My poor dad, I love him to bits. I struggled with in the past borderline anorexia as a teenager and young adult. then it moved into cutting myself. He is concerned about the 'head hunger' and actually I love him for that. But, I am trusting God to get me through this just as God helped me recover from cutting myself I'm 4 years healed thanks to God and my family. They are worried about the 'happy Hannah' going away because for a long time I struggled with extreme depression, of which now it's under control.

Their concern is real and they are a good family but I know that this will be a reset physically yes but mentally as well. 'What if this does not work Hannah' is not even on my radar because I'm going to be going to group meetings monthly counseling I'm doing already but will probably go weekly for the first six months.

I hear them, and respect their views, but I am still going forward with this because at the end of the day I will pull through and only I can make the choice. I will pull through, there will be though days yes, will I have awful days yes, but I will pull through and triumph.

I know it's asking a lot of them my family, but they will be pleasantly surprised. The 'head hunger' has been given its 2-week notice to get thee behind me.

((hugs)) And God is great!

Does your surgeon know of your history and struggles? I would think it's very very important to keep all things "in the light" and exposed to God's survey. Cuz, you know, if you even keep a few little secrets, He really can't get in there and really do the work you're inviting Him to do...also, is your therapist aware of what your plan is for WLS?

I'm not trying to dissuade you. I'm just making sure that your team has FULL disclosure so they have an active plan in place. Also, your psych has to be on board and get your medicine plan together WITH your surgeon, prior to surgery or it could be all kinds of difficult afterwards.

You do need to be aware that there is some association that hasn't been fully explored between WLS and suicide.

Saying huge prayers for you that the path is indeed cleared and under God's direction/timing. ((hugs))