

Thank you for your post, seriously. This is one reason I've not been on FB Twitter etc. for the last two years. In all honesty this should be a place for support. Sadly, the natural bent when it's anon on line is venom. The reason even for becoming healthier is to obtain a better earth suit. At least for me. Not to spit for spat. If I could hug you I would.

well because I've allowed myself to cry and I mean cry, the sting of the grief is gone. I've asked the Lord to take that painful ache away and He has. Again, I thank you all for your support, on this side of the screen I now with bittersweet tears can honer her memory and the support I've gotten here has been a major part of that. thank you BP for your unflinching support. It's been a blessing.

I'm so excited for you! And to all those that are going into surgery soon and or have had it!

Thank you all for your lovely support! I mean that, if I could physically hug each and all of you I would.